I truly don't want to be the last one standing. Being alive without everyone you love is the most terrifying thing I can imagine. Yet dying is the the most selfish option I could take. I hate this. I hate life has to be like this.
Finally cut my hair the braids just wasn’t getting me the attention I expected from my culture and it didn’t hit the same as when it did when I was a kid and had them, Fuck it nobody wants me it is what it is. Time for unreal tournament.
The ex Leo who broke up with me a year ago keeps in touch every so often for reasons unknown. He text me this afternoon saying he’s been really bummed and wants to see me. So I’m guessing he wants me to cheer him up. I barely have enough energy to cheer up myself much less keep him entertained. He drains me honestly. I just can’t give him the attention he requires. Breaking up with me is the best thing he ever did if I’m keeping it real.
Anyone here knows how to read event charts? Would a Cancer rising be a good sign for business related event chart? Pluto in 7th and Chiron in 10th? Stellium in 9th house? Any insight appreciated