It's 3/24 and today I decided not talk or think about him anymore (this is the only place I talk about him, no one irl knows about my feelings), it's time to permanently end this and stop torturing myself. It's been 1 year, 2 months and 14 days since the day I realized I like him. If nothing happened in this amount of time, nothing will ever happen and it's about the time I accept I might have simply saw what's not there and this is one sided crush. To make it easier for myself, I deleted all the previous comments (hopefully I didn't skip any) and the topic I made about him, deleted photos that I had and I'll make myself forget about him. Life goes on even without people that mean the world to us, it certainly can go on without those you never had in the first place.
Well that was disappointing...when I face something like that I just get these urges to send everything to hell and switch to something completely different. Why the hell do I get so stubborn about things and why am I a fucking emotional idiot about everything?!