Aqua OVERLOAD.

Hey. . .

You know those traits about us Aqua's (Analytical,Manipulative,Detached)...YEAH those,well i've got to thinking (go figure)..thinking about how things USED to be..when I wasn't so smart,when I was smart but I couldn't detect what a person was going to say next..I couldn't tell that someone was telling me this and that to make me feel a certain way..I never asked myself why did he/she give me that look..I never understood why people thought I was,kinda special...nor did I care..back then,I just lived life...I went with the flow & now I AM the flow..nothing happens for me unless I initiate it..I am so emotionally detached,I honestly don't know when ive crossed the insanity barrier because I expect everyone around me to be on the same intellectual consciousness as myself & its really hard for me to make a connection with people sometimes because they are completely oblivious to what is obvious to me...my mind NEVER takes a break from analyzing everyone and everything around me,im always looking for ways to get things started at my job,just so im not bored.These days I just can't get a hold of my emotions!Its hard for me to just be IN the moment & enjoying it because im always trying to be on top of things,so I don't feel like im missing out on anything..but I end up creating instead of being in moments..I want to enjoy life again ..even tho,it was emotional turmoil but ATLEAST I felt HUMAN.I can imagine it's hard for the people around me aswell,being that I trust no one,and the people I do trust..I keep them on a tight leash,because..well..I like to do what I want to do & don't want anyone intruding on that..geeeze im going to much into detail but my emotions and mind have gotten out of hand..they are tooooo complex and impossible for someone who isn't me to fully understand..im not lost,I just...OH F**** it idk even know why im writing all of this,you people can't help me!NO ONE CAN!dfjnwkafnewfpbfaf lol but really,I just want to be NORMAL again,you know..when it wasn't so akward when you showed just an OUNCE of anger..I feel so out of place being emotional because people don't always know where im coming from,in other words im very misunderstood,I hate that!Idk,I just don't know what to think about my life,im feeling the urge to do something CRAZY..DRAMATIC..just to challenge life again..ok *rant over*

You're good at putting things into words. Do you have a penis or a vagina?

You-know-what - that doesn't matter.

I know the feeling. Inside you're thinking "tsujkdjfklfloeojdmnfnfmj!" right?

Yes, that ain't a typo. It's actually the only way to physically describe how messy the inside of my mind is.

But yeah, I too feel I've created a monster. All I wanted was to never feel powerless again.

I fucked up.

Have a song. Cheer you up:



Ooh drop it to the floor/make me wanna say "hey babeh!"

"But yeah, I too feel I've created a monster. All I wanted was to never feel powerless again."

EXACTLY!

"You're good at putting things into words."

I HAVE to be,not only for others too get a PEEK at how I think,but for myslef aswell lol

"Do you have a penis or a vagina?"
....
You-know-what - that doesn't matter.

Oh ok lol

"I treetrunked up."

Pretty much what im thinking now..you know how they say the end of everything is like,nothing but white space and floating random objects?Yeah thats me,in two years if I can't get hold of this..and you what?...This sounds completely psychotic,but life has almost become a game to me...like my playground.🙂 lmaoo not really,but kinda yeah..the biggest fulfillment I get is being able to dissect and get into a person head..oh and humanitarian blah blah,but thats kind of hard these days,with everyone acting all-you know...so yeah,it's a bummer.*continues eating taco*

being misunderstood isn't a bad thing, it means you're opposite of the norm, which in this todays society is not a bad thing. i wish i could help more, but im no aqua >.

@westside It's not a bad thing,but having someone who can relate isn't either or atleast understand,thats very rare..the most annoying thing about being different,is the backlash you get..I swear it's always that one or two people constantly trying to bring you down because they don't understand why I do things I do,even when I could give 3 s*** about what they're doing..BUT im very good at defending myself (Aries moon)🙂 but I just wish I didn't have to all the time,it only worsens the problem im having now..T_T whats IS your sign btw?

Honestly I can say I feel detached from people sometimes and it too makes me feel very emotional. Maybe you just need to find something interesting to do. That always makes me feel better! If your job is causing you to feel this way then maybe a better or more out of the ordinary job will help. I am too an Aquarius and only a few people realize I have feelings.

@Strider I don't want to be normal,I just don't want to be so complex..I want to be simple,not simple minded..but simple..I mean I enjoy the simple..simple humor,simple clothing,simple food..but my consciousness goes deeper..the way I think & do things has ALOT of thought put into before I do it..why?...To protect & respect the feelings and space of other ppl around me,if I were to TRULY be myself,all the time..the world wouldn't be able to take..no wait!I WAS myself as a teen,in school...& guess what...I was kicked out,my mother couldn't handle me no ONE,my mother sent me to therapy..I was diagnosed with ADHD..I rebelled even more & my mother placed me in a mental hospital for evaluation..they let me out 2 weeks later and diagnosed me with depression,DEPRESSION?DEPRESSION?!I was nowhere near depressed,I was just expressing and being ME..from that point on,I knew there was no ME.Being me,around those I couldn't trust,would destroy me.THAT is why I am the way I am,I HAVE to be.I am proud of who I am,I can look at my younger pics & see the exact same person I am now,only smarter & more aware.But me..I,haven't changed.Idk about you or anybody else,but at night before I goto sleep is the only time,I can just "let go"..during the day and around other people im a manipulative,undercover/on the sly control freek,who doesn't like for people to get too close to me..I find that when I do,they take advantage,which leads back to why I do what I do.And lol im not here for your fetishes..but I could give you something to lick,if your really into that kinda stuff *pause* what size shoe do you wear again?

Posted by DUNCE
@westside It's not a bad thing,but having someone who can relate isn't either or atleast understand,thats very rare..the most annoying thing about being different,is the backlash you get..I swear it's always that one or two people constantly trying to bring you down because they don't understand why I do things I do,even when I could give 3 s*** about what they're doing..BUT im very good at defending myself (Aries moon)🙂 but I just wish I didn't have to all the time,it only worsens the problem im having now..T_T whats IS your sign btw?

"the most annoying thing about being different,is the backlash you get."

yea i know what you mean..you just gotta say fuck it though cuz those same people that try to bring us down are just the bottom feeders of an already pathetic society, so you gotta learn to not let em get to ya. im a gemini. being unique will always remind you of how alone you really are, and it sucks, but you might aswell get use to it because theres really nothing you can do about it : /..

Posted by AquaMa
Honestly I can say I feel detached from people sometimes and it too makes me feel very emotional. Maybe you just need to find something interesting to do. That always makes me feel better! If your job is causing you to feel this way then maybe a better or more out of the ordinary job will help. I am too an Aquarius and only a few people realize I have feelings.

Ahh,im surprised you pointed out my job..you are def. an Aqua!I love us.lmao YES people,my job is a major factor right NOW.but I dealing with day by day,I do plan on finding something new..but you know the economy..-______- so im stuck with this for now,but it's really made me see my life as a whole,leading me to make this thread..:X

Posted by westside

Posted by DUNCE
@westside It's not a bad thing,but having someone who can relate isn't either or atleast understand,thats very rare..the most annoying thing about being different,is the backlash you get..I swear it's always that one or two people constantly trying to bring you down because they don't understand why I do things I do,even when I could give 3 s*** about what they're doing..BUT im very good at defending myself (Aries moon)🙂 but I just wish I didn't have to all the time,it only worsens the problem im having now..T_T whats IS your sign btw?

"the most annoying thing about being different,is the backlash you get."

yea i know what you mean..you just gotta say fuck it though cuz those same people that try to bring us down are just the bottom feeders of an already pathetic society, so you gotta learn to not let em get to ya. im a gemini. being unique will always remind you of how alone you really are, and it sucks, but you might aswell get use to it because theres really nothing you can do about it : /..

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Ahh,only a fellow air sign*

Yeah it's nice to know im not alone,but never tell an Aqua there is nothing you can really do about it lmaooooooo

@Strider You're right..to a degree...i've already tested and thought out IF my ego,was causing any problems....& I can't say for sure it's an issue..I started an experiment on myself..I told myself no more trying "this and that" no more over thinking,im just going to let things be....I thought I was dissatisfied before..but this was on another level..people walked ALL over me like a freshly put out doormat..they USED me,it got to the point where (I can't believe im saying this) I wanted to cry,on the spot..in the moment of realizing everything I feared before,was taking place...WORST than what I assumed...I felt like S**** what made matters worst,were people who I assumed previously would not take advantage did..that sadness,turned into anger that anger turned into acceptance,that acceptance turned into love,but at a distance..im talking about family & acquaintances,and past relationships.*BOOM*I'm back where I started.I don't need to be on control of every situation,but in control of me..what I'M doing.And to protect myself,doing what ive been doing is the only thing thats worked for me...I don't fear the people who try me,because eventually I will find a way to overcome them,but that leads back to the problem..I swear,its like im on a train,with no brakes.lmao :-/ And yes I tried NOT over thinking,but my normal thinking is ALREADY over thinking,so when I get in a rut,you can only imagine how much forethought goes into solving the issue...maybe it's time for me to get away or something..I think my knowledge doesn't match my surroundings..IDK .....:-/

I see what you saying,but..oh nevermind.

Posted by Strider
Only weakling submit to society(95% of human population) and lead lives of misery and quiet desperation.

Amen. One man's trash is another man's treasure, just like one man's terrorist is another man's freedom fighter if you think about it.

Either way Dunce, you just sound like, well, an Aquarius. I'd embrace it and use it rather than fight it if I were walking in the shoes you described.

Maybe these traits are all about developing knowledge you can use to help people..or if they are not they can be. if you can give people what they need rather than sucking up to them or just enjoying their company it can be profound and they will value what happened for many years... as long as in the proccess you dont become judgemental and negative about people

maybe try making a balance of elements. I started a relationship to get more grounding cos I felt too floaty. I was meditating on love and studying lots of philosophy and decided to ground it with some physical expression of love rather than it being just an emotion. I always tap into tradition and my elders when my experimentaltion starts making me feel ungrounded. Then I bring my new conclusions into the earth and mix it with them. For example I live in a Buddhist community and it can get quite abstract and theoretical there. So at weekends I go into the city and check my spiritual thoughts accord with the world of the atheist, or the person in the bar, or the housewife with 3 screaming kids. I try to get some grounding and I also try to bring objective knowledge so it becomes more personal and less abstract. I do this by thinking about people and connecting peoples deeper feelings with what Im learning. I look at elderly and dying and think do they really care about all these ideas or are they more concerned with things like how to get to the bathroom or if they are going to be able afford to put their heating on.

Posted by DUNCE
..I feel so out of place being emotional because people don't always know where im coming from,in other words im very misunderstood,I hate that!Idk,I just don't know what to think about my life,im feeling the urge to do something CRAZY..DRAMATIC..just to challenge life again..ok *rant over*

Could you explain this a bit more it sounds intriguing. I know 4 aquarius and I see they can be misunderstood. They can be quite abrupt but its to create something worthwhile ie its not personal..from what Ive seen. As someone observing that who is not an aquarius I would say that the people who like you doing that will gather around you so they can enjoy those dramatic moments. I certainly love it. Its probably a matter of spotting who is gathering around you and enjoys it then giving them enjoyment of your favourite thing and then you can relax and know they are enjoying it.

I think if you look with eyes that look into a persons soul some people may take it the wrong way. Because they dont want you to look into their soul and find it intrusive. It can be an enjoyment to study people and master knowledge but someone with deep knowledgeable eyes can be quite invasive looking. The misunderstandings they could reach is that you are being invasive, judgemental..especially if you are looking as if to say WHO the hell are you with a level of intensity, or you look like a very seroious tornado heading their way with some dramatic words to make an interesting interaction..you might look angry or threatening or challenging or intense or too heavy and serious or even dangerous if you are a stranger.

This is the misunderstanding if you are actually simply seeking a profound mentally stimulating experience

Posted by DUNCE
at night before I goto sleep is the only time,I can just "let go"..during the day and around other people im a manipulative,undercover/on the sly control freek,who doesn't like for people to get too close to me..I find that when I do,they take advantage,which leads back to why I do what I do.

Wanna ask about this too. I read that aquarian is a live and let live starsign (wanting freedom and giving freedom) but this seems to be the opposite. Is it a wish to be in control of ones own life and experiences that causes this? For example you can only control your own life fully if you can master not letting others control it with taking advantage etc. One idea is that you dont want anyone to put peer pressue or gain power over you in a social or work situation? Or try to gain mental influence over you etc..is this what you mean by take advantage?

Also another question. Is your constant study of how manipulation works in reality an attempt to master this topic so noone can do it to you and take away your freedom?

also my mum is an aquarius and so is my dad. My dad thinks to much and my mum says stop thinking s much life is simple you just be happy. So it seems 2 aquarius reached opposite conclusions.

1. You've allowed your "logical" side to completely control & take over ALL of you vs. allowing your logic to make up 50% of you, while yet leaving the other 50% to your actual emotions

2. Part of your issues are yes, b/c of your personality that you may not be able to change. But the other half deals with issues from the past that you may not even realized have psychologically affected you.

3. You can't change who you are so forget it, if that's what you were hoping was the answer. HOWEVER, you can change or adjust your mindset/attitude about things. Instead of looking at the world & the people in it as puzzles that need to be solved, & instead of sub-consciously being pessimistic 1st (before optimistic) about everything, allow yourself IN THE MOMENT to relax & slow your mind.

4. You've developed an inferiority conflex that stemmed from inner insecurities. You sub-consciously figure that everyone must measure up to these impossible standards b/c analyzing & pointing the finger at everyone else spares you from having to do the same to yourself.

5. Learn to step outside of the box. Stop being so self-taught & such a "know it all." The world is bigger than you, therefore it doesn't make sense to lack of common sense in knowing that. 5 people can have 5 completely different & opposite opinions/ways of going & thinking about things & yet STILL all be right.

6. When your're so closed-minded that you start assuming that others lack common sense or are somehow wrong/inferior all b/c they may not tick like you, understand that YOU'RE the one who is really missing out, not them.

7. Practice having a new attitude when you're IN the moment. Practice meditation techniques to calm/slow your mind

And by the way, I used to think/feel just like you so don't take what I said the wrong way. I'm speaking from 1 Aqua to another fellow Aqua & trying to get you to understand that I've been in your shoes before, as well as trying to give you some solutions to fix it b/c it worked for me

One thing is for sure, if you keep on being this way, you'll lose alot of good people/friends/relationships in your life. Not to mention, you'll never fully be happy

Try not to be the person that always has to be "right."

You probably have some anxiety issues too.

Again, I'm not judging you. I'm just sharing with you what someone had to share with me back in my younger days when I was feeling the exact same way

It's alot of hard work, BUT it can be fixed. The key though is to find a way to look in the mirror & dedicate yourself to fixing your problems WITHOUT over-analyzing how to do so.

A mind that runs too quick for it's own good is just as bad as a brain that isn't running at all

Posted by krysrenee7
1. You've allowed your "logical" side to completely control & take over ALL of you vs. allowing your logic to make up 50% of you, while yet leaving the other 50% to your actual emotions

2. Part of your issues are yes, b/c of your personality that you may not be able to change. But the other half deals with issues from the past that you may not even realized have psychologically affected you.

3. You can't change who you are so forget it, if that's what you were hoping was the answer. HOWEVER, you can change or adjust your mindset/attitude about things. Instead of looking at the world & the people in it as puzzles that need to be solved, & instead of sub-consciously being pessimistic 1st (before optimistic) about everything, allow yourself IN THE MOMENT to relax & slow your mind.

4. You've developed an inferiority conflex that stemmed from inner insecurities. You sub-consciously figure that everyone must measure up to these impossible standards b/c analyzing & pointing the finger at everyone else spares you from having to do the same to yourself.

5. Learn to step outside of the box. Stop being so self-taught & such a "know it all." The world is bigger than you, therefore it doesn't make sense to lack of common sense in knowing that. 5 people can have 5 completely different & opposite opinions/ways of going & thinking about things & yet STILL all be right.

6. When your're so closed-minded that you start assuming that others lack common sense or are somehow wrong/inferior all b/c they may not tick like you, understand that YOU'RE the one who is really missing out, not them.

7. Practice having a new attitude when you're IN the moment. Practice meditation techniques to calm/slow your mind

1 meditate on how the best way you can help people is to understand them on an emotional level
2 who knows
3 agreed you cannot make a river flow upwards but you can control where it goes. It can become 'logical' to not think too much and to relax. and logical to not develop learning fast so then you feel theres nothing left to learn and panic

4 do aqua have impossible standards? 1st that is not logical & since the deepest knowledge is that the happiness of all people is the goal & logically it follows that a world full of critical analytical perfectionist judging each other is hell..this makes a new puzzle to solve & the new path to perfection starts to be built where everyone sees beauty in each other
5 to know it all is not the goal if one derives joy from learning. because to not have anything to learn would be hell? The earth element always comes to the rescue. As a teenager I thought I knew it all but then I tried a long term relationship & realised I had many skills yet to learn. People are the richest source of learning because then theories have to be applied and tested in a real situation. It grounds everything
6 Absolutely. I meditate how all my knowledge came from others kindness. THEY are the great ones! try to find a knowledge you developed that didnt come from a book, TV, music, a conversation, a teacher etc..even if you put 1+1 together & got 2 the 1 & 1 still came from others.
7 I dont think meditation is necessarily the way because it is again airy. The issue is too much air. Air is good dont get me wrong! Imagine a practical earthy thing..eg if u eat a meal too fast u get indigestion..(too much info too fast is the same) u digest you need to do at a pace that is relaxed. & u havent even TAKEN THE TIME to savour and enjoy the flavours that the chef worked so hard to make for your pleasure. If u dont savour a learning but quickly move on to learning the next fact the knowledge doesnt have time to sink into the deeper levels of your heart. It becomes fat stored on the skin filled with nourishment your body hasnt found the time or resources to extract because its got to get on with digesting the next meal

On a side note a very important thing not mentioned in the thread is that everything is done for a reason. These drives...to master reality & be able to control it, manipulate it, understand it & gain a feeling of clairvoyance.. the wish to have a font of knowledge that others can drink from...there is a reason behind it. A fire! Some want to know it all so they can show off, be aloof, others so they can humbly repay the kindness of others. By setting your motivation u can turn the whole thing into a power that is beneficial. The best reason is always a humble love. The worst is selfish, arrogance. what an aquarius wants cannot be changed easily but why they want it can be

What an aquarius wants cannot be changed easily but why they want it can be very different between people..what do people think about fire for aquarius?

The fact that Aquarius has the mental capability to be so drawn to the intellectual, the manipulative, every ounce of knowledge their is, the analytical, etc. is what makes Aquas so different & is one of their best traits. BUT, if this about them goes over-board (as with any other trait), this about them can become the Aquas AND everyone who knows them, their worst nightmare

Again it's not about completely wiping out who you are. It's not about changing who you are to find peace. No it's about tweaking certain parts of your personality so that you can STILL be true to your true being & yet still find a way to function & have effective relationships with others

An Aqua trying to erase the part in them that is logical, intellectual, analytical, etc. is the same as trying to force a 2 year old to learn Algebra! It just won't happen!

Instead you've gotta learn how to turn certain traits down, while turning other traits hidden within you, up. That way there's always an equal balance. That way these traits about you can actually work in your favor vs. against it/you

I think most Aquas will go on to spend their entire lives trying to figure out ways to tweak this about them. It doesn't happen overnight & is a process. Some Aquas never learn how to control their own remote controls. Others, after losing many relationships and after immense emotional drain, finally allow the lightbulb to turn on & whoosh! They'll realize that "tweaking" wasn't as hard as their analytical/complex minds had thought for so long

"Maybe these traits are all about developing knowledge you can use to help people..or if they are not they can be. if you can give people what they need rather than sucking up to them or just enjoying their company it can be profound and they will value what happened for many years... as long as in the process you don't become judgmental and negative about people"

Yeah,im not sure what they are for..but I do use them in positive ways for sure..not just for the benefit of myself but for the people who are actually open to being helped.You can have all the answers & solutions,but it you cant explain them in ways that is fitting for each individual,they're are practically useless.

"maybe try making a balance of elements. I started a relationship to get more grounding cos I felt too floaty. I was meditating on love and studying lots of philosophy and decided to ground it with some physical expression of love rather than it being just an emotion. I always tap into tradition and my elders when my experimentaltion starts making me feel ungrounded. Then I bring my new conclusions into the earth and mix it with them. For example I live in a Buddhist community and it can get quite abstract and theoretical there. So at weekends I go into the city and check my spiritual thoughts accord with the world of the atheist, or the person in the bar, or the housewife with 3 screaming kids. I try to get some grounding and I also try to bring objective knowledge so it becomes more personal and less abstract. I do this by thinking about people and connecting peoples deeper feelings with what Im learning. I look at elderly and dying and think do they really care about all these ideas or are they more concerned with things like how to get to the bathroom or if they are going to be able afford to put their heating on."

The only things that seems to make me feel grounded,is when I feel people around are being more open & don't have alternative motives.That allows to me to do the same & from that point the possibility are endless.Other people problems,are exactly what they are.They,just like myself are focused on their well being.Two different situations on two different fields,it doesn't make the other more or less valid.Although it is,VERY humbling when you see the extremes & I take it as learning experience more so.

"also my mum is an aquarius and so is my dad. My dad thinks to much and my mum says stop thinking s much life is simple you just be happy. So it seems 2 aquarius reached opposite conclusions."

I agree with you're mom,life is simple or at least can be.I think as people,we want to grow & improve what we already have..because where not satisfied or we believe our current way of living is not matching the way we see it in our heads so we think of new ways to solve it.In my mind what you're mother is saying,is to be satisfied with what "IS".What "is" was formed from a previous "power" therefore,how can one be sure it is up to par,with what one feels "should be"?ESPECIALLY if one,is already unhappy with what "is"?Your mother wants you're father to stop thinking so much and just be happy,she would have to convince him his thoughts are irrelevant to whats happening NOW,in order to cause the desired reaction.

@krysrenee7..

I KNOW.

LOL.

But thanks,the main thing you said is BALANCE.

Thats a BIG problem for me,if im let emotions be..they can be very pleasing to those around me..that is until someone takes advantage.People @ first see me as open target,because well..I kinda am,if you're thinking in that way..I usually tell people in advance after while of things going smoothly,don't take my kindness for weakness..but sure enough before I even realize,im being exploited @ that point,I go into "safe" mode lol & turn the tables and eventually they will back off,and I will be back where I started,this is why I think im a hard person to get "know" so people just have to go by the "what you see,is what you get"law.This is my way of balancing things,it's almost full proof.The only problem is,ALL I said in the very first post.I think what michellemabelle said,about relationships is what I needed to hear..because thats the only time,I feel things are "right"..I like that analogy about the food..very true!

its not about what u know and being smart Maybe its about how we interprte information and learn new skills is what makes us unique and also our perspective on life I have a great perspective atm which keeps me engaged in living life and feeling emotions which i like...take every day as it comes at try to do a little better.

>>>>U need to let go

Posted by 1two3go
You're good at putting things into words. Do you have a penis or a vagina?

You-know-what - that doesn't matter.

I know the feeling. Inside you're thinking "tsujkdjfklfloeojdmnfnfmj!" right?

Yes, that ain't a typo. It's actually the only way to physically describe how messy the inside of my mind is.

But yeah, I too feel I've created a monster. All I wanted was to never feel powerless again.

I fucked up.

LOL!!!

@DUNCE: Are you sure that you're unemotional and cold? Your paragraph is full of contradicting emotions that you can't even control. Master your emotion first before you attempt to put anyone on the tight lease. Besides, I detect dramatic feeling in your writing (it's a form of emotion by the way) so maybe, detach isn't a bad thing after all for you? I think if you let it all out, people might get swept away 😛

Posted by DUNCE
Hey. . .

Its hard for me to just be IN the moment & enjoying it because im always trying to be on top of things,so I don't feel like im missing out on anything..but I end up creating instead of being in moments..I want to enjoy life again ..I can imagine it's hard for the people around me aswell,being that I trust no one,and the people I do trust..I keep them on a tight leash,because..well..I like to do what I want to do & don't want anyone intruding on that..geeeze im going to much into detail but my emotions and mind have gotten out of hand..they are tooooo complex and impossible for someone who isn't me to fully understand..im not lost,I just...OH F**** it idk even know why im writing all of this,you people can't help me!NO ONE CAN!dfjnwkafnewfpbfaf lol but really,I just want to be NORMAL again,you know..when it wasn't so akward when you showed just an OUNCE of anger..I feel so out of place being emotional because people don't always know where im coming from,in other words im very misunderstood,I hate that!Idk,I just don't know what to think about my life,im feeling the urge to do something CRAZY..DRAMATIC..just to challenge life again..ok *rant over*

I can't rmember the last time something happened, and i let it happen...in a moment i'm caught up trying to control myself,or distance myself so I don't get hurt...I just can't let it be. My greATest peoblem = I can't purely connect on a substantial level. Everything that occurs, I initiate it, and if it's initiated, it's not real to me...I can't let things just happen. I'm going through something like what you're going through...but it's a little more controlled. You see,im actually trying to control 'how I am perceived by saying t's more controlled'

:-/

Im the same way, I can never seem to get out of my head. My mind is constantly going and never seems to want to stop which has pretty much made me an insomniac lol

Posted by everevolvingepithet
Hehe, I guess at least you're never at a loss for stuff to talk about though ey?

if i drink coffee, there's always lots to think/dream about 🙂

Well Im glad he found this site to have people to talk with!

Bump 😉