I still stalk my Aquarius ex after 3 years

Posted by xyzabc
I can relate so much to this. It’s so hard loving someone so much whom you are no longer with because of things you did or the way you treated them. And you think if only they would give me one last chance I can show them I’ve changed….I would not do the same things I did before, I would treat them better. You beg and you plead, but they still turn their back to you. And you’re just left with all the memories of what was and will never be again. Alone with your thoughts and feelings all the while watching them move on with someone else….someone who treats them so well….the way you should have treated them and the way you would now if only they would give you another chance. You think damn, that could have been me they are with now doing all the things you wanted and dreamed of your whole life. And you’re just left kicking yourself and saying if only if only if only. Damn do I feel that! 😔

Posted by aquarius09
TL;DR but why do Cancers get hung up on Aquas. Is it the masochistic trait in them to want the emotionally unavailable and unattainable? I have three Cancer men who stalk and contact me eons later. I never dated or wanted to date any of them…as sweet as they were.

Posted by VenusStellium7
A weirdo stalking the weirdo.......what a combination.

Posted by WarAngel79
It was brave to write your thoughts, reflect on your issues and hers while you spent time together. If you want to go for broke, why not send the first few paragraphs where you put it all out there and see if there's a positive reaction?
At the very minimum, that will be YOUR CLOSURE. It's off your chest entirely and let it go. If she comes back, you'll know how to see and control your behavior and maybe even show her how you've changed. If they do come back, you're going to have to put in a lot of time and work to build back the trust you broke.
If that's something you want to attempt, be candid like you were with us and send the first 3 or 4 paragraphs, uncut and unfiltered. Their passive aggressive responses indicate potential for reconciliation but you need to be genuine and let it all out. That's entirely your call. Good luck.

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Posted by WarAngel79
It was brave to write your thoughts, reflect on your issues and hers while you spent time together. If you want to go for broke, why not send the first few paragraphs where you put it all out there and see if there's a positive reaction?
At the very minimum, that will be YOUR CLOSURE. It's off your chest entirely and let it go. If she comes back, you'll know how to see and control your behavior and maybe even show her how you've changed. If they do come back, you're going to have to put in a lot of time and work to build back the trust you broke.
If that's something you want to attempt, be candid like you were with us and send the first 3 or 4 paragraphs, uncut and unfiltered. Their passive aggressive responses indicate potential for reconciliation but you need to be genuine and let it all out. That's entirely your call. Good luck.

I appreciate it.
I thinks she’s cool on me. I said all I could say. I’m seriously just gonna move on with my life and not even think about it ever. She moved on with somebody so I’m sure there’s nothing at all at this point I could say. I gotta consider she’s with a another person.
And closure is one thing ion even need, when I was trynna keep it open between us.. But her saying zero to me is closure enough I guess.

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Posted by WarAngel79
It was brave to write your thoughts, reflect on your issues and hers while you spent time together. If you want to go for broke, why not send the first few paragraphs where you put it all out there and see if there's a positive reaction?
At the very minimum, that will be YOUR CLOSURE. It's off your chest entirely and let it go. If she comes back, you'll know how to see and control your behavior and maybe even show her how you've changed. If they do come back, you're going to have to put in a lot of time and work to build back the trust you broke.
If that's something you want to attempt, be candid like you were with us and send the first 3 or 4 paragraphs, uncut and unfiltered. Their passive aggressive responses indicate potential for reconciliation but you need to be genuine and let it all out. That's entirely your call. Good luck.

I appreciate it.
I thinks she’s cool on me. I said all I could say. I’m seriously just gonna move on with my life and not even think about it ever. She moved on with somebody so I’m sure there’s nothing at all at this point I could say. I gotta consider she’s with a another person.
And closure is one thing ion even need, when I was trynna keep it open between us.. But her saying zero to me is closure enough I guess.
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Keep all of your options open until you don't have to anymore. Then you may ask: why?
I've had women come back to me after more than 10 years of being separated. I've had formerly married women come back to me after they separated. And just yesterday, my own twin flame woman, who is currently married, tried to reach out to me.
So trust me when I tell you: keep all of your options open, until you don't have to anymore.

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Posted by WarAngel79
It was brave to write your thoughts, reflect on your issues and hers while you spent time together. If you want to go for broke, why not send the first few paragraphs where you put it all out there and see if there's a positive reaction?
At the very minimum, that will be YOUR CLOSURE. It's off your chest entirely and let it go. If she comes back, you'll know how to see and control your behavior and maybe even show her how you've changed. If they do come back, you're going to have to put in a lot of time and work to build back the trust you broke.
If that's something you want to attempt, be candid like you were with us and send the first 3 or 4 paragraphs, uncut and unfiltered. Their passive aggressive responses indicate potential for reconciliation but you need to be genuine and let it all out. That's entirely your call. Good luck.

I appreciate it.
I thinks she’s cool on me. I said all I could say. I’m seriously just gonna move on with my life and not even think about it ever. She moved on with somebody so I’m sure there’s nothing at all at this point I could say. I gotta consider she’s with a another person.
And closure is one thing ion even need, when I was trynna keep it open between us.. But her saying zero to me is closure enough I guess.
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Keep all of your options open until you don't have to anymore. Then you may ask: why?
I've had women come back to me after more than 10 years of being separated. I've had formerly married women come back to me after they separated. And just yesterday, my own twin flame woman, who is currently married, tried to reach out to me.
So trust me when I tell you: keep all of your options open, until you don't have to anymore.
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Well, that does give me hope.
I guess I’ll leave it up to her but I think I’m done reaching out.
I just want to meet a woman and have a better bond than I ever did w her.

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Posted by WarAngel79
It was brave to write your thoughts, reflect on your issues and hers while you spent time together. If you want to go for broke, why not send the first few paragraphs where you put it all out there and see if there's a positive reaction?
At the very minimum, that will be YOUR CLOSURE. It's off your chest entirely and let it go. If she comes back, you'll know how to see and control your behavior and maybe even show her how you've changed. If they do come back, you're going to have to put in a lot of time and work to build back the trust you broke.
If that's something you want to attempt, be candid like you were with us and send the first 3 or 4 paragraphs, uncut and unfiltered. Their passive aggressive responses indicate potential for reconciliation but you need to be genuine and let it all out. That's entirely your call. Good luck.

I appreciate it.
I thinks she’s cool on me. I said all I could say. I’m seriously just gonna move on with my life and not even think about it ever. She moved on with somebody so I’m sure there’s nothing at all at this point I could say. I gotta consider she’s with a another person.
And closure is one thing ion even need, when I was trynna keep it open between us.. But her saying zero to me is closure enough I guess.
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Keep all of your options open until you don't have to anymore. Then you may ask: why?
I've had women come back to me after more than 10 years of being separated. I've had formerly married women come back to me after they separated. And just yesterday, my own twin flame woman, who is currently married, tried to reach out to me.
So trust me when I tell you: keep all of your options open, until you don't have to anymore.
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Well, that does give me hope.
I guess I’ll leave it up to her but I think I’m done reaching out.
I just want to meet a woman and have a better bond than I ever did w her.
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As you wish. I wish you the best of luck, everybody deserves to be loved and appreciated. ❤️

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Posted by VenusStellium7
A weirdo stalking the weirdo.......what a combination.

Takes one to know one 💯

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Posted by VenusStellium7
A weirdo stalking the weirdo.......what a combination.

Takes one to know one 💯
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Exactly, they both are

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A weirdo stalking the weirdo.......what a combination.

Takes one to know one 💯
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Exactly, they both are
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That mean you too, dummy

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Posted by Emhendo

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Posted by Emhendo

Posted by VenusStellium7
A weirdo stalking the weirdo.......what a combination.

Takes one to know one 💯
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Exactly, they both are
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That mean you too, dummy
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How so?

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Posted by VenusStellium7
A weirdo stalking the weirdo.......what a combination.

Takes one to know one 💯
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Exactly, they both are
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That mean you too, dummy
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How so?
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Goofy

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Posted by Undine
Oh, the guilt of someone who caused a breakup! If you didn’t, would you still be together? The answer is probably not. Many couples don’t make it and the possibility of being dumped at a later time, even for trivial reasons, is pretty high. Forgive yourself.

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄

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Posted by Jumpin_Jupiter
She left you because you violent and say very mean things and now you stalking? 🤣🤣🤣 You want her back and you know it. You ain't getting her back so just move on with your life like you claiming you doing and stop stalking. Let her talk about you all she want. The simple thing to do is not go snooping at her text messages talking about you. Ignore it and make HER look like the one that want you back more. You can't keep a woman for the same exact reason you respond back to a user right here. Cold, mean and vicious.

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄
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I didn’t PRETEND to be in a relationship with the Sagittarius girl to her face. I PRETENDED to my ex, DUMMY … You’re so fuckin dumb, it’s stupid even coming at me about that when you misinterpreted with your dumb victim brain. I simply used our pics to make my ex mad. It’s only that simple.. Stop projecting your victim mindset onto people you don’t even know.
“Poor Sagittarius girl” head ass 😂 she’s FINE, you little sad ass bitch.
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You’re projecting here, because you actually desperately want to be perceived as a scorned victim in all of your stories. Everything is happening to you and nothing is ever your fault. Even when you physically, emotionally and verbally abuse others, you still want to be the victim. Keep surrounding yourself with enablers if you want to feel lonely for the rest of your life.

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄
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I didn’t PRETEND to be in a relationship with the Sagittarius girl to her face. I PRETENDED to my ex, DUMMY … You’re so fuckin dumb, it’s stupid even coming at me about that when you misinterpreted with your dumb victim brain. I simply used our pics to make my ex mad. It’s only that simple.. Stop projecting your victim mindset onto people you don’t even know.
“Poor Sagittarius girl” head ass 😂 she’s FINE, you little sad ass bitch.
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You’re projecting here, because you actually desperately want to be perceived as a scorned victim in all of your stories. Everything is happening to you and nothing is ever your fault. Even when you physically, emotionally and verbally abuse others, you still want to be the victim. Keep surrounding yourself with enablers if you want to feel lonely for the rest of your life.
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So upon being told you misinterpreted what I said;
Instead of retracting your comments and negative statements
You just go to making up shit about me being a victim; when this whole shit was me about taking accountability in the first place and opening up about it so I can let it go.
People like you don’t make the world a better place like you think you are doing. People like you are clearly miserable and NEED someone to take your own personal sorrows out on.
Let’s get real, you came here to search for something negative to say because you are undoubtedly the ONLY person that misinterpreted me when it came to the Sagittarius girl. Now that it’s been debunked and you were LOUD and WRONG.. You talk patronizingly like there’s still an issue here.

Please. Eat a dick, then have a coke a smile. You’re input is no longer welcome and you will be muted after this response. Don’t waste your time any further. You are a nat biting on an elephant’s ass at this point. Get a life.
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You’re just yapping away on this site to get coddled. You’ll tell the horrible stuff you did, just to play victim about it. Hey, it’s your life and if being delusional makes you happy… cheers.

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Posted by Lumin
That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄
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I didn’t PRETEND to be in a relationship with the Sagittarius girl to her face. I PRETENDED to my ex, DUMMY … You’re so fuckin dumb, it’s stupid even coming at me about that when you misinterpreted with your dumb victim brain. I simply used our pics to make my ex mad. It’s only that simple.. Stop projecting your victim mindset onto people you don’t even know.
“Poor Sagittarius girl” head ass 😂 she’s FINE, you little sad ass bitch.
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You’re projecting here, because you actually desperately want to be perceived as a scorned victim in all of your stories. Everything is happening to you and nothing is ever your fault. Even when you physically, emotionally and verbally abuse others, you still want to be the victim. Keep surrounding yourself with enablers if you want to feel lonely for the rest of your life.
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So upon being told you misinterpreted what I said;
Instead of retracting your comments and negative statements
You just go to making up shit about me being a victim; when this whole shit was me about taking accountability in the first place and opening up about it so I can let it go.
People like you don’t make the world a better place like you think you are doing. People like you are clearly miserable and NEED someone to take your own personal sorrows out on.
Let’s get real, you came here to search for something negative to say because you are undoubtedly the ONLY person that misinterpreted me when it came to the Sagittarius girl. Now that it’s been debunked and you were LOUD and WRONG.. You talk patronizingly like there’s still an issue here.

Please. Eat a dick, then have a coke a smile. You’re input is no longer welcome and you will be muted after this response. Don’t waste your time any further. You are a nat biting on an elephant’s ass at this point. Get a life.
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You’re just yapping away on this site to get coddled. You’ll tell the horrible stuff you did, just to play victim about it. Hey, it’s your life and if being delusional makes you happy… cheers.
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Bitch, please. Now I gotta get reckless.. Cuz now you are doing too much when you could go about your day and take this L with grace and STOP TALKING.., because I didn’t do anything to you. You did something to me. You mixed my words up and said untrue things about me. YOU DID. Okay, bitch?
Who in their right mind is gonna be like “you are right. Thank you my lordess for your input and guidance. I am among the lowest of the low of human beings”
Bitch, YOURE delusional is you thought it was gonna go that way. Be mindful how you speak to people even if you think you are correct. But it’s fucked up that you aren’t..
‘Cause there is ALWAYS a tactful and proper way to speak to someone, ESPECIALLY when they didn’t personally come to you and ask you ANYTHING..
You were wrong to begin with, you came on here with all the wrong energy. You came here like I needed you and nobody needs you.
There’s nothing wrong with coming on a website and telling a story.
I didn’t ask you or request you personally to come onto my post and respond. I asked nobody. You sound tacky as fuck, and you’re reaching for the last thing you can say so you don’t come out of this looking stupid. So “coddle” MY ASS.
Very “But, but, but .. YOU..” ..Let it die. Take this murder. You tried to bully me and you failed.
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You’re posting on a public forum, don’t play victim now. Buy a physical diary if you hate it when people tell you how it is.

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That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Oh please shut up. There’s no need to pacify something that doesn’t exist.
I haven’t done anything to the Sagittarius. You sound like a troll with all that imaginary drama…
She took those photos with me, she knows I have them.
I genuinely liked the girl, and actually DO want her to be my girlfriend. I don’t have to explain shit to you. Me and her are cool and if taking pictures with someone and letting people ASSUME we are together is abusive, then you’re weird as fuck. Chill out.
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Blah blah blah, I’m not gonna coddle you. Take accountability or deal with the bad karma you’ve wanted for yourself.

“Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl” such an ethereal, innocent little babygirl you are here. Bring on the word vomit again 🙄
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I didn’t PRETEND to be in a relationship with the Sagittarius girl to her face. I PRETENDED to my ex, DUMMY … You’re so fuckin dumb, it’s stupid even coming at me about that when you misinterpreted with your dumb victim brain. I simply used our pics to make my ex mad. It’s only that simple.. Stop projecting your victim mindset onto people you don’t even know.
“Poor Sagittarius girl” head ass 😂 she’s FINE, you little sad ass bitch.
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You’re projecting here, because you actually desperately want to be perceived as a scorned victim in all of your stories. Everything is happening to you and nothing is ever your fault. Even when you physically, emotionally and verbally abuse others, you still want to be the victim. Keep surrounding yourself with enablers if you want to feel lonely for the rest of your life.
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So upon being told you misinterpreted what I said;
Instead of retracting your comments and negative statements
You just go to making up shit about me being a victim; when this whole shit was me about taking accountability in the first place and opening up about it so I can let it go.
People like you don’t make the world a better place like you think you are doing. People like you are clearly miserable and NEED someone to take your own personal sorrows out on.
Let’s get real, you came here to search for something negative to say because you are undoubtedly the ONLY person that misinterpreted me when it came to the Sagittarius girl. Now that it’s been debunked and you were LOUD and WRONG.. You talk patronizingly like there’s still an issue here.

Please. Eat a dick, then have a coke a smile. You’re input is no longer welcome and you will be muted after this response. Don’t waste your time any further. You are a nat biting on an elephant’s ass at this point. Get a life.
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You’re just yapping away on this site to get coddled. You’ll tell the horrible stuff you did, just to play victim about it. Hey, it’s your life and if being delusional makes you happy… cheers.
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Bitch, please. Now I gotta get reckless.. Cuz now you are doing too much when you could go about your day and take this L with grace and STOP TALKING.., because I didn’t do anything to you. You did something to me. You mixed my words up and said untrue things about me. YOU DID. Okay, bitch?
Who in their right mind is gonna be like “you are right. Thank you my lordess for your input and guidance. I am among the lowest of the low of human beings”
Bitch, YOURE delusional is you thought it was gonna go that way. Be mindful how you speak to people even if you think you are correct. But it’s fucked up that you aren’t..
‘Cause there is ALWAYS a tactful and proper way to speak to someone, ESPECIALLY when they didn’t personally come to you and ask you ANYTHING..
You were wrong to begin with, you came on here with all the wrong energy. You came here like I needed you and nobody needs you.
There’s nothing wrong with coming on a website and telling a story.
I didn’t ask you or request you personally to come onto my post and respond. I asked nobody. You sound tacky as fuck, and you’re reaching for the last thing you can say so you don’t come out of this looking stupid. So “coddle” MY ASS.
Very “But, but, but .. YOU..” ..Let it die. Take this murder. You tried to bully me and you failed.
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You’re posting on a public forum, don’t play victim now. Buy a physical diary if you hate it when people tell you how it is.
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Now I should go buy a diary
Public means you don’t have to respond .. I didn’t personally send this to you. This was something you should have sat out if you can’t handle how someone will respond to you.
Just like I should be able to handle how someone responds to my post … YOU should be able to handle when you are wrong on someone’s post and to come with better manners or get obliterated.
You get what you give, bitch.
Take your own advice
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You’re an abuser that loves to be coddled and gaslight when people don’t coddle them. Get over yourself and don’t post in public if you don’t want people to be honest with you.

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That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Me having sympathy for the Sag, was out of pocket. Welcome to the mind of an abuser @Emhendo
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You had sympathy when nobody got hurt though. You had sympathy and boohoo for some shit that NEVER happened .. Now you wanna say something else outside of that. You make up shit that I wanna be a victim and coddled.. Bitch, go read the last sentence of my post and you will understand who I am. Cuz you don’t know me, you funky ass bitch that hides her face and wanna run around here and make comments to people like you’re so damn perfect.. Show your perfect ass fuckin face then..
I won’t let you tell me what I expected or where my mind is. That is simply your bitch ass opinion and you’re the ONLY person so say that shit .. And especially the minute you were wrong about everything else.
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This is why the Aqua will never interact with you. You’re psychotic and twist and turn anything to play innocent. You’re still toxic and haven’t changed a bit. If you think I’m straightforward by having empathy for the Sag, you obviously could never handle an Aquarius’ straightforward personality.
Here, have the last word after you muted me 5 posts ago. Keep living for drama, see where it takes you in life.

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That’s sad for the Sag girl. You won’t find genuine love as long as you keep using and abusing people like you did with her.

Me having sympathy for the Sag, was out of pocket. Welcome to the mind of an abuser @Emhendo
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You had sympathy when nobody got hurt though. You had sympathy and boohoo for some shit that NEVER happened .. Now you wanna say something else outside of that. You make up shit that I wanna be a victim and coddled.. Bitch, go read the last sentence of my post and you will understand who I am. Cuz you don’t know me, you funky ass bitch that hides her face and wanna run around here and make comments to people like you’re so damn perfect.. Show your perfect ass fuckin face then..
I won’t let you tell me what I expected or where my mind is. That is simply your bitch ass opinion and you’re the ONLY person so say that shit .. And especially the minute you were wrong about everything else.

This is why the Aqua will never interact with you. You’re psychotic and twist and turn anything to play innocent. You’re still toxic and haven’t changed a bit. If you think I’m straightforward by having empathy for the Sag, you obviously could never handle an Aquarius’ straightforward personality.
Here, have the last word after you muted me 5 posts ago. Keep living for drama, see where it takes you in life.

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Posted by Emhendo
She hasn’t said a single fuckin word to me in 3 years. Like .. Nothing. It’s pretty brutal. Makes me so mad, and sad as fuck at first but I’m living with it and it doesn’t bother me anymore.
I haven’t thought much about her for awhile cuz I’m trynna get over what happened between us.. I’ve dated about almost 10 other women and was in a full blown domestic relationship with a woman this year. Still can’t get my original ex off my mind. All these other girls is really just an attempt to try and move on but I always end up thinking bout her .. Wondering how she doing.. Is she still mad.. Can I talk to her now..
I just feel like she hates me but at the same time I feel like she just pretending and trynna be a tough type chick like Cardi B and Meg Thee Stallion .. I don’t know. It’s just not like her..
Cuz how she talk about me and treat me is not like her.
I sent her an email last month about me living nearby and that I’m still in love w her and if she needs me, I would be there. I told her how I would love her better, I wouldn’t get mad at her in her face, I wouldn’t yell at her ever, and yadda yadda.. Just trynna let her know that I know what went wrong and how I would do better if she gave me a chance as a friend in her life.
her response wasn’t to me but I stalk her so… I saw her response on FB and she said shared a post that was like “Love was never talking to you ever again” or some shit and she shares it like “self love . Being loved even better and treated better so get out my email weird ass bitch” ..
So I sent another one like man.. I’ll never contact you again and you got it .. You wasn’t a perfect gf to me either … I told her she knows I’m mentally ill on paper , so how does acting like this after so long even serve her.. I reminded her we met when I was 23-25 and the prefrontal lobe doesn’t develop until after 25 and we broke up just after I turned that age.. Trynna explain I wasn’t even mature yet and I was still essentially a child and I’m a better person todays
She’s in a relationship.. I guess she’s happy. I’m glad she’s happy.. But I hate the new person .. I’m not gonna get into why but I felt like my ex could do better? But … I guess anything is better than me..
I use to fight her.. I wouldn’t say beat her.. but I would get physical with my hands. I would call her out her name, yell at her.. threaten her.. threaten her family.. I didn’t always do the ring thing. I was so immature.
But I know I was a good lover and life partner to her cuz she stayed w me for a long time ..
Her leaving was the only thing that would made me change .. But damn a break woulda been cool, why you had to make it permanent, baby? Damn
We was like best friends too. Super comfortable with each other.. Like it was to the point where I would inspect her vagina when she had a little problem before.... We would always be naked together and laid up super comfortable together. I even took her virginity and was the first person to really get in her.. if you know what I mean.. I would help her on her period.. She would be crying and in extreme pain on her menstrual and she would be in my crib , in my bed.. Getting rubbed down, kissed on.. I’m bringing hot water towels and hot water bottles.. We in the bed doing the frog position so the blood can drain from her uterus.
I use to help her with her every automotive need. Change her tire, put her spare on, dig her out the snow, change her wipers and headlights, meet up with her across the city if she was stranded.. I would meet her at her job at night in one of the most dangerous neighborhoods in Chicago, so we can catch the bus together and she ain’t gotta catch the bus by herself.. I ate her pussy good and spent my money on her. I bought her phones, shoes, clothes, birthday gifts, holidays, and items she needed.. I pitched in on her bills before, even after she moved out on me.. cuz we kept fighting..
I miss that girl. I’ll be okay.. Me stalking her not helping but I promise I just started back after my break up with my most recent Aquarius girl.. the girl that fucked busted all 6 of my windows out my Benz, the girl that smashed all the TVs not once but twice, the girl that fucked around on me w another woman.. Fight me, yell at me, record me and make me look crazy.. Gaslight me.. that girl just was terrible. I guess she was my karma for all the things I did to Jackie.
But it’s like .. I learned my lesson. I got my karma. Jackie wasn’t even perfect to me either.. This girl left me alone on my birthday 2 years in a row lol..the first year she dipped off to see her sister or something .. and the second year I spent my 25th birthday getting drunk by myself at home with no friends or family around. The only thing that made it better was that we went to the anual auto show downtown a few days later and took really cute pictures together and she was beautiful that day. She would randomly be depressed and push me away.. she would get the most huffy attitudes with me.. but I got my get back, and I experienced what I potentially put Jackie through by another woman.
I apologized to her through email.. text.. i called.. at least once or twice a year over the last 3 years I’ve made my attempts.. the first few months was more frequent in my attempts to talk to her. It was the to the point she got her number changed, I called so much.
She shared some shit on her IG story today talking about “the lack of respect was closure, the lack of honesty was closure, the lack of love was closure” yarda yadda… Well if you so over me, why you sharing stuff that really still talks about me?
I did love her. I think Jacklyn knows I loved her. I hope she do.. But I ain’t know how to love freely and love in a healthier, less controlling way.. I promise you I’m different today.
I don’t want to love clingingly, I don’t want my communication to come from neediness, I don’t wish to control any woman.. A girl will give toy SOME control naturally that comes from a place of respect.. I only desire being the leader a woman seeks, not somebody to control.. I’m the point where, if we don’t get along - then it’s over. I’m not gonna fight you, I’m not gonna yell at you, I’m not gonna control you.. If we can’t be together without toxicity, then we aren’t compatible and I’m fine lying to myself for women and trynna make shit work.. don’t veré how attractive they are anymore.
I dealt with my recent ex because she was young and attractive. I still talked to her up until recently this week, when she blocked me cuz I told her I’ll call her back to avoid arguing .. I’m glad she blocked me. She’s still a toxic bitch. I’ve gone months without talking to her but I made a petty move and followed my ex in IG.. Made her look at my profile as I pretended to be in a relationship with Sagittarius girl … Posted pics of me and Sag boo’d up and faked like this girl is my girlfriend when whole time we just was dating and she spent a weekend with me. I shared stuff on my Story of me making dinner for her and shit.. Helping her wash her hair.. We at the lakefront taking romantic pictures.. It worked. I made my recent Aquarius ex super jealous and she inboxed me and wouldn’t stop asking about her. I never seen her act like that about me and it felt good.. After she told me I’ll never date another bad bitch and I’ll never have another woman prettier than her? And I pop out with Blasian chick?? Black and Korean with a nice tiny body like yours, more hair than you, better teeth than you?? Aquarius was mad as hell but admitted she glad I’m happy and she unfollowed me cuz she couldn’t stand to see me with the new girl... then proceeded to tell me I can beat her pussy up anytime.
After Sag went back home, I haven’t heard much from her and it was hard trynna keep up the lie that I have a new gf.. Cuz me and aqua ex was starting to talk everyday again to the point where she called me back after just getting off the phone with me just to ask me “what happened to your girlfriend “ and I said “she just called me like 30 mins ago but I missed it fuckin around with you” . Which was true… she called me... and then she goes ““oh so yo hung up to talk to yo gf” and I’m like nah, cuz it wasn’t true.. I didn’t even notice she called. But I tried to call back and I didn’t answer and I haven’t heard shit from Sag since last Monday.
Honestly.. I don’t give a fuck lol.. I don’t give a fuck about any of these bitches anymore. Don’t want to. Why should I..
I just wanted to get this off my chest in hopes it would allow me to release Jackie..
The best thing you could do if you love somebody is leave them the fuck alone.