Hey guys, i would like some advice from other aquarius woman or who guys have gotten back with aquarius woman before out there on the things that have turned out in my relation. this is my first relatioship with a woman and also im a virgin.We were decent friends for about 3-4 months talking casually and occasionally , we met a couple of times and we liked each other , i liked the girl from the beginning of time we met , and i took it slow just trying to become friends with her. so one day we meet and we have a good time with other friends too, she says that she wants to hang out with me that day and obviously i said yes, we hung out had a great time sharing stuff wiht each other and talked a lot. later when we were chatting she asked what i thought about her and i told her directly that i like her. and she also said she liked me we kept talking and meeting and finally this new year night i called her and proposed to her to which she accepted. then we had a long talk and we kept sharing stuff, but during that time the girl was asking me to give a guarantee that i will marry her. i generally think that far ahead and also was not really sure if i can give my word to her, because if i do give my word i stand by it. but this feeling kept me tied i had a bad feeling that i was not telling her everything , i could have easily lied to her and continued this realtionship, but she was special to me i really liked her, so i was always thinking about that. So i told her that im not really sure if i can say ill marry you because we still havent been physical about it. i believed that for me to be able to marry i have to like the sex too with the woman i love ( honestly im very very horny and have a lot of sex drive). but i did not force her , i told her that when we do get physical is when i will be able to make that decision from my side. so after i was travelling i came back and the next day itself we met, she came to my house we had a good time, and i got really horny and asked her if we could have sex, although she was a little hesitant she agreed, and we had sex. then later she tells me that she just came and had sex to prove a point to me and asked me if i can guarantee that i can marry her or no. i did say yes. but me having sex really dint make a difference to me in making the decision. it was because maybe getting physical wasnt what i really wanted, i dint know that myself until it acutally happened i was discovering my self. but i still wanted this girl very much . so anyway although i wasnt sure if i can still give my word. one day i said that im not able to make a decision about that . i was feeling guilty that if i was going to leave her anyway in the futrure i shouldnt have to cheat her because i really loved her and i wanted to be honest. so i told her that i dint want to lie to her and we had to end it. we got into the car and i started driving her back is when i felt very heavy and really sad almost like crying,
when she got down from the car and ran away i cried i knew that i had commited the biggest itake in my life i knew it then from my heart. so i tried to message her and call her talk to her to get her back, becuase then i was completely sure i wouldnt mind marrying this woman . i wanted her in my life and always wanted to make it work with her. i was really happy so was she and i thought it could work out, after long talks again and lot of explaining the truth from my side i said that i was sure and will marry her , and slowly we got back together, we hung out for a another week and met 2 3 times had sex twice, the girl was acutally leaving to australia in a few months and would be gone of for a year anf a half, so i thought that we should make the best out of the time we have, i tried to meet her most of the time thinking about her talking about her, took a little easy on my work and slowly could say started getting a little needy or showing a little too much love i suppose. but she dint say anything and she liked it too. but the problem was that she is still shy with sex and wanted to take it slow. Honestly i was a little fast in asking her for sex and stuff, i also use to tell her about my body feelings and how horny i am and how many times i think of her everyday . its just that my body physically was reacting to the love for her since i am very horny i used to talk to her and one day when we were having sex she said her vagina was burning but she was smiling when saying that, my penis she told was a little big for her and would take time, i forgot this fact and i was totally ruled by my animal sex instincts seeing that she was smiling i thought it must have not been that uncomfortable , also i lack proper knowledge about having actual sex since its my first time. so i was trying to please her and have sex with although she was a little hesitant, i was not trying to force her but trying to please her very caringly and out of love. we did have sex but i coudlnt come and said she dint want to do it anymore. i was a little dissappointed and was nagging her a little while like 10 mins because we had a sex chat the day before and we thought about experimenting and trying out new stuff, but anyway after that she left it was all good we were talking for day , and i had to go and stay wiht my parents for a day and i was pretty busy so i coudlnt talk much to her. i told my dad about her and we talked about my future and etc it was all going goood. but suddenyl i come back and try to talk to her and meet her , she starts acting very cold to me like she is trying to distance herself from me, slowly after i asked a lot she tells me im a selfish guy and i hurt and did not treat her the way she deserved and she says that i was only about the physical part of love and im only physical and she wanted mental bonding and caring etc, when she told me that she no longer wanted to be withe me , i couldnt handle it anymore i felt so bad started crying , i have neve
@sensitive blues
i loved her from the start always i knew it from the heart, but in my head i wasnt sure i was acting from my heart but thinking with my head sometimes, all the ideas and wishes that i had before i was single hand me in doubt . but i proposed because i knew deep inside i loved her.
have never cried for another person before but i couldnt hold myself , so i started beggin her telling her how wrong i was after i realised that i had really hurt her . i told her it was my fault and i had learnt my mistake and would never commit it again. which i would never do if i really got her back. but since i was irritating her with my msgs and trying to talk to her she finally said , its over and that she doesnt love me enough, i was completely broken and 2 days later i told her that i have feelings for her would like her to come back , she said we could still be friends, i said that i cant be frnds anymore because it was too painful and told her if she ever wanted me back i will be ready and she can let me know, she doesnt even text me much anymore . so i thought for 2 days and i realised that i really love her more than anyting right now. and i beleive if i love her that i have to try all i can to get her back. i really really love her and want her back in my life, the next day i told her i wanted to be frnds with her and she said okay, i tried to ask her logically and directly why she left me after 4 days because i had gotten less emotional and started thinking with my head again, she told all her reasons and that she deleted everything about be and she is happy , but i dont think she really is , because when i talked to her about what happened and why wouldnt even see me or talk to me she replies that she is having a bid headache and doesnt want to talk. i cant understand if she is really trying to hide emotions and getting headaches or its just an excuse to not talk to me. but today also ive been talking to her trying to talk with her like how it was before. she is replying to everything but there is no more initiation from her side. i really want your advice on how i can try to get her back. i know i have committed a mistake in taking her granted and totally realise what being in a relationship means and how to care and what is really important in a realiton. i want her to know this and i wrote a big apology letter too, but she is saying she wont read it, because she doesnt read long msgs, i donno what to do , does she still have feelings for me? is it really over? or can i do something to get her back? please any advice would be really appreciated. i really love this girl and damn i can do anything to get her back.
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Oct 14, 2015Comments: 826 · Posts: 2348 · Topics: 15
OP, what are your other placements? (planets) Moon, Venus, etc
@sensitiveblues
i just had sex once when i was completely drunk before not really sure i remember much from it, but yea i did tell her that i was a virgin and about the drunk night too. yes we do foreplay and infact for quite a long time. yea i learnt that the hard way that you should talk about the feelings and likes in sex. its my first time so i dint know but now i do. anything that i can do to prove that i wasnt using her and really love her?
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Jan 27, 2016Comments: 0 · Posts: 1780 · Topics: 6
agreed, dont text bomb, you've really fubared it. She's thinking with her head about her treatment and has made a mental list of why you are terrible mate material. Short of showing up with a ring in your hand, I am at a loss.