input wanted

I have been on and off with a Aqua since october.I have posted about this in another thread ..anyway since the last time i told him to beat it and no sex since december he still keeps calling after his little repreives. he will start texting me like nothing ever happened ...WTH? I had entertained the idea he was just after sex...but there isent any and i have not seen him since december.and i will be honest I really am drawn to this guy ?doesnt make any sense right? I really really like him ...why? the conversations the last month have caused me to feel a deeper conecrtion , but this guy always vanishises off the face of the earth ..recently i told him EVERYTHING ...as crazy and irrational and silly as it was i just opened my heart and soul to him and i told him how much it was starting to hurt my feelings when he vanished or get my hopes to see him then doesent come thru.(i feel like the time travlers wife literally especially with the age different.) " I dont mean too" and "I am sorry I would never want to do this to you" that was saturday and i havent heard from him since. I am sad about this but its so stupid that i feel this intense desire to be with this guy and also this intense desire to pluck his eyes balls out with a sharp stick.Its like ecery interaction sucks me in a little deeper.
I cant help but want to understand why he does this ...i mean i have a horrible temper and i have unleashed on him on more than one occasion and still he comes back into my life and yes i let him.
I let him because I for some stupid reason i feel like he is worth it.
Its intense and kinda unexplainable and crazy they energy between us.
he feels this too a feeling he could not explain till i explained it then he said "thats how i feel with you"
i have never felt anything like this before its almost obsessive.I am not a young girl i have exp love lust and allthe rest of it before was married for 18 years.
I am just ranting and venting and i do appreciate any and all input from you all here .
Crazy Woman .

man alive sorry for all the spelling mistakes ..I am tired.

oh and i did also tell him i was crazy about him and thats why its starting to hurt and not in a good way 😉 i told him he is hurting me and thats when he said he was so sorry and that He really didnt mean too and that he would never ever want to do this to me.
I was honest and if he has vanished for good maybe that will be the nicest thing he could do.
But still i wait and hope that he does come back.

its just sickning.

Awwwww, calm down lovey - he's just a person, like you. I don't mean to belittle your feelings in any way, I get what you're saying, but the reality is he's just a person.

That said...

You've given him the information about how you feel etc, etc and now he'll play the dance of working out what to do with it. As much as we (Aqua's) love to hear it, knowing when to use it is a bit trickier. Sometimes we just like to process what's been said, bask in it, roll around in it, make you wait a little for anticipation and then pop up into your face.

If you don't hear from him in about 5 days I'll eat my hat - and yours - in shock.

He'll call, he won't be able to help himself.

Posted by NZAqua
Awwwww, calm down lovey - he's just a person, like you. I don't mean to belittle your feelings in any way, I get what you're saying, but the reality is he's just a person.

That said...

You've given him the information about how you feel etc, etc and now he'll play the dance of working out what to do with it. As much as we (Aqua's) love to hear it, knowing when to use it is a bit trickier. Sometimes we just like to process what's been said, bask in it, roll around in it, make you wait a little for anticipation and then pop up into your face.

If you don't hear from him in about 5 days I'll eat my hat - and yours - in shock.

He'll call, he won't be able to help himself.

Thanks!and I was being highly emotional and crazy it passed thankfully.

Posted by NZAqua
Awwwww, calm down lovey - he's just a person, like you. I don't mean to belittle your feelings in any way, I get what you're saying, but the reality is he's just a person.

That said...

You've given him the information about how you feel etc, etc and now he'll play the dance of working out what to do with it. As much as we (Aqua's) love to hear it, knowing when to use it is a bit trickier. Sometimes we just like to process what's been said, bask in it, roll around in it, make you wait a little for anticipation and then pop up into your face.

If you don't hear from him in about 5 days I'll eat my hat - and yours - in shock.

He'll call, he won't be able to help himself.

Thanks!and I was being highly emotional and crazy it passed thankfully.

yup he did call.So ya dont have to eat anyones hat.😉

Well he has been drifting in and out and now finally he has now done a 360! he is texting wants to see me being totally open about his feeling and thoughts wants to take a vacation together. Literally i told him exactly what i wanted and expected which i thought would send him running for the hills...then i refused to speak with him unless he was willing to address my issues i ignored him ...and walla its now the complete opposite.
Not sure i trust it though but just going to go with it and see what happens.
he actually committed to the friendship actually defined it.
says he is 100 percent down

I'm glad about not eating a hat - I'm sure I'd have gotten indigestion! 😛

So, what's happening now?