The Negative Corner

So checked the transits funny enough a week ago a motion was set in place for me (Neptune Sq Chiron) so why not dedicate a thread to negativity.

I see no reason to fight it anymore so I'm dumping this here. If I can't fight it I might as well accept it.

For all those watery moons here's some gifs for you 🙂





and of course:



Here's to the bad days! Here's to finding the strength each day.

Posted by tiziani
Interesting approach.

The Positive Power of Negative Thinking?


or Negative perspiration?

hmmm... positive thinking about negative feelings?

I don't know, I just don't like the stigma. People often do hurt for the tiniest reasons and maybe I can use this to offload so others don't feel so alone and able to cheer up through it!

Negativity feeds negativity, but I suppose if it's going to exist, then it's best left to it's own little section where you know what you're walking into. : )

I don't have anything to share since I keep all of the bad locked away in my mind, which serves as a padded room for those dangerous thoughts. Let's just hope the padded room remains solely in my mind. My transits for the next two weeks all have positive numbers next to them, so I'll take that as a good sign and enjoy it! I hope your water moon stays strong! : )

Where do you read up about your transits, anyway? I use cafeastrology, but I'm unsure if they take the asteroids and such into account.

I use astro.com 🙂 It always sort of inspires me to do some manual work and research which is why I love it! And no I know the feeling of negativity feeding on it but I want to break that cycle.

So here goes, probably won't be a suprise given those gifs!

I don't regret spending the past few months with you. You've reminded me what it was like to love again, to truly love. I can't deny I feel completely devastated right now, it feels like shit. I Know you have your own things to fix up and as do I, we entertained the notion of being together again a bit sooner but for now I just want to lock it in time.

I didn't know what to say at the airport and I don't think you did either. I just held on. If I had the power I would just freeze that moment forever, fuck everyone else just you and me. Wait for me. If I have to I'd swim across the ocean just to get there. I know you know that and you always hated how I cared too much but for what it's worth I know you only hate it because you care for me as well.

You know my circumstances, I know yours. We know the world sucks for whatever the reason but you've put a smile on me like no other has. I'll miss your warmth, your scent and your touch. I wasn't going to tell you I've still got a shirt of yours but I did notice my favourite has gone missing too 🙂

If for whatever the circumstance we never meet again, I only want you to have the best. Lock this moment in time for you deserve better than this. I'll do my best to resolve everything but please don't wait for me, remember to live and know the thought of you will remind me as well.

Posted by tiziani
Two things really

1. I am starting to accept the possibility that a couple of people in my life would probably be better off had they never really met me. It's hard to reconcile this with how to move forward.

2. More importantly, there's a big challenge ahead for work and in one aspect it's sort of (I don't want to be disrespectful to the people I work with that try to help and support in the best way they can) on me to make it happen alone. And I'm wondering if I am up to the challenge.

That's about all the negativity and doubt I have right now.

I really questioned that with the sag I mention a lot but through out all of it I'm glad she came into my life and me into hers. I don't know the circumstances but I can relate in that I use to believe I ruined her life. But there goes, I think everything happens, for reasons or not, just believe you are a good person even if you doubt it.

On the second part, I was faced with a decision 4 years ago with a certain responsibility. I wasn't sure if I was ready but I had to do it alone. It turned out to be the most rewarding and a great lesson in self discovery! Doubts are good 🙂 because it shows you are acknowledging weaknesses and want to work on them!

Hmm well I'm conveniently leaving out how much I would just like to sulk, make some holes in the wall, drinking myself to oblivion and generally wanting to hurt things but I think that's feeding the negativity part!

haha all good! It's endearing for me! Plus I can't be the only miserable soul here tonight 🙂 Can't be superman for everyone tiz but the thought is appreciated! Now get some sleep!

So she left after all. Doesn't sound like she'll be coming back by the way you are talking... sorry man :/

I know she was pretty special to you. I wish I knew what I could say that would make things easier but I don't. I think the best thing you can do is try to look at it as an experience to learn from.. and use that knowledge to your advantage in the future. However, thinking that way in the here and now is pretty much impossible....

Big hugs Aquasnoz!

@NYAA: She was meant to leave early Feb but decided to stay for me so I can't complain! I think if I am to take anything away from this is that I can love and quite fiercely I might add! There was one deciding factor that I couldn't just pack my bags and leave but I think she understands why. She also has some duties of her own back in Germany so it was one of those fuck it we'll deal with the hurt later situations.

Given the chance even knowing the feeling, I'd probably do it again. Sigh.

@Misslisa: 🙂 *hugs*

@Libby: As long as it has alcohol. Infact just make it entirely out of baileys and I'll pretend it's coffee lol!

Sorry to hear about it.

I had a Leo I adored for three years. We were just friends but I lived being around him as much as any ex I ever had and he was going through some major financial and personal drama for a long time and one day he told me was moving out if state and I asked him when and he said two weeks. I was shocked and we ended up arguing that night. We ended up spending a lot of time around each other and the day before he was to move were to hang out one last time but I got a text saying he had to leave early and he thanked me for all I've done. Said he owed me one and said goodbye.

I ended up depressed for six months crying everyday.

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@poisson: Yeah I know but in the end I couldn't help it and I totally deserve the "yeah I told you so". Me going over is still possible but I don't want to put the pressure on her to wait. OKAY you have permission to strangle me!

@sf79: Yeah it always sucks when it happens like that :\ but here's to hoping no depression for me! No time for that!

nooooo that's too cute! 😛 but I suppose that's what I'm getting at negativity is how we view it, get consumed or acknowledge it!

Hugs, aquasnoz!

chicken soup, aquanoz? it's food for the soul 🙂

Aww, what sad times. It hurts..a lot 😢 But it's better to have the love shared and the memories, it feeds the soul.