What is wrong with me? (Self esteem shattered)

I'm an aqua woman 34 and me and this 41 year old cap guy started dating back in may/june. Everything was marvelous. He helped me move and since he just started a new job and his car broke down I let him use mine since I didn't drive to work. This went on for 2 months. He told me I was his girl, he loved me and please do not hurt him. He told me about his 14 year relationship with his now x wife who didn't kiss him never gave him oral sex and never showed him any passion. Then he told me about the girl who didn't work and smoked marijuana constantly around her daughter. Both of us have one daughter. He works alot, but that never bothered me because I attend classes at night, I work everyday and I'm a mom. He hadn't seen his daughter in a long time so when she came to visit for 5 days I allowed him to use my car to entertain her because his was in the shop. I thought this man was going to ask me to marry him one day. We had keys to one another's homes and like I said everything was bliss. Until his car was about ready to come out the shop, thats when he started acting distant and giving me the cold shoulder saying he's too busy for a girlfriend!!! Fast forward to march and we're talking again. He's still working around the clock and I'm still in school. We agreed that we'd be friends and be there for one another. We slept together. 3 weeks later he just won't even pick up the phone to say hello. So I have called to say hello how are you , but he just gives me one word responses if any at all. I asked whats his problem? He says he doesn't want to get close to anyone but he'll still give me the money that I asked for my upcoming trip. So today I just texted him and said "hey you just ran across my mind, just wanted to say hi! have a good day! No response. I'm sick and tired of him treating me like a non descript. When I sacrificed and gave so much and we shared so much. I told him that I don't want his money just leave everything as is. The last thing I want is to become a pest in his life. Why when I gave him what he wanted he kicked me to the curb? And to be so harsh like I could drop dead tomorrow and it would not phase him? It hurts to be treated this way. After everything we've been through. Am I wrong to expect more?

You arent wrong to expect more.
You were just used and now its time to pick up the pieces and move on.

Honestly, No You Are Not Wrong to expect more, but I think through life we all will run into a jerk or jerks once in a while, especially when it comes to love relationships. The moving on process is different for everyone, especially when you believe you've fallen in love with someone. He seems to be only using you as someone to fall back on when things in life go wrong, he also seems to have no intentions of committing to you any time soon and if you keep waiting/hoping for things to get better you'll only be hurting yourself more. I can truly admit that it hurts to just let go of someone you love, but its better to move on sooner than later, I am not saying there's no hope for you and him ever, ??Who Truly Knows?? but sometimes ppl don't realize what they have, until its gone. Never Let someone shatter your self esteem due to there heartless actions, pick yourself back up and show him that you can do/deserve much better. Even though things do not turn out the way you want them, don't think of it as the end, think of it as a new beginning, the journey continues =)

LOL^

I did read once that aqua women have a tendency to be used....something about being gullible and trusting when they eventually do try it...and there just pleasers of there mates.

LikeBrad: I dont know if English may not be your first language...but everything you say sounds so 'deep'...yet so vague. I find it funny.

I understand

Thanks guys for all your comments and posts. I was just wondering about people born on that 1/20 cusp. Me being an aqua I can always adapt to change. I will lick my wounds, remember my mistakes and keep it moving.