I've been dating a cancer man for 3 months, now I know this isn't a long time, but we both truly felt like we were together forever. He recently broke up with me 2 days ago, due to a lot of complications in our relationship. He claimed that we were arguing for a month straight, which we have been arguing a lot. On the day that he broke up with me, we had a long talk, I am a Libra so I'm extremely emotional.He ended up telling me he was lost in life and that he doesn't know what he wants. He proceeded to tell me that he does not love me the same anymore due to all our arguments and he was fed up with everything. He still told me that he will always care and love me, which ultimately confused me. Because, deep down I feel as if he is not thinking straight due to both of us having life issues. He recently got kicked out and we are also dealing with the lost of our baby which happened a week ago. Due to all of this we have both been under a lot of pain and stress. In the end of it all I am very hurt and in a lot of pain because, I feel as if this is all my fault. He also told me that he felt as if I didn't love him and that I didn't show that I cared or appreciate him. Which in honesty I could of done better but I'm not sure why I didn't? We had a last talk yesterday, which ended up with him telling me that we rushed the relationship way to fast and that we are not ready to date. Which is all he would tell me along with that he is overwhelmed with everything and that he will be there for me as a friend and continue to talk to me and if needed; psychically be there for me. He also told that this is not what he wanted and that he does and doesn't want to be with me, and also that him breaking things up was a very hard decision to make. In the end the closure that I got was that he doesn't want to date and that we are not ready and that he wants both of us to better ourselves and find ourselves and to focus on our future/career (since I'm going to start college and he graduated from college already). I was torn and heartbroken and just emotionally a wreck, I grew very attached to him and he did to. Ultimately when I tried to say we should fight for our relationship he just ended up telling me that only time can tell and that everything will all fall into place. Overall I still have hope, due to the fact that we both have love for each other. Although we have not talked all day yesterday or today, I sent him a few messages, which will be the last messages because, I do not wan't to be pushy or hurt myself as well because I truly do love him. I haven't gotten any reply, and I'm not expecting one but as long as he knows how I truly feel I still have deep down have hope that this relationship will re-kindle in the future. I'm just lost and don't know what to think or how to handle all the hurt my heart and body is going through. This man is truly my best friend and he was always showing me effort and love. This all happened in the span of a week, when a few days ago he was crying to my friend that he was afraid to lose me and that he wanted to marry me after we got through our situations.I know this is all to quick because we have not been dating for so long, but I never put a time limit on feelings. I don't know what to think or do at this point, this heartbreak truly hurts my soul.
