Starrydreamer0
@Starrydreamer0
8 Years
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I met him over a year ago through mutual friends. We were both involved with other people so we shared a casual friendship. Once every month random conversation. Mostly light hearted. Nothing really deep.
Several months ago we started talking more because I consulted for him and his business. He was guarded sharing any personal information but he started talking to me more and more frequently. He even said that he didn't want to share anything personal with me to keep the relationship as causal as possible. He would feel bad if it wasn't. (Bad for who and what I don't know)
I have since ended my relationship and he has not, though his girlfriend and him have an occasional open relationship. (I know this from mutual friends, not concerned by it future wise when honesty is present) He told me he couldn't have an open relationship with her and I because she would be jealous how we would be together. (I thought that was presumptuous but ok.)
We have always had this magnetic energy for one another. LOST STARING INTO EYES FOREVER that I seriously had to shake off. Now I hadn't slept with him prior to that comment but one thing lead to another and one night we were intimate. He was, for lack of a better word, breathtaking. Which led to a once a month, hours on end sessions. Then that frequency increased to once a week, but not for hours. Lol.
We started working more together. He started to open up to me about the person he is and his life. We talk pretty much every other day now. And well....now I really care for him. He is passionate about life not just bed, he is kind hearted, strong, smart, witty, creative, hott as hell...I can just go on!! I'm seriously butter.
But here lies the problem...He recently told me he loved me and has since repeated it. He told me that he feels like he can tell me anything. That we were kindred spirits. (Not all at the same time mind you)
Now how the heck do I know what kind of love that entails exactly?! In love with me, Loves me like a friend, a lover, a girlfriend...He's said I love you to a guy friend before so I'm lost. Do cancerians soo that? Lol. I'm happy he has opened up and shared his wonderful self with me but I don't know how to take it cause well....
He still has the girlfriend. They've been together 6 years. She's raised his 5 year old as her own. She is seemingly a good person and yes I sometimes feel bad. If only he didn't make me so damn happy!! His son is awesome too! Baby mama? Eh, never met her.
He has said before that they have problems but he didn't want to leave because of his son, his house, etc. Now I understand that. No one really wants to end the familiarity of their cozy routine. But he also said that she needs him. That he has to help her get over/do something. He was pretty easy to read during this conversation. He looked as scared as a small child...He also gives no explanation to why he has never proposed to her. (Not prying too hard there)
But yet he states I give him everything he needs. Support, compassion, touchy feely affection, sexual compatibility she lacks...etc. He has mentioned taking care of me in the future (discussing career passions) and named off this long list of titles..."I would help you find your passion if we were fwb, best friends, your boyfriend, your husband."
Does it sound like the man is playing me like a fiddle or does it sound like Mr. Crab just has reserves about leaving his shell? I really hate being the dumbass that believes everything...SIGH