Anyone else feeling cynical and gloomy last 2 days?

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I don't know if it's because of my heart going through some things lately or not. But Iv been feeling terrible about my self lately.

On paper I should be happy and grateful. I have amazing friends who love me. A growing music career that Im passionate about.

Im independent. I live in a beautiful home. I have a good job. And Im only 25.

I should feel ecstatic.

Especially since my childhood and past kind of sucked and it took my blood, sweat and tears to get to where I am in life.

I HAVE been single for a year now.. with a few potentials that came and went. But Im feeling lonely. And not because Im single. Because I am starting to have some self hatred that I havnt felt in a while. Iv been extremely introspective this year. To the point where Im self generating recognition of my character defects. I believe everyone should do this throughout their life. Helps you learn to be a better version of your self.

BUT.. the more Iv been having these realizations about my self. The more I start to hate my self and the world around me.I hate how self absorbed I get. Or distracted. Or how bad my memory is.

Sometimes I miss the days of ignorance when I just saw the best in my self and all around me. But I just dont feel like this anymore. I feel sad and lonely. And I so deeply want to love someone. But I find my self delaying dates lately. Because all I think about is being a terrible person. And that I don't deserve love. Im just wondering if any of you have been feeling down the last two days. Because I realize everyone has issues. But, for me, they have been amplified today.
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Oh....sun is opposite Pluto, Mars opp Pluto, they're square Uranus, and also Jupiter, almost forming a grand cross.

Also, it's 3 DAYS BEFORE THE FULL MOON!!!! Shit always start to go down then.

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I got Mars opposite my Venus and Mars opposite my Mercury now. Not a fun ride. I feel like explode. I'm blunt with my words and such yesterday. Overwhelmed by emotion. I don't like it.
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Posted by bricklemark
Oh....sun is opposite Pluto, Mars opp Pluto, they're square Uranus, and also Jupiter, almost forming a grand cross.

Also, it's 3 DAYS BEFORE THE FULL MOON!!!! Shit always start to go down then.

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I got Mars opposite my Venus and Mars opposite my Mercury now. Not a fun ride. I feel like explode. I'm blunt with my words and such yesterday. Overwhelmed by emotion. I don't like it.
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It seems all transits are negative...when I had 5 aspects to my personal planets, l had the worst day ever...
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Posted by aquaglass
Posted by bricklemark
Oh....sun is opposite Pluto, Mars opp Pluto, they're square Uranus, and also Jupiter, almost forming a grand cross.

Also, it's 3 DAYS BEFORE THE FULL MOON!!!! Shit always start to go down then.

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I got Mars opposite my Venus and Mars opposite my Mercury now. Not a fun ride. I feel like explode. I'm blunt with my words and such yesterday. Overwhelmed by emotion. I don't like it.
It seems all transits are negative...when I had 5 aspects to my personal planets, l had the worst day ever...
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Thats not cool at all
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Bad transit for you....whats your rising and MC?
Libra Rising, Mercury Leo
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Alright so Uranus has been in your 7th house (Aries) for a few years, or one year, depending on the degree of your rising/descendant axis. That means sudden changes in relationship, weird, unusual partners, or erratic changes in general.

The MC is the Midheaven, the point at the top of your chart.
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Bad transit for you....whats your rising and MC?
Libra Rising, Mercury Leo
Alright so Uranus has been in your 7th house (Aries) for a few years, or one year, depending on the degree of your rising/descendant axis. That means sudden changes in relationship, weird, unusual partners, or erratic changes in general.

The MC is the Midheaven, the point at the top of your chart.
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yeah a lot of heartache for me this last year.. but positive growth and change too. Im trying to embrace it

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Posted by bricklemark
Bad transit for you....whats your rising and MC?
Libra Rising, Mercury Leo
Alright so Uranus has been in your 7th house (Aries) for a few years, or one year, depending on the degree of your rising/descendant axis. That means sudden changes in relationship, weird, unusual partners, or erratic changes in general.

The MC is the Midheaven, the point at the top of your chart.
yeah a lot of heartache for me this last year.. but positive growth and change too. Im trying to embrace it

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If Libra's your rising, then your 4th house is around Capricorn, and Pluto's in it since 2008...