Im gonna tell you a story of mine which happens recently.
im a cancer and met this gemini girl , 3 months ago. i was attracted to her and wanna find out more. i do know in fact that cancer and gemini didnt match very well but still i tried, you know what they say that it doesnt matter what is your zodiac but its how you keep things together. at first she insisted that we're only firends but at times she gave me signs.
there one moment that i wanna leave but she didnt want me to. so i stay for her sake. she never acknowledge me in front of her friends, but when we are alone she kinda treat me like her boyfriend. at that time i think she was shy or something. she said she affraid of a break up. so she didnt want a relationship. but i love her, and she said she 's happier with my presence in her life.
then after that moment we keep going
it was a very happy moments, i remember feeling something that i have lost 6 years ago (with pisces) and there was no trouble at all.
things keep going on until there was a time when she suddenly disappear. a week later i come to her and ask what is going on. why didnt she reply to my text or try to find me? she replied that if like a little kid who need to be checked everytime. i feel offended but i didnt burst out that night.
then i ask Her the question : is there anything between us?
she said : i dont know, im confused
later on she spoke about something troubling her but she refuse to tell me what it is.
she then later spoke about her friend that said she had this bipolar personality or something. so i ask her how can i help , she refused.
she said that given time it will be okay. so i tell her ill give her some time, just maybe things will get better. she was laughing at that night, until something came up to her mind again and began to look upset.
a week later i text her to ask how is she feelin, she said its not going better, so i offer to give her a visit. and she said okay but dont rush things, since ussualy i can only visit her after classes.
yet at time it comes to my mind, that
she didnt care of me at all
i feel like all this recent time, i was the one who always iniate something
like i was the only one who feel this relationship
before hand like two months knowing her i tried to disappear to see whether she look for me or not and she did, it only takes matter of hours or a day to get her looking for me. but now not even a week.
i last texted her was 18 october. its been a month. what did i do?
i did nothing. because i wanna see again whether she still the same girl that i know.
but she's not. a full month of no contact and yet she seems happy. until yesterday i found out in social media there's this new guy. you know cancer gut feeling tells me this is the reason .
so now im hurt. it hurts a lot.
like someone used me like toilet paper. like i was nothing. not even there at all. and there's a new guy that she is being with god knows how long.
so i decided to walk away, thought to myself i was stupid for being used.
listed all her flaws :
- she always said we are friend to everyone even though everyone think its not
- she gave me signs when im about to walk away. for what?
- she never mention on what is going on between the two of us. its always like lets keep going and see where it takes us
it sucks, i feel my chest twisting and warm like something was taken away from me.
walking away hurts me as well , i never show this to anyone, but times that i just wanna see what she's doing and i know this is stupid but i cant help it.
i have a bag that she left in my car and i want to return it. i texted her in two days ago. she didnt even read it. then this morning i texted her on different social media.
she replied with day and thats it.
so help me please fellow cancers.
was i stupid? because i think i am
am i taken for granted?
did i do something wrong?
im moving on right now but what should i do?
jsut give me your thought on this anything will help.
also if you need more details let me know
my previious break up was because my pisces cheated on me. i think its similar event that happen here or is it not? because this hurts so much
i know its a messy post because this is my first.
i just found out this forum and i think its amazing to see how fellow cancers think about this.
thank you guys for reading
yes i will do that, thank you so much. in the meantime ill try not to cling on her