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he is a cancer and very sensitive, he goes into withdrawl. He is taking meds for depression/anxiety because of back injury/sugery trauma treatment with WCB,and his recovery. he was such an ass I lost a good job casue I could not focus wonderwoman and take care of 2 dept- store 2 workers under me and in service station alone casue nobody ele show up, wow talk about stress. Yes I left under stress medical i was jonked. I need security (consistent afffection and mutual sex play) to keep ambition and head clear. That is me. I know it. All I want is for him to give it to me. 1 man 1 mountain to climb- my dream you know the one i move up here for.

he is possibly reinjured now i am not asking for sex but consistent affection. He says he feeels pressure? what does he mean by that? to be a boyfriend, is it to much rightnow?



this is our plight of the day

A girl ( a waitress from old bar he frquented) confronted him at the store and said his girlfriend said she was a bitch.

I was in earlier and tried to purchase same bottle I was gonna buy. I returned mine to the shelf when I was embarrassed that my card would not work. He grabbed one from the till. Assuming it was one I bought. She assumed he was that girls bf.

So the shit is he beleives Ii would do such a thing. I don't know her , she isn't a friend of his but an aquaintance of his, I have no reason to be jealous (unless she is an internet girl and i ddon't know it). I have never heard him speak to her. And when an ex fucked around even though it tore my heart and I regret not fighting for him now, i gave them my blessing and stepped out of the pictures.ANd I wouldn't do this. It makes o sense. I am hurt he has NO FAITH or even who I have been for the last 2 years. I am trying to let this go. But he is rejecting my affection. If he didnt like her I wouldnt speak to her and if she was a friend I would be nice. I love him. How can think other wise.

He is mad at me he think I would embarrass him like that. I am hurt that he cannot see it is a misunderstanding. And I could go back to prove he is an ass for not beleiving me, but that takes away my respect for him. What kind of relationship do we have if there is no trust. I always have to go on his "almost" word. he is very secretative.

I have tried over and over to reassure him this is crazy, and that witholding affection is killing me. I need consistency in his feelings for me.

oh and its bad that I am smoking the shit he bought me

can u tell i am tryintg to quit smoking and am going nuts

I was mad over the first post for 3 days i did not say much, now i am getting payback. Boy is he cold. And we know that was a misunderstanding. But he hold on to it and tries to build it up with nonsense. I repeated the same i love you cheerish you.......would never hurt u, u have to see this for what it is? i love you with all my heart.

I am SO SO Sorry i did not take seriously that he would beleive this nonsense, I was on phone with creditcard people see why declines when should not have ( this was important to me) and then i heard what he said on way home. I have called agaisnt my thought to let it go, she can call if I said anything that offended her with a description, she hasnt called yet. I did this for him he was mad I did not rush into the store and ask her what she meant i never said those things. My girlfriend thinks store girl could be a cookiemonster and maybe after mine.


he is so mad he beleives i would do this, says the cap I is jealous, stupid jealous cause I jealous of waitress from 4 years ago he said he never slept with , she with one of his buddies? he hasnt mentioned until we see her in store? he say is not friend he not hang out with but chat in bar? i see no reason to be jealous unless i am missing something? ive never seen him talk to her or heard. why would i be jealous , why would i want to embarass him on purpose? im wondering where the trust is, i had to trust him he missed his plane because talking to stripper. Or letting him take an easy girl shopping for an hour and a bit, asking him to help my girlfriends and letting him hang with us and our sillinesses? ive tried everything to prove i trust and love him and trust if he something should have happened i trust he would be honest about that,



I HATE MYSELF for telling him "this is stupid u have to let it go, its crazy" now to him i have called him crazy and stupid--- how do I fix this? it isnt what you said but what he insists on beleiving. ANd 2 year ago things is wow, so over and nver done again.... let it go to ( had a problem with his professional ethic and miscontrue my i'm ok my bf come and u have both of us until we can get nomore, to its cool to chat up coworkers. anyway that is so over. I went silly for him to see my wisedom. ANd was funny she only 16,
He is being self destructive, do i leave him see the light on his own i cant repeat myself anymore and have him say nothing

sounds like you're very frustrated.. i'm sorry. i think the best thing to do is not to bring it up. he should get over it on his own if you just go about your business (don't ignore him, just pretend it didn't happen). if he brings it up, just tell him straight up that it was a misunderstanding and he needs to get over it. don't fight, just be straightforward. going into apology mode isn't going to make things any better.. good luck.

You can't change him mine2u. You can only change yourself.