love, flirt, desire or fake? which one?

This topic was created in the Cancer forum by mishhsaba on Tuesday, April 9, 2013 and has 2 replies.
hey guys this is me misshsaba. i hope you all are doing good out there.
guys i need your help. it has been months now and it really is effecting my confidence and my life.
i am in love with a cancer guy. not only in love, infact obsessed.
some facts.
i am an aquarius ( yes this is the toughest fact)
i love his nutturing nature.
he is truely hurt because of an ex.
he hate these three words = I LOVE YOU
he is possesive (*)
he did drugs for 3years ( recently left them)

1st date till 8th date: total fun ( and my feeling for him deepened)
9th date: 1st hug of 50 min in his own room.with almost kiss which she stoped right before the lip touch saying "THIS IS WHAT I CALL CONTROL "hugs and laying together was part of this date
10th date: almost kiss but this time i didn't do because i was not ready. hugs and laying together also was present in this meeting. it was again in his room.
11th date: watched me in my eyes for the 1st time( ofcourse i couldn't meet his as i got nervous) resulted in french kiss and some more kissing.
12th dateSad last date)
obsession with breast ( i don't know how it happened but his hand was under my shirt feeling the chest portion)

some more facts
since the 9th date he often huged me or pulled me closer ( small small affection gestures) or placed his arms around my waist while sitting, and his hands mostly rests on belly.
after the 9th meeting.( i got caught by my colg staff that i went out of premises) we didnt talked. i mean he wished me real late for my birthday, he seldom contacted me.
yesterday i asked him that if he regrets what ever happened he can tell me and i won't utter a world , but il go because i can't take this confusion. he said that i want him to realize it that was a mistake when in real it was not.
regarding the posessive, he got bitter when i told him that my ex contacted me. he even asked if i called him or he did.
this is all what i know about him when i see him.

recently i unblocked his facebook and hotmail account.
and curiousty got the best of me because i opened it up and checked his inbox. he has two very good friends. to know he often kisses and hugs. this hurted me that all this hugs touches and kisses are friendly zoned.
so i simply asked him that am i in same cetegory as his who best friends? he told me that he has huged kisses them but french kiss never happen ( it was an indirect answer)


the whole conversation with him gave me peace in my mind but. i knew this are some hidden fact so i again opened his facebook. he was talking ot his brother whie doing video chat with me last night.
in the conversation with his brother, he told him that he will stay online whole night talking to chiks. after sometime his brother asked him to download some movie, to which he said he is doing some video chat with some chik and he can't download it at that moment. that chik was me no doubt.

my question is... if he dont have feelings for me then whats up with the pretence. and if he do care, then my can't he adress his brother with my name rather then calling me some chik.

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