name your life lessons

Ok so I am cancer ,I dnt no if other cancer going thru this but this yr I had several life lessons ,I had things that happen this yr that I thought that would never acure in my life. Well recently I was in a sistuation where I had to make a decision that would affect others life it was one of my hardest decision and I learn how opinionate and stronge will I am. I also 2 months ago I had a mental break down , now I am not a cryer I am more of a person that just deal with hard things,but I cried and scream like I was in pain which I was emotionally in pain. It was a bad place that I would never for get. I never seen my self that way in my whole life. Now trust issue I have that combines with my non social behavior, I am learning how to socialize without totally having trust on my mind. I realize I having a ( this is me behavior,this is who I am)

Anyway I was just thinking of different things that I learn this year that I felt like it change me for the better.
So what was your life lesson in your pass?

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our deepest fears are often found in our projections of imagination. but once reflected and survived, we are free to move beyond the realms of duality into.....(?)

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@xsyzygyx thanku, all my lesson this yr was great for me. I need it. Like the cry thing I believe it was god telling me that I didn't no that part of my self. And I need to see that, also I train myself to deal and not go thru my own emotion . I learn that I am inmy own way.

Also I'm glad u got thru that fear u had. Sometimes we stop ourselves from growing. But when u get pass lesson u feel free

@ crabcake I agree , this year I have been warn of my storms and for some reason I no that I have to go thru it to be a better me. There was a incident that I could have got out of but part of push thru to gain the lesson that needed to be learn from it. I think everyboby need a storm to grow.

@ xsyzygyx wow I thought I was the only one like that. I dnt cry a lot because when I do it lasts too long ,I also get sick from it. It doesn't do anything for me. I believe the breakdown came so hard because I stay away frm the crying emotion. My mom who is a cryer she says crying makes her feel better and gets a release frm it. Me on the other hand I feel bad and sick frm crying. It doesnt make me feel good act all .my boyfriend tells me it come from waiting too long to cry.that's why I get sick. I understand where he come frm cause things do build up. When I had that breakdown I can still remember the sound of my cry it does something to me thinking about it. I never heard it frm my self be4. There was times I went yrs with out crying hold things in. I also taught myself over the yrs to don't go deep into thing that hurt me so I won't get upset. I train my self to stay away frm certain pain.

@xsyzygyx .when u said that the emotional pain was so bad that it felt like someone physically hit u ,I got that,I no exzackly what u mean. I think cancer emotions are so deep and has so many layer its beyond the understanding. I believe crab main lesson in life is to be able to handle our emotions in a productive way.

U talk about u being good act hiding what u feeling and how that's a good thing. I believe its good on the level of preventing from being hurt or best to say letting other no your emotions because emotions can break a cancer down ,and people out here is not as nice as we like them to be. I also hide my emotion because of the over whelming feeling I get frm them. So I act nonchalant. Being that way works for me,people also take it as if I don't care but I do it so I won't get upset or emotional. Most of my arguement are very nonchalant, use words like (ok, whatever,dowhatever,I really dnt care) very short words the less I say the less emotional I get. I also give blank looks giving no emotion on my faces. This method keeps me level and aware of what I'm feeling

@ moonman. That a good life lesson. Selfesteem is very important. I'm happy u reach that level, I'm working on confidents with my own self. I have it and sometimes I have my low days . But I'm work hard on it I'm ready to complete that .or to have a better hold on it.