I hate being a Capricorn!! A rant!

Man, I do hate being a Capricorn. I have read descriptions of my sign and it fits me perfectly. Unfortunately, the typical Capricorn description is not the way I want to be. I am very insecure and moody. The dark moods that I go though take so long to go away. The only time they go away is when a either find something new that I'm interested in or when a find someone that I'm interested. And right now, none of the latter seems to be the case. I haven't been in a serious relationship for 2 years now and I haven't founded anybody or anything that slightly interest me in 8 months. I've been on dates and everything, but the only reason for that is so my family members would not think that i'm turning gay. Eventually, either I don't call them back or I bore them with my lack of interest in everything.

I need a spark to reenergize me. I thought buy a new--used but it's new to me--Mitushibi(sp.) Galant, but that didn't help. I am so insecure about my driving skills that I think get in a accident like driving off the road and hitting a little kid. Now, I'm more nervous then I ever was before I even brought a car. Anyways, I digress. I lost my sense of humor, I lost my urge to communicate with others. I always been shy, but I never didn't want to even talk to people. I need help. I hate being a Capricorn!

Awww... sounds like me, Hollywood. 😢 Maybe it's time to get a prescription? (No joking.) Wellbutrin, or Lexapro... Thought of getting back on something myself.

YAY!!!! Hi WBTG!!!!

Thank you all for your support. Its really be inspiring to have people I don't even know be more understanding and supportive then members of my family.

Don't get me wrong, I thank the Higher Power for what he's(or she's) giving me. However, be grateful does not get rid of the depressed feeling. If the insecure or moody feeling goes away just because you tell it too, then NO ONE would be insecure or moody. No one sits around and likes being insecure or moody. This happens to be all the time. It has improved since I brought some self-improvement books. But I need more! I need an unexpected spark to happen. I knew I was getting the Gallant. I know that I'm going to graduate in Spring of 07. All of these things are good, but they don't add spark to my life. I guess I'm just jaded.

And if anyone have any suggestions of self-help books (other than the Bible) or anything else that could cure my black moods then I will look it up or try it. Thanks again.

Bye MercinAries! The last thing I want you to do is "loose it".

"And if anyone have any suggestions of self-help books (other than the Bible) or anything else that could cure my black moods then I will look it up or try it. Thanks again."

I think the solution may be of a chemical nature.

Insecurities should go away when you get older. I was insecure when I was young. But then I looked at my life from a different point of view. I accepted myself as I am. And suddenly I saw how many good things I had in me. That changed me totally. Try to see your good qualities instead of your bad. And accept yourself as you are. It's a lot easier to live when you see yourself as a unique and adorable person. Remember that no one is perfect and we all have good qualities too. Try to bring out yours. And you can always ask advice from professionals to find and improve your best qualities. Good luck, sweety!

The power of Postive Thinking— I'll give it a try.

Am I the only one that finds it amusing that the highest thread in the Sag board is "I love being a sag"?

even the most successful people on earth still experience sadness and unsatisfaction. you gotta treat yourself sometimes. i`m not saying you gotta spend more money to be happy. what you need to do is spend a little time counting all your blessings, not your misfortunes. don`t think about the things that you don`t have. think about the ones that you do because fortunately, you seem to have more possessions than many people.

never let other people`s perception on you molds your own being. it`s your life. so, live it to the fullest! you might think you`re having trouble making yourself happy. however, that`s not how i see it. i think you have trouble making other people happy to make yourself happy in return. if that`s truly the case, then stop! i know because i have a cappy friend who`s very moody, as if it`s the end of the world for her. she just can`t be happy, and i feel sorry for her.

start doing the things that you like. set aside the ones that you don`t like. if you feel you`re stuck in a place where you don`t want to be (either work, school, etc.), then get out of there and enjoy the freshness of new things that interest you. life is too short! remember that! if you`re not sure what those things are, then think about the people that you care about the most (family, friends, etc.). take a look at the stars up above. they symbolize our loved ones, who we tend to forget because we`re too busy with other things for our selfish purposes. spend time with the people you like. don`t expect compliments or anything in return. just be yourself and have fun. that way, you will be able to discard the black holes that innervate your heart.

most importantly, just never give up! if you can`t find someone you`re looking for right now, there`s a perfect time set for you. and that "time" is not destined to find you. you are destined to find it! have faith, and soon you will see the "happiness" you`ve missed by overlooking it for so many times. it`s already in front of you, but you still keep looking for it afar.

no need to fight who you are or what's going on at the moment. realize that there comes a time when you need to just ...
r e l a x and take the time to appreciate the small things in life. take the time to soak in your environment... from whatever vantage point you are currently at.

seriously. 🙂 stay on top of yourself by undermining the mentality that you need some new interest and tell yourself that theres nothing you need... in fact... try getting rid of something... like the attitude of self loathing. you dont even need to go so far as being in love with yourself, but forget about yourself altogether. focus on your feelings for other things or people.

k, im starting to feel cheesy, so i'll pause right there. 😛

Don't see the whole forest so much, but try to take life one day, one hour at a time...i know it's rather cliche, but happiness is TRULY a state of mind, even if at first you have train your mind and actually fake it..even to smile more often relaxes our mind & body, because our brains are great at believing what we constantly feed it. *if you think you are, you are.* Capricorns are well known for their hard work ethic & perseverence; and once you put your mind to something, not many can be as solidly grounded and hardworking as you can. Just know you are not only capricorn..but have the many added potential & influences of nine other important planets. If you haven't already, you should learn & study the rest of your birth-chart more. Then find something, anything that gives You passion, that makes you smile & that you think you are half-decent in, no matter how small..Write in a journal, make a list, brain-storm..sort your thoughts..'eventually things will fall into place, because you; like everyone else on this planet, has a unique talent, value & most important of all, something to give to others ...no matter our sun-sign or birth-chart, everybody has challenges to face..'none of us are ever perfect & none of us can completely rely on others for our own happiness; that has to come from within, when we are at peace with ourselves..'then the rest is sweet icing on the cake'...*take care*...s~