Kicking myself

I realized this morning that I probably really do love this Cap and I realized it about 2 minutes before seeing him this morning I stared straight ahead didn't smile and said good morning he could tell something was off he walked around his can and looked back at me I saw out of the corner of my eye. Then I went up stairs and watched him out of the window he seemed different I hope I didn't hurt his feelings not saying I have that kind of power but I hope I didn't put myself back a couple of paces another thing that fucked with me was I remembered that he went to a wedding this weekend and I began to wonder if he met someone there I know totally irrational of me and non of my business and of course I would be happy for him but I just realized how strong my feelings were this morning. Sigh praying I redeem myself. I totally need my poker face when he comes back later today.

Posted by Foreverloveme
Aww 🙂

Lol, you haven't taken any steps back...just gather yourself, you'll be fine

*ps he probably didn't meet anyone at the wedding. Think positive thoughts please

I just feel really stupid because I pushed him to take a day off and get some one with himself then he comes back I don't even smile and ask how his long weekend went smh ok positive thoughts hopefully he doesn't ask me what was wrong this morning he is very good at noticing my changing moods!

Caps don't point at everything, infact they seem unaffected - but they notice every single slightest change in gesture and vibes 😐

But.. It's okay you were overwhelmed by your feelings 🙂 just be yourself.. Dont force yourself to be nice or something. But yeah, poor guy must be wondering what happened to you so.... Relieve him off the doubts? :p

Don't worry that he might've met someone at wedding! Lol. Sending good vibes your way.. ?

Dont let his emotionally unavailable self get to you. If anything, it should show you how little he actually cares. Keep doing your thing. It's his loss, not yours. 😉

Posted by Sssupes
Dont let his emotionally unavailable self get to you. If anything, it should show you how little he actually cares. Keep doing your thing. It's his loss, not yours. 😉

He isn't really emotionally unavailable we have actually talked about being depression and anxiety he said he has always just been taught to control his emotions but I can feel it under the surface. I'm the one who is fucking up

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Posted by Sssupes
Dont let his emotionally unavailable self get to you. If anything, it should show you how little he actually cares. Keep doing your thing. It's his loss, not yours. 😉

He isn't really emotionally unavailable we have actually talked about being depression and anxiety he said he has always just been taught to control his emotions but I can feel it under the surface. I'm the one who is fucking up

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Don't think that way! Be strong girl. A real man will take the lead and bring you into his world. You don't have to always bend.

Think on this

Posted by Sssupes

Posted by ladylibra21

Posted by Sssupes
Dont let his emotionally unavailable self get to you. If anything, it should show you how little he actually cares. Keep doing your thing. It's his loss, not yours. 😉

He isn't really emotionally unavailable we have actually talked about being depression and anxiety he said he has always just been taught to control his emotions but I can feel it under the surface. I'm the one who is fucking up

Don't think that way! Be strong girl. A real man will take the lead and bring you into his world. You don't have to always bend.

Think on this

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Very true

Idk why I'm saying this but why not get some fresh air together.. Go eat or do something outside with him. Calm your nerves down a lil and catch your breath. Something to stabilize your thoughts around him and get you to be talkative. Especially if he noticed something was up and might feel like he doesn't know what to expect when he sees you again. Just thinking.. Idk. Cap moon.

Lol yeah he noticed he approached me very cautious lol

I honk he was fucking too oh well lol