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It started off this way...I was an actor in a movie, just an extra I didn't have a big part. It was a horror movie but remember the name of it. I only remember being filmed in one scene of the movie. Then after my scene or scenes in the movie were done I stuck around for awhile and talked to some of the cast members then I remembered that I needed to get to the airport because my flight would leave in an hour. So I said "Hey guys I better get going my flight back to Oklahoma leaves soon." Then we told each other "Goodbye". Then I got in my car and drove off. But I realised that I didn't know how to get to the airport. So I thought "maybe I should go back and ask them how to get there" then I thought "Nah I'll find it, there should be signs everywhere." But in the dream I think I went everywhere but to the damn airport. I remember getting stuck in a really rough ghetto type of area and being scared and I also seemed to be going in circles getting stuck in the same area wondering if I would ever get outta there. Then later I remember my car broke down in a really run down white trashy area and I remember looking for someone who could help me out but I don't think I could find anyone. Anyway that's all that I remember from the dream. I know it didn't make much sense but do dreams ever? Plus, I've never even been to Los Angeles.
A couple of nights later I had a dream where I committed suicide. And later on at the funeral no one showed up not even my family or best friends or a preacher. The only guys who were there were the ones burying me six feet under. I wonder what this one represents. Perhaps me being tired of being alone.
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um, yes that could be it. you feel lost and you need to be with people so go out. call old friends, and find the airport.
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Well L.A. fine, but its not mine, thinking about making my way back.
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J13 and SP I think its not friends that I am missing. I am missing a relationship and that's why I feel lonely. Although I could always call Rosie Palm and her 5 sisters (that's old I know).
I agree with the crossroads part Sweet-P. I am still in college and I am a Business Admin. major and even though I'm doing pretty well in there. It kinda bores me. And was wondering about something else to major in. But I will probably just finish up with and get done with college ASAP.
And Yes I also don't like asking for help. It seems like when family or friends give me advice, it's always bad advice and I always end up wondering why I ever listened to them in the first place.
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Hello Lazlow,
Twinflame2 here. Your on the right track listening to our little sweep-p, she is wise beyond her years. I have seen your name on the boards but have not talked with you yet. I have been posting since around May of this year. There sure are some neat people here on the Duncan Board, myself I am so glad I found them. They have helped me through alot of stuff. I agree with the advise she has given you so give it a try and see what happens. I am so sorry you are feeling so alone though, that is a hard thing to cope with. Have you thought about joining something extra aside from school. Something that is voluntary and would not take up to much time. It should be something you are interested in, and that is fun for you.
What I am getting at here is that doing something that puts you around other people, (new friend potential) and that you like will help balance things out more for you. Also because you feel the way you do about your major, doing someting you do enjoy will help you cope with that better as well. Anyway give it a try-ok.
It could be anything like: maybe something at the school where they need volunteers to help set up events. Or maybe a club that meets once per week in a subject you like. bowling, nature walks, community event help with things the city sponcers, photography group, join a sports team for the excercise and other benifits it can bring, or a kids club that needs help like being a mentor.
You would be supprised how much you would benifit from forming a friendship with a younger person. My son is part of the Big Brothers, Big Sisters Group where we live. I am raising him alone and his dad is not a part of his life (his choice) and it has helped him so much to have another male to relate to in his life. His big brother really likes what he gains from knowing my son as well.
It's just a suggestion! I know when I am feeling alone that is what I have done. And it has always turned into something good for me.
Again a big HELLO, and a hug (hope it helps) Your not all alone as long as you have us here in Duncanville, remember that! So happy to meet you TW2