whatsup with breif...brief
we broke up because i got scared....scared of something that was stronger than me... then i got a little skeptical about things...about us, but there was nothing to doubt about..i just know it now. I was blind then. I am a gemini u know and that is my prob because i tend to question things a lot, they ay that gmini's are great skeptics-thats very tue to me..i know i should have been more rational about my feelings...i honestly don't understand well, i tend to think two things at a time too, and i dont understand hich is right...i know it will sound funny but im confused by me hehehhee..or maybe i got scared of the intensity of our emotions...it was like a tsunami....all i can do is runnnnnn ahhhhhh...lol..i should've just succumbed to it, i know he would save me. but i was scared to drown. I know i sound stupid.
well since i said goodbye..for reasons he didn't know because i couldn't explain it that time..because i didn't understand it well..he thought i played games with him...
and that was bad..but i left it that way i never attempted to defend myself or even tried to explain things to him...
i'll be right back i need to go...thanks though.its a big help.!
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Feb 25, 2006Comments: 0 · Posts: 2525 · Topics: 50
How long has it been?
If you feel that strongly and are finally certain this is what you want, maybe you should make another attempt to talk to him. Apologize even. Right now, it sounds as if he is still holding resentment. A few more attempts and an apology. And if he is still giving you the same reaction then at least you tried, right? You won't be kept wondering.
It sounds as if you are going to have to do some work in order to get him to forgive you. If you really feel the way you say, then it's worth it.
Good luck sweety
if i tend to contradict myself bear with me...sometimes i feel like givng up..coz it seems stupid..its been so long..surely i could have found someone now..i tried to date other guys but i always end up comparing them to him..sometimes just when i think i've successfully forgotten about him...i'll find myself drifting away..dreaming about him..
bear with me here coz im also trying to analize my feelings...writing helps me think..hahahha im not tryin to make dpxnet my online diary...jeez is that what's happenning, and my diary is replyng..wow!
tell me i am nuts...coz must be but imagine i never told anyone this..if it wasn;t me i would laugh.
he goes to school 4 hours away from me, if its traffic its 5 hours and one day i missed him terribly i drove 10 hours just to see the school he goes to, i didn;t call him or anything coz im not sure if he hates me or didn't have an idea if he's still single or what..10 hours because as soon as i got there i made a u-turn shaking to death! God!
I think about him when i am very sad and low, I think about him when I am having a good time, and most importantly I never forget about him in the greatest moments of my life...you know the great acheivements--i always want him there.
I've been everywhere, done everything, met everyone...well not everyone..lol, i've changed, my hair grew, my body is now more sexy hahahahhah double lol....everything changed but one...my love for him didn't fade away..it grew stronger.
GOD the more more i dwell on this the more i'm gonna go nuts..what! have i written a novel now...jeez got to go!
thanks for listening....i love you all!!!!!!!
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Feb 25, 2006Comments: 0 · Posts: 2525 · Topics: 50
I won't tell you are nuts because I have experienced something similar with the person I am with now. Some people are impossible to let go of.
And sometimes you don't really require other peoples advice, you help yourself just by listening to yourself speak.
..10 hours because as soon as i got there i made a u-turn shaking to death!....
Aww!
ok... Pretend I am there just nodding my head and listening : )
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Jun 01, 2006Comments: 0 · Posts: 790 · Topics: 20
sweetest_gemini
It sounds like he still has feelings for you, and that he's also holding a Leo grudge. But Leo's can forgive almost anything as long as there is a heart-felt apology (and a little grovelling). I'm sure he still wonders what happened between the two of you oh so long ago.
Purrrfect is right, just put it all out there and see what happens. Tell him what you've told us and mean it. The things you regret most in life are the things you didn't do. What do you have to lose? An ex-boyfriend that you wouldn't see again anyway?
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Sep 28, 2005Comments: 0 · Posts: 7602 · Topics: 89
Awww, I have someone like that in my past too Gem.
If it has been three years since you last had contact, throw it out there and see what happens. My best friend just married a Leo she hadn't talked to in two years. I don't believe we stop loving the people we truly love just because they aren't in our lives anymore.
But let this be your last stand. Throw it out there and accept this as your great answer. He will either step up or not. If he doesn't, you know that you are two people who love each other and just can't make it work. It is sad but it happens. Then let it free you up to find someone who truly loves you and you can love back.
Good Luck.
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Sep 28, 2005Comments: 0 · Posts: 7602 · Topics: 89
*** it just seem funny cause i think i want him now more than ever, and im wndering too why just now, why didn't i feel this strongly then when i could still talk to him
Could it be you are in love with the fantasy and not the man? It kind of sounds like this to me.
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Feb 25, 2006Comments: 0 · Posts: 2525 · Topics: 50
...till then you have to help me and give me advice on how to let go of your ..purrrfect match....lol......
I don't know about the others, but I haven't figured it out yet either. We both keep coming back to each other. lol!!
....i want him now more than ever, and im wndering too why just now, why didn't i feel this strongly then when i could still talk to him,....
Maybe because you are a little more mature and experienced now after 3 years? Dating others you have nothing in common with might remind you of what you had. Could it be because now you have more to compare him to? Try not to dwell too much on that because that isn't something you can go back and change. What's done is done. All you can do is try to fix it.
to both of you my friends....could be...
until you said how far away you were from him, i thought you were my gemini . except i doubt she'd compare her potential new mates to me .
i think you should take some time to make a list of the things that you are wanting out of life, and see if he can fill that need, whether the list is for a year down the road or for the rest of your life . if not, let him go on his merry way . if so, give him a chance . i, as a leo male, have *heavy* amounts of attraction for gemini women . but i have learned to transmute it, in a way, to keep myself sane .
does he ever exhibit obsessive behaviour towards you ?