Posted by Pride of 0ctober
for me. I lose all sense of reality. I always fall so hard for girls and i accepted that i will never half step with my heart, ever. its so black and whiteim either hot or cold
but that can be dangerous, to plunge so deeply into a womens soul that you see what she cant, and she can see what you cant.
Its scary to look in someone's eyes and feel this world crumble as if reality was the illusion and love was the real truth. The nall of a sudden things go foward so fast, neither one of us can stop it nor do we try and things just keep spiralign to a worl we botha aint ready for-mergence
And that reality that once grounded you before you met her is now fire and something that can destroy you if you step away so you cling tighter as if its a form of survival, you let these intense reactions speak for you now all you know is love. But its YOUR love, you cling b/c YOU love her and its so intense b/c you focus so hard and the obsession seems so hard. The farther you step away the more you feel burned.
now anyting wrong thing she says can hurt you and make you hold so much tighter. And thats when things take a turn for the worse. That fire just blazes brighter and the more you grip her the more she fights and squirms to get loose and keeps fighting and you keep hurting yourself b/c you lost reality when you dove deep into this relationship.
And then it happens, the pain, the sudden shift of reality and you get a hard check, and you have to loosen the grip or hold on till its nothing left to grip, you force yourself to return back to that fire that was once reality and deal with the pain of not havingher and the fear that she instilled in you when she turned that passion off and distance on, you ground yourself so hard that no one can shift your feelings toward the relationship
then, its over. It felt like a dream and yu know its the past and what was will never b again, so, you make the chane, and walk away to birhgter days. thats my love life lol sorry if its over dramatic
Posted by THEKingofLibra
Jebus shit you are one whiny guy. At 26 I should be freaking at that I don't have a stable relationship or a family, but am I? Negative, K. I don't give a fuck anymore. Reason with me here - its all very zen. "Sooner or later in life the things you love you lose." So you would just be setting yourself up for a disappointment if you try to look for love or a woman to cuddle with or whatever floats your boat.
By spending a lot of my time alone I've come to like myself a great deal. I'd say no woman may take that away from me, and you should get to know yourself as well. I'd recommend a good lotion but that's an extra.
Also, you don't live forever. What do you want to go on and waste that time chasing some tail? Does sex really bring you that much pleasure that you just must have it? Think of the better things in life - you can find a great career, study things that ignite your imagination and fill the empty void in your life, you can make money and spend it on buying a sailboat or save enough to just quit your work for a year and study to become a pilot. You can literally accomplish so much if you don't waste your time chasing young 20-something year old sluts.
Posted by THEKingofLibra
Hate me, don't hate yourself. You didn't make a mistake, you've only played the cards you were dealt by the quantum dynamical chaos we call life. I'll give you the benefit of being 22 for your frustrations, but really we all go through this shit in our lives, be you 20, 26, or 36. Drama is all around us, its by getting deeper and deeper cuts that we can heal and grow tougher skin for the next time around.
Posted by LibraSid
Talking is a good way to clear your mind. I had a shitty 2010 as well with relationship drama. When it happened I questioned everything and still am in a lot of ways. Don't apologize for being stressed and don't let people get to you. Try not to worry about what's coming too far down the road. Take care of yourself. It may be a while before "you rise from the ashes" but you'll be better off for doing it.
Don't let this make you bitter and jaded either. Focus on you. You have to be careful how much you want her to wake up, it can lead you into heartache. When you let go, let go. She's not your problem anymore. People come and go. Worry about growing yourself.
kquote>Posted by Rayzed
You've also got to work on your insecurities. Might take a while but eh, once you reach that mature stage that most Libra get too, once you know how to know yourself, you will never and ever let someone hurts you. I just fear that a girl might truly love you and you may never trust her...
Posted by Rayzed
Ah, dang it. You're young. 22. Feel like shit if you will, take as long as you like to be in this state. But don't do it forever. One day, you'll ask yourself 'why the fuck was I in that state??!'click to expand
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