The God Particle

Was the higgs Boson there in the beginning?
Is it still here and hiding?
We know all the particles in the standard model.
Can we find it?

Hmmm quite strange. If the Higgs bestows mass on all other particles, it means that particles which are bestowed by the Higgs have to first exist to be bestowed. For how can nothing be bestowed? Therefore, something existing prior to being bestowed is already mass. Is it not? Or are all particles simply energy until bestowed by the Higgs? But how is energy particles before being bestowed?

Maybe the Higgs has never been seen because its bestowed away all of its mass to the other particles? Bestowed its way into non existence? Maybe, when it comes to mass, it is better to be bestowed than to bestow? For if one bestows oneself into non— existence, then one can neither give nor recieve. Of course, laws like these would only apply to those and all, comprised of particles. God, not comprised of particles, but perhaps entirely particleless. Can bestow and give an entire universe, complete with all energy and mass, and still exist, eternaly...

You may be right but then again you may be wrong its like the BIG BANG how can all that exist come from nothing into existance? If the Higgs Boson exist is it God? If so did it continue to be if not why?