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Feb 11, 2010Comments: 252 · Posts: 38715 · Topics: 473
I've been meaning to start a personal blog here for sometime...if only to rant or feel excited or gather the whirlwind of events that are constantly going on in my life..all in one place.
I remember growing up NOTHING.HAPPENED.FAST.ENOUGH. I still carry that energy and trying to pace myself a little.
I also remember growing up whenever I had a trip scheduled I could never sleep the night before...I'd get at the train station and the teachers would go "Oh are you struggling with leaving home? You'll be back soon"
"NO, I AM JUST WAY TOO EXCITED OVER IT"
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Feb 11, 2010Comments: 252 · Posts: 38715 · Topics: 473
Ugh yesterday was one of those days where nothing makes much sense...yet it doesn't aggravate you either.
I am seriously not suited for a blase attitude and an indifference to anything, it brings my Moon tears of boredom. Think I shall have to rely on my Venus more.
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Feb 11, 2010Comments: 252 · Posts: 38715 · Topics: 473
The battle of the Virgo Suns/Aries Moons.
I have a close Virgo Sun/Aries Moon friend. Naturally, we pull pranks on each other. He loves bikes and has bugged my other Libra friend to get me one last christmas. They both put their money together and got me this amazing RED bike I love. I haven't been able to ride it this year..only on 2 short lived occasions.
Prior to that, I only rode bikes as a kid and even then I didn't have much experience with it.
Last week he calls me and tells me we should go out on a "beginners' tour" with our bikes. I asked him who was attending it and he told me his Aqua girlfriend and 4 other friends of his. That should've been my clue but I missed the cue. All of his friends are bikers so there was no way this would be a "beginner" thing.
We were supposed to meet this Sunday to go in a park near a subway station. I get there, only see him and his friends, we climb on our bikes and get going. I see all of them leaving the park and going..and going...for 4 km til we reached a forest.
I stop and go "What is happening?"
"We're doing a forest circuit"
"It rained heavily, it will be full of mud"
"Yeah, it makes it more interesting"
Clue #2. This time I didn't miss it and I knew something was up.
What was up, you ask? WE DID A 25 KM TRACK THROUGH THE FOREST, THROUGH HOLES AND MUD AND FALLEN TREES.
The fucker knew once I was in the forest, my competitive spirit will not let me go away, if it meant I'd die pedaling right there. So he played on that and made sure to pedal by my side so he could hear the full extent of my bitching while laughing maniacally.
"Dude, I know what you're up to!"
"Pushing you beyond your limits?"
"Yeah, remember how you told me you couldn't swim?"
"Yeah"
"Well guess what my dear virgo sun aries moon friend..I will throw you into the Atlantic..like a beginner course, obviously"
"LOL"
"I'll get you good for this"
I cannot feel my feet, my ass or my lower back anymore. I'm typing this from my bed, on my backside, with the laptop on my boobs.
GODDAMN DEVIOUS VIRGO SUN/ARIES MOON motherfucker.
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Tomorrow would be your birthday again..
Actually it is your birthday because you never left..I find you in butterflies, I feel you dancing in the rain, I feel you hug me on windy days..I know you never left. You're there with me in that second prior to midnight, in some idle moment at 4 am when I can't sleep and I run into an existential crisis over my life. Always smiling at me, sometimes dissing me and slapping me over my silliness. Haven't made it to Bristol yet..but I'll take so many pictures with you by my side.
Yesterday's plane crash brought it all home for me again. No survivors..and I would watch the images on the mountain the plane crashed in and get flashbacks from last year.
I'll go and talk to you tomorrow again. Have people around me looking at me like a lunatic because I talk out loud to a grave. It's funny, you'd see the humor in it. You know how we used to laugh through our tears when we were sad.
I never lost you, took me a while to realize it. To stop missing and yearning and longing. It's bittersweet, you know? You do.