We only dated for 2 weeks, and been on a relationship for like 2-3 weeks. At first, I can see he's sincere to everything he say. The way he looked at me, the way he touched me.. Just made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. It was amazing, and I fell so deep in love with him. Every time he calls me "babe", I don't know, I just feel like my heart is going to explode. I guess it's been a long time since I've been treated like this. I was so happy...
But the way I express my feelings to him, I guess it's just so wrong. I'm the type of girl who always needs to feel secured with my man. I always wanted to feel loved, and needed. I always want to hear those sweet words that will make me feel secure that he's never going to leave me. I demanded for a constant communication (texts.. calls..), even if we work for the same company and see each other 4 times a week. I wanted to be the center of his attention. I wanted to be his priority. I wanted to be his everything. Yes, I'm too needy and clingy, and I hate that about myself now. Because of that, the man that I love just walked out of my life.
Every time I say something, I'm expecting him to respond in a certain way. And if he answers differently, I'm gonna get mad. It's like I'm always looking for something to argue with. That's what he says. And I understand that. Though I didn't mean to. I just need to hear from him that he'll do anything for me.. That he will never do anything to hurt me.. I just put too much pressure on him. And now I keep blaming myself for doing that.
I tried to confront him. He tried to get away. Said we'll just talk later. And I said "No! I need to know now!" He just walked away. What can I do. He's a pisces, hates confrontations. But I followed him downstairs. And he finally talked to me.
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He asked me, "What else do we need to talk about?" I was like, "What do you mean?" He said that we just have a lot of differences. That we can't just get along with each other. Then I asked him, "Did you even loved me?" He said yes. And I asked him if there's really nothing left, he just said that he couldn't actually say that there's nothing. I asked him to tell me the truth. He said, "I still love you, but I can't do this anymore!" He said that for that very short period of time, I got him feel so tired. It's always like that everyday, and that he hates that. I asked him if we can still work it out, he said that I'm just gonna get hurt. But he also said that he still might change his mind.
I know that pisces men don't really have any solid knowledge on what they want in their lives. On day, they're all over you, then the next day, it's all over. Then out of the blue, when you're least expecting it, they're back. I just don't know if in my case, he will still come back. I just wish he would.
I decided to try to make friends with him. So I can still have an opportunity to show him that I'm always here for him. That I'm willing to change for him. That I can make all the sacrifices needed to get him back. That's how much I love him. But I can see that he's not comfortable with it, at least for now. I'm a scorpio, by the way. I just don't give up easily. Call me stupid and crazy, like my friends did. But this is who I am. And I'm hoping that one day, I can win his heart back. I just don't know what to do.
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Jun 30, 2013Comments: 8 · Posts: 150 · Topics: 11
Thank you. That's what I've been trying to do now. Btw, his best friend and I got close when we started training for a new skill 4 days ago. And since then, I started to feel like he's not just ignoring me anymore, he's kinda mad at me at some point. I really don't know.
oh in that case if he's being mad at u at some point and u feel that well theres jealousy involved in there already, the very fact that u got close to his bestfriend now that ur no longer together makes him mad and jealous, if i can just get into his thoughts i will feel like "are u doing this on purpose to hurt me, catch my attention or what?" but ofcourse he will not ask that but we pisces (or atleast me lol) when i get jealous i really ignore the person and like show that person i dont care whatever u do whoever ur with but deep inside im dying, lol, im pretty sure he feels the same and im pretty sure if he's mad of u being close to his bestfriend goes to show that ur still in his heart, which is good though otherwise he will never really care and would not even ignore u or be mad at u at all.. so there, just a pisces woman point of view but the rest is up to u.. thank u (BOW)
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Here's the deal .... Scorpios have to be the breaker uppers .. they don't care how desperate and needy they appear.
There's no doubt in my mind that the only reason she tries to get him back ..... is so she can break up with him.
Seen it hundreds of times
I was this kind of girl who is really loud.. I laugh a lot, make joke with my friends, and just laugh all day. That's how he knew me.. When we got into a relationship, though I knew that he had a huge crush on me, it was me who made the first move.. I was always the one deciding when and where to go, and what to do. I was this confident girl, and she was the shy type. And so here it goes.. After the break up, I decided to be friends with him.. I tried to greet him 'Hi' but I just felt that he's not really comfortable. He tried to avoid me, and at one point, I felt that he suddenly got mad at me.
So yeah, I decided to ignore him too. I played the shy type kinda girl this time. Everytime I had to walk across him, I just look down. Everytime we accidentally look at each other, I always look down.. Doing that for about a week now.. Last Tuesday, I woke up having a missed call on my Viber.. Not sure who it was because I already deleted his no. I tried to callback twice, but it was being dropped. So I texted, 'I'm sorry I missed your call. Who's this?'
Then I got a reply. 'It's me, ****. ' So I said, 'Oh, why?'
And here comes the confusing part.. He started askin who I am too.. Few exchanges of texts, but I never said who I was. I ended up the conversation by saying 'Oh okay. It's better left unsaid then.'
Then that night, we went to work. He was early, and found out his and my team had to swap stations for the night because of the client visit. I stationed somewhere in his team's bay.. And it was wierd, coz he sat on my station. Idk what that means really.. But of course, it got me thinkin, 'Why sit on my station?'
And then this past few days, I always catch him lookin at me.. The longest was this Saturday morning before I went home.. He was really starin at me, and I kept pretending that I wasnt aware.. I was trying to check on him, then look down..
This is so confusing now.. Idk what to think..