We only dated for 2 weeks, and been on a relationship for like 2-3 weeks. At first, I can see he's sincere to everything he say. The way he looked at me, the way he touched me.. Just made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. It was amazing, and I fell so deep in love with him. Every time he calls me "babe", I don't know, I just feel like my heart is going to explode. I guess it's been a long time since I've been treated like this. I was so happy...
But the way I express my feelings to him, I guess it's just so wrong. I'm the type of girl who always needs to feel secured with my man. I always wanted to feel loved, and needed. I always want to hear those sweet words that will make me feel secure that he's never going to leave me. I demanded for a constant communication (texts.. calls..), even if we work for the same company and see each other 4 times a week. I wanted to be the center of his attention. I wanted to be his priority. I wanted to be his everything. Yes, I'm too needy and clingy, and I hate that about myself now. Because of that, the man that I love just walked out of my life.
Every time I say something, I'm expecting him to respond in a certain way. And if he answers differently, I'm gonna get mad. It's like I'm always looking for something to argue with. That's what he says. And I understand that. Though I didn't mean to. I just need to hear from him that he'll do anything for me.. That he will never do anything to hurt me.. I just put too much pressure on him. And now I keep blaming myself for doing that.
He's a very calm guy. He's just not into drama. Just wanna take life the easy way. And the way I acted as his girlfriend pushed him away. And now I don't know what to do to get him back. I know to myself that I'm willing to do anything for him. That I could be the girl that he ever wanted. I just don't know what to do. I'm so lost without him, I'm crying real hard everyday.
The last few days of our 3rd week in a relationship, I got no idea what was going on. He just started to get cold. Our last conversation through text was when I said that I'm going to pull myself back a little bit so he won't feel suffocated anymore. He got disappointed, I could say. But I just continued to try to pull back in my last few messages that day, and I thought everything was fine. Until we see each other at work that night. I smiled at him cause I thought everything was fine. Then he just smiled back. Like a cold smile. And I wondered w