he hit me

my brother hit me. after all these years. i want to poison him already. im tired of this. he has allot of issues and mental problems but my mom cant fing it in her to kid him out. so i want to poison him. kill him. get rid of him finally. everyones sick of this. no one wants him here. after all these years of going back and forth. he wont accept help and wont admit his problems. i think its the easiest way. for him too.

Get yourself somewhere safe. Don't do anything you'll regret later.

No I was kidding, she should stay and try to work it out...

Sorry, I know that wasn't directed at me. You have to find something to smile about while we worry about someone.

I can't imagine that she'd come lie about this. I just hope she gets somewhere safe and gets help... and no revenge killing.

@Diana: If you feel that he should be held responsible for his actions, call the police. Not only is hitting a woman period NEVER ok, but it's especially a "bad sign" if a man catches himself hitting his own family member. That's a sign that he's headed down a lonnnng & dark road. You should probably call the authorities or tell someone who perhaps won't "overlook" what he did to you.

Either way, it's just as unhealthy for you to harbor feelings of your own brother dying/hurting himself the same as it being unhealthy for your brother to be acting the way he's acting. I'm sure we don't know everything but, if you really want to get him some help, understand that him dying is the EASY way out. He needs counseling & those who won't give up on him. It's ok to be furious as HELL with him, but DON'T give up on him.

If you're mother can't find it in her to kick him out, then perhaps maybe YOU should be considering some other living arrangements. I know it's always easier said than done, BUT since you CANNOT change/control him or anyone else for that matter, it's best that you try to find ways for YOU to find peaceful shelter & a safe haven. You threatening violence against him is you living in the same semi-mindset that he's in; and if him being in that mindset hasn't helped or benefited him any then you have to know that the same won't benefit/help you either.

Just calm down. Try to get him some help. And if you don't want to do that, call law enforcement. Some mothers don't seem to have it in them to punish their children for things that others would be slayed/doomed for had the same things went on. So try not to make your mother's battle, yours. Try to find a way to either REMOVE YOURSELF from the situation or find a way to have peace in the situation.

From what you said about him, and how our mother is in denial, and you wanting to cause physical harm ..... sounds like the whole family is ready for the looney bin.


Your apple didn't fall far from the family tree did it?



You, just like him, (((((((((((think)))))))))) about violence as a solution to problems.

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Posted by Dianasart
my brother hit me. after all these years. i want to poison him already. im tired of this. he has allot of issues and mental problems but my mom cant fing it in her to kid him out. so i want to poison him. kill him. get rid of him finally. everyones sick of this. no one wants him here. after all these years of going back and forth. he wont accept help and wont admit his problems. i think its the easiest way. for him too.

LOL sweet jesus you are 1 dumb broad

but go ahead and kill'em, so that way he'll be dead and you'll go to jail and we'd have two less idiots to worry about

Posted by ellessque

She's not joking.

This is not her first post about abuse.

Who's thinking it's a joke?

What I do think is a joke, is people like you who tell a sick person that they are not, and that it's other people around them who are fucked up.

You, along with a couple others would tell her that the other person in this scenerio is in need of help, and not one word to her about her own needs for psychological help.

When feeling like she did when she wrote this thread ... her initial reaction was to wish violent acts upon another. That makes her a potential abuser.

And the fact that you would just fly past that, like it doesn't exist .. makes your counsel a joke.

uhm...wow

I feel stuck!

I know, I'm the only one who can change anything in my life. I know that no one but 'I' can save myself.
But... it's like... going threw a burning building you know?... It's childish, but I've always wanted a hand to hold mine, to guide me... the right way for the first time... A moment where I can actually close my eyes and feel... safe. Like, I'm just a spirit, not male or female, just floating in a bright place, feeling... like... I can't be touched or broken... I wonder if babies feel that way when they're held... are they even aware of danger? I bet that would be the best feeling on the planet...

Posted by Dianasart

I do NOT see violence as a solution! That's one thing you're wrong about me!

When I imagine his death I imagine something bad happening, an accident or something, or him just disapearing.

Yes I threaten to murder my brother but not because it's the only way out, but it FEELs like the easiest when you can't think straight.

You are in total denial.

Posted by Dianasart


I spent more time during high school in mental institutes and in therapy then in any class. As if I'm the problem. Yea, I do have problems, but just because I'm working on them doesn't mean they go away because I'm surrounded by the same people who keep pushing me back into the same problems. And I know I can always move out. But with not a single dime in my pocket, a school that wont provide me with financial aid because of my GPA, being that I spent more time crying to my therapists then hitting the books, and no job experience... And let's not forget how 'crazy' I am, where will I go? How would I provide for myself? Who would even take me in??

I'm sure you could come up with more excuses than that to allow yourself to be helpless ... certainly you could think up some more .... afterall, once you discover the ultimate excuse then you might never have to leave the situation.

😢

It's true. All of what everyone says here is true... It's easier to complain and tell everyone all this and I feel a bit less alone .... but it's not changing anything. I NEED to take a step forword already. I feel like fainting with the thought alone, but... it's the only way right? To save myself. I'll have a blank canvas on the other side. Maybe I'll feel stronger too. *_* I'm going to do it...