First, let me apologize if this posts multiple times. The site (or my computer) seems to be experiencing issues.
There is a virgo man in my life that I've known for over a decade. In all truth I've always been attracted to him, but he was married to a friend of mine and I never would have acted on it as it would have been totally inappropriate and a betrayal to my friend. That was a line I would not cross! They divorced about six years ago and he was in the military and deployed several states away. I was so disappointed because I adored him - his personality, his intellect, his kind and gentle nature. I have such admiration for him. Always have. I was happy just to have him as a friend and thought that was all it would ever be, but thought I'd never see him again since he was up north and I felt awkward about trying to contact him. Summer of this past year I discovered he was living back in my town and had the opportunity to reconnect with him. I was thrilled! I was also in a very troubled relationship, so again, any pursuit of him was inappropriate and any relationship would have to remain a friendship. Months went by and then he popped up at an art show I was working. I was over the moon excited to see him again! I made it a point to try to foster the ties of friendship with him, dropping hints about when and where he might be able to bump into me again should he so desire. He sent me silly texts here and there to stay in touch and then again showed up at a weekly event I was working to pop in and say hello. He brought me some items he had collected that he thought I could use for display. Such a thoughtful man. During that visit, I mentioned something off-handedly about wanting to make some bronze cast acorns. He later showed up at my work with a bag full of acorns that he had collected from his yard. I felt like he had brought me flowers! I later told myself that I was being ridiculous and I was just starved for attention (current bad relationship) and making too much of it. He's such a kind and generous person to everyone in his circle and I told myself that's all it was. we stayed in touch via text messages mostly, but recently I was frustrated due to the verbal and emotional abuse of my current partner. Since most of my friends have been run off by my current man I no longer have anyone to turn to for emotional support, so In frustration I reached out to him and then instantly regretted it, thinking 'well, that's it. He won't w