I have known this guy for 10 years, since childhood. He was my best friend that I could call up in the middle of the night to talk to for hours. We always had a thing for each other but neither of us made it happen. Even though I feel he should have been the man and tried harder... but anywaysss. When I finnaly thought we would try something he lead me on and then said he didnt like me. Then a month later starts dating a 15 yr old virgo. We didnt talk for a while ... then I called him and we had this hugeee blowout I was crying on the phone and he clearly did not know how to take it. We didnt talk to eachother for a year (even though I see him once a week on sundays) I decide it was time to start over so I texted him and said I wish we were friends I miss having a guy bestfriend. He asked if he could call me and we reconnected. He told me he was sorry (again) which I didnt even bring up the situation. He asked if I felt awkward around him and his girlfriend and I said yea I just feel like I shouldnt be around. I told him if he was happy I was happy and I'm happy he found someone he could step up to the plate with. He said that when we stepped up to the plate with eachother the other one stepped down. He also asked if I would even talk to his girlfriend and I said no. He said she feels bad she broke a friendship and I said does she still feel upset that I dont talk to her? And he said yes and i said well her hurt never compared to mine so she can deal with it. He said that he was stupid and knew that we wernt just talking as friends and lead me on and he wish he could have ended it differently. He also mentioned about him with my nephew and I told him that I did not want her picking him up it gets on my nerves and he said he would make sure she didnt. He said that he was hurt that we wernt friends anymore and he doesnt have a lot of people to talk to and just because he didnt show he was crying on the phone when we had the blowout doesnt mean he didnt. When we got off the phone he told me to promise him I wouldnt settle for less and I said same to you. Its really sad because when we see eachother in person it feels like we never had that 1hr and half convo on the phone. Its like we have to get to know eachother in person over again. I know this is long but I had to vent lol. How do you think he feels about me?
