Can't Handle The Universe Right Now

Had something big and long typed out before, and it wouldn't post...this site hates Safari on OS X. Anyway, an ex, the woman who is simultaneously the best and worst thing to ever happen to me, a Leo/Virgo, has come back into my life in an interesting way...she's decided to follow me on social media. This is unique not just because she personally (and angrily, at least once) told me it would never happen, or because it was a joke to our mutual friends that we were the only ones who "avoided" each other like that, but because I know she can't handle to see any aspects of old relationships at all. She hates to be reminded of the past. Haven't even had a real conversation with her in over a year, I think. I'm not attaching any importance to it right now, but this is literally the last thing she would ever do. I'm very confused. Just when you think you have things figured out, they change. I feel like this happens to me too much....

Guess this turned out being long too :p

I apologize in advance, the other two topics are kind of in the nether-regions of the internet lol. The browser stalled both times trying to post, I was afraid that would happen. If mods could delete them that would be great. In addition, sorry for clogging up the forums, that was my last intention.

Did read your last topic but going by what you posted, I can help a little.

So, can't handle the universe? That's the thing. When you learn or figure something out, you have to put it to the test...right? That's life_??_ We Saggies tend to want to retire...one of Jupiter's lesser known aspects. Life is always going to test you. It never ceases. The key is to accept and have peace. That's when it gets easier.

As for the Leo, why not ask her directly what's up? She wants you to pursue. By telling you it'll never happen, she's challenging you. So, decide if she's what you want and go for it or let her know, either directly or subtly, that you're not interested. _??_

Didn't read your last topic...typos lol

Posted by JustaSag
Had something big and long typed out before, and it wouldn't post...this site hates Safari on OS X. Anyway, an ex, the woman who is simultaneously the best and worst thing to ever happen to me, a Leo/Virgo, has come back into my life in an interesting way...she's decided to follow me on social media. This is unique not just because she personally (and angrily, at least once) told me it would never happen, or because it was a joke to our mutual friends that we were the only ones who "avoided" each other like that, but because I know she can't handle to see any aspects of old relationships at all. She hates to be reminded of the past. Haven't even had a real conversation with her in over a year, I think. I'm not attaching any importance to it right now, but this is literally the last thing she would ever do. I'm very confused. Just when you think you have things figured out, they change. I feel like this happens to me too much....

Guess this turned out being long too :p

justasag are you sure you didn't think this into existence. i have a feeling you consciously wanted this to happen ( you thought of this moment at some point and your subconscious mind has made it a reality)--- control your thoughts whatever you think will happen. So make your thoughts good thoughts and good things can happen if you want them too. Stay positive you already know what it is or can be, believe it.

Thanks for the positivity guys, I appreciate it. I know way back I posted some extensive stuff about me and this person, suffice it to say that she was really the only other person I've ever met in my life that I ever truly "fell" in love with it. It ended badly...and continued to go back and forth between good and bad for, well, really up till now. I'm not going to lie, I am deep down excited about this, as insignificant as it seems. There's definitely a reason for it. I just don't know how to approach her. Funny enough, I can approach anybody anywhere, no problem. But this girl...every time I even see her name, its like I'm feeling it all for the first time. Crazy crazy crazy. I guess the worst part is, I just started talking to someone else, who lives in another state. I hate when things get messy....not that I haven't been in this situation before. It really is just like that scene in Swingers...right when you think you've moved on, they decide to re-appear. This is weird. Something I wanted to happen for so long, and now I don't know what the hell to do. She has that effect on me...if ever a woman was kryptonite to a man, she is mine. Her best friend (who also became one of mine) seems to think its a positive sign...maybe I should as well...

Posted by JustaSag
Thanks for the positivity guys, I appreciate it. I know way back I posted some extensive stuff about me and this person, suffice it to say that she was really the only other person I've ever met in my life that I ever truly "fell" in love with it. It ended badly...and continued to go back and forth between good and bad for, well, really up till now. I'm not going to lie, I am deep down excited about this, as insignificant as it seems. There's definitely a reason for it. I just don't know how to approach her. Funny enough, I can approach anybody anywhere, no problem. But this girl...every time I even see her name, its like I'm feeling it all for the first time. Crazy crazy crazy. I guess the worst part is, I just started talking to someone else, who lives in another state. I hate when things get messy....not that I haven't been in this situation before. It really is just like that scene in Swingers...right when you think you've moved on, they decide to re-appear. This is weird. Something I wanted to happen for so long, and now I don't know what the hell to do. She has that effect on me...if ever a woman was kryptonite to a man, she is mine. Her best friend (who also became one of mine) seems to think its a positive sign...maybe I should as well...

well if you believe it will be positive keep think that way and it will be. dont ever doubt!!

Remember Venus has just gone in retrograde motion, which means that past lovers will suddenly start popping up in your life during this period. Usually the meaning behind this is that there are unresolved issues between the two of you, try to find out which ones are yours. It doesnt mean you HAVE to get back with that person to resolve them though. Good luck!

Yep, listen to Boom

Posted by BoomShakalakaBoom
Remember Venus has just gone in retrograde motion, which means that past lovers will suddenly start popping up in your life during this period. Usually the meaning behind this is that there are unresolved issues between the two of you, try to find out which ones are yours. It doesnt mean you HAVE to get back with that person to resolve them though. Good luck!

Yeah I remembered that as soon as I saw the email. Unresolved issues..you would think more than 2.5 years after the relationship ended they'd all be gone by now. The thing is, I wanted her back in my life for so long, that it feels weird to even think about that actually happening. I guess you could say...the only thing I know for sure that is unresolved, is the fact that I still have feelings for her. That's why this is such a shock. I'm slightly paralyzed at the moment, trying to understand what the next step is.

I feel like today is the day to reach out...I don't know why, I just feel it is. We're supposed to be good at feeling those things right? 😛 I sure as hell hope so. I had a dream involving her last night, one of maybe 15+ that I've had in the last month-month and a half. Every time, its a different situation, but the details are the same. She pops up out of nowhere, we fall back into the same niceties that existed when we first met, and I feel like its time to ask her to be a part of my life again, and then she disappears, and there's usually much searching, or I wake up. These have been happening with increasing frequency. I'm not sure how to feel about this. It's like my mind isn't my own....although since I met her I guess you could say that's been the case...

Take a chance! Go for it.

Posted by BoomShakalakaBoom
Take a chance! Go for it.

again, Listen to Boom! 🙂

So what it didnt work out in the past, maybe now you both will have matured.

Dreams are an interesting phenomenon. Are they derived from your private thoughts, the things you dont want to face, the last thing you watched b4 going to bed, or was it the spicy mongolian food you ate for dinner.

I turn to my dreams for direction.

I remember when I was 13 years old, once I dreamed of an uncle of mine I never even met, I had never dreamed of him before and there was no apparent reason why he would show up in my dreams...next morning the phone rings, my mom picks up, my uncle passed away..

That's unbelievable. I have to say, I truly do think that they exist for a reason, and that you should pay attention to them. I think there's always something to be learned. They are generally a product of your subconscious, so it can offer you a unique insight into what is going on "behind the scenes" in your mind. If you can remember them that is :p

Didn't end up reaching out today, was tied up with family. Did not want to get in a situation where I would potentially be having a conversation that I would need to focus all my attention on while around others. Might try tomorrow after I pick up a new phone. I am still very nervous, I have no idea how she's join to react. This is one of those things where I would almost rather not do it at all than do it and screw up.

Dont be afraid, if its making your nervous it means it needs to be done! Good luck!

Thanks! Still haven't done it, haven't had one free day yet that I really thought would have worked...might just have to settle for imperfection, for once. Makes me nervous... :p

He who hesitates, masturbates

Posted by JustaSag
Thanks! Still haven't done it, haven't had one free day yet that I really thought would have worked...might just have to settle for imperfection, for once. Makes me nervous... :p

Imperfection means humanity. While there are fundamental things that should be in place, find out if those things that bother you are things you can work with. They may actually be lessons for you to learn. Maybe even adapt and use them in your repertoire. Not all behavior we don't like is a bad thing.

Why would someone want to handle the Universe? It's damn tedious and boring.

Look what happened to Atlas.

Posted by beautifulsoul74

Posted by JustaSag
Thanks! Still haven't done it, haven't had one free day yet that I really thought would have worked...might just have to settle for imperfection, for once. Makes me nervous... :p

Imperfection means humanity. While there are fundamental things that should be in place, find out if those things that bother you are things you can work with. They may actually be lessons for you to learn. Maybe even adapt and use them in your repertoire. Not all behavior we don't like is a bad thing.

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I agree...what I was getting towards more is that just no day yet has been perfect for me to reach out...I tend to be like this in situations like this. I can't tell if I'm scared or not...its a weird place to be emotionally. I tend to analyze my own emotions and motivations heavily before making (what I consider to be) big decisions.

Damn this whole month has been a bust so far...cannot wait for it to be over. By then the year will already be 1/12th of the way through. Crazy. Things falling through left and right, impossible to get a hold of people, weather is tragic. Can it be summer again please? Or just February...

Cant we all

I am having a simular problem already wishing the year to be over to start again yet everyday is a new day to start again

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Posted by JustaSag
Thanks! Still haven't done it, haven't had one free day yet that I really thought would have worked...might just have to settle for imperfection, for once. Makes me nervous... :p

Imperfection means humanity. While there are fundamental things that should be in place, find out if those things that bother you are things you can work with. They may actually be lessons for you to learn. Maybe even adapt and use them in your repertoire. Not all behavior we don't like is a bad thing.

I agree...what I was getting towards more is that just no day yet has been perfect for me to reach out...I tend to be like this in situations like this. I can't tell if I'm scared or not...its a weird place to be emotionally. I tend to analyze my own emotions and motivations heavily before making (what I consider to be) big decisions.

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Agreed_??_

Still haven't reached out to this girl, mostly because a couple weeks before (of course, this would happen to me) I had started talking to someone else that was across the country. And I wasn't really sure how to approach the situation. But that's gone to crap now, it seems. So I don't know. Ready for Februrary...this month has been a joke.

Posted by JustaSag
Still haven't reached out to this girl, mostly because a couple weeks before (of course, this would happen to me) I had started talking to someone else that was across the country. And I wasn't really sure how to approach the situation. But that's gone to crap now, it seems. So I don't know. Ready for Februrary...this month has been a joke.

I don't know...but it seems like you're avoiding the inevitable? If that's the case, them why. Its not like you're strangers or anything _??_

I should, you're right. I tend to avoid things I don't need to do if I think they will be unpleasant. If it's necessary, then I can throw myself into it, because I have to. But as it stands, right now, I guess the rational side of my mind says "don't do it, you don't need the potential pain and distress and other unpleasantness that might result from this"...obviously I'd like to over-ride that. I don't know if this is a typical sag trait, but I definitely try avoid things if I think that there is a small chance it will go my way. It's not necessarily the uncertainty, but that I guess there is this certainty (in my mind) that it will go poorly if I pursue it. Whether or not this is true is an entirely different matter. In the past, every time I've reached out it has been a disaster, and I'm just trying to avoid another one of those. More or less, I have to figure out how I'd deal with a negative response. Cause I have no idea right now, honestly.

Well she's only half Leo...and seemingly the good half :p So not too much to worry about there I guess.

How have things been for the rest of you lately....so far this week - started talking to my ex, who I thought I would never talk to again. Still not sure what is happening there and it's killing me emotionally. Also found out my mom was in a car wreck that gave her a huge concussion, totaled her car. Work has been a colossal pain, weird things not working right. Also found out one of my cousins has developed a rather serious case of POTS.

So, yeah. Not to complain or anything :p

Not really sure what to make of all this. Keep seeing hints to do things I've desperately wanted to do or have been thinking of doing for a while (especially in relation to my personal life) in my horoscopes but then all signs point to no. I always trust my gut feelings but lately I don't know if can - I can't tell if they're actually my gut feelings or not. For a sag, that's pretty scary haha.