A place to write this out.

For those of you who don't like emotions, just don't come in here. I'm really not in the mood to hear your bullshit.

But maybe if I write this out it will help me cope.

I am so sad right now. The best way I know of to describe it is heartache. Like a sunburn. Not a 3rd degree blistered going to leave scars type burn, but just enough that you can't stop thinking about it and it hurts enough you want to do something to make it stop. I post enough on here you probably don't really need a reiteration of my story, but for those who don't pay attention (I'm one of them).. last three months I've been with two different people. Both of them ended up rejecting me.. one because he was in love with someone else, one because he is just literally too busy to see me. I really think its a matter of bad timing, in both cases (especially the first, there were more problems with the second). I feel.. like it is useless. I don't really think I did anything terribly wrong. It just isn't meant to be for me. (this goes back for about 10 years, but I don't want to write the whole thing down)

Now I am moving again in 5 weeks. I don't want to. I HATE the place I'm going, but I feel somewhat obligated to go. I almost feel trapped. I have to stay there for the summer. I don't want to. I will be trying to leave as soon as I can, but I have to stay until at least July. So there's not a real reason to make any connections because I'll just be leaving. Pretty sure I can't come back here either, there aren't any jobs.

I'm working nights right now, which I hate for so many reasons. I'm lonely. I sleep when everyone else is awake. And I'm going to BE lonely for quite some time, given the situation I'm in. I'm overwhelmed. I have to figure out how to move myself and my horses down over a thousand miles in 5 weeks, AND get ready for NCLEX, AND ACLS/PALS, AND find a job. Plus school, which is just another thing.

I really just want to crawl under a rock and hide. Dark, safe, cool.. maybe the rest of the world will just forget I'm here.

Posted by TyDyed

You're going through a rough patch to be sure, and you have my sympathy. IME, these bad times do pass, and you will get a "breather" to recover from them...

I'm overwhelmed.

I believe you. You have a big load of shit on your plate to deal with.

BUT... You're a Scorpio Woman - you will prevail over these challenges.

Meanwhile, I have to wonder: Is it common for ScorSagian Women to be attracted to Bulls?

My Wife is a 20 NOV Scorp, and I detect bits of SAG in her from time-to-time. She is very close to her Taurus younger Brother. I have a Taurus Moon, and when I'm at work (where she first got to know me), I am more Bullish than Virgoan...

When we first started dating, Debra had a son in HS, worked full time, and was going to college at night to finish her Bachelor's degree. I was amazed - and admired - her ability to juggle so many conflicting demands, and still find time & energy to share with me.

That's why I say that you'll get through this rough patch.

Your wife sounds like men it's hard but you do what you have to do. I work full-time, I have kids, I am also going to college at night to finish my degree(I graduate in Dec 2011)You simply do what you to make things happen.
I call it Better Me for Us---Meaning my children and I and hopefully that special men one day.

correction Me not Men......

trying to eat and type.