Hi everybody!
Im a virgo Man asc cancer. She is scorpio asc scorp.
We met in class and she told me she never felt anything stronger when she saw me for the first time.
Our 8 first months was awesome. Full of passions... Everything (sex etc..) was awesome. She told me she would love me forever, that she never felt anything like this... She wants me to marry her in the future....
Time pass, and I think she would be mine forever, so m'y mind naturally let some shit happen : I give her less attention etc... we fight for stupid stuff etc... But I loved her. But I changed...
She is afraid of her dad (didnt saw him in years, virgo too), and our fight became more and more violent, until a month ago, after 1y and half of relationship with a really violent fight. (Verbally) She told parents i was more and more looking like her dad
I told her if after the journey it wasn't betters we would quit, but I never really thought it...
We went in vacation after and it was fine, specially at the end.
After this time I had to work at 40km from her and she had problem at her home (problem with parents), and she had a car accident who killed her mood..
After a little fight at the phone, I stopped to send her texts for 2-3 days and when I asked what was the problem, the discussion became violent and she told me it would better to quit but we have to see each other. I came immediately and we talked, we cried. She still has feelings but something is broken, that she doesn't arrive to see the future anymore with me, and she doesn't want to hurt me because she doesn't know if she will love me again like this. She told me the only moment where I show her passion recently when we had sex. I cried and tried to change her mind but she couldn't. I came back the day after and things didn't change..
I was completely devastated.. I know what changed in me, she told me she would love me forever and my passion for her started to hide behind those words.
I decided to change for her, to give the passion back because I fucking realized what I lost and I'm so sad, hurt and feel dumb.
I saw her 2 days later because we work at the same place once a week. I tried to erase my devastated face with some smile and we had a talk. I told her I couldn't change in 3 days and I would need time but I do it for her, ( She cried a bit when I told her)that that we should take a little break, but i woulndt contact her because I think thats a waste of time and she needs time to think and resolve her others problems.. Hours later, I was watching her eyes (I think I never had any stronger feelings in my eyes at this moment) and she was embarrassed and told me to stop watching her like this with a little smile. I dropped her later at the bus stop and I asked her if she wants me to wait with me or should I leave, she replied that if she didn't want she would have tell me no.
I tried to catch her eyes and it worked most of the time, showing that I'm not gonna let her go likethisand that I fucking love her. The bus arrived and i came at 2cm of her lips, we watched each other's in the eyes, and she kissed me, and she left.
Do you think I can get my Scorpio back? I really decided to become the man she knew during our first months, this gentle guy and not the piece of shit I became. If she can go through this broken thing in her heart and give me another chance, I won't let her go a second time. I dont want to lost her.
I see her every fridays at work... But I want to let her time to think, 1,2,3 weeks, I don't know..
Thanks for reading me, and sorry if I didn't introduce myself !