Feeling very out-of-sync...

This topic was created in the Scorpio forum by notanotherscorp on Tuesday, April 26, 2011 and has 5 replies.
Hi everyone, my name's Michael, been following this forum for a while and decided to join up. Nice to see an active forum and hope to get to know a few people around here smile
Thought I'd post on feeling out-of-sync with emotions; I've read a lot of descriptions about scorps and they all seem to say the same thing: passionate, sexual, mysterious, all that jazz. I remember feeling this way myself a few years ago, could see the connection, loved the rep and all that. Somewhere along the line though, all of that disappeared and now it feels like my zest for life, love and relationships is gone. I've been this way for about two or three years now and I can't help but think that the descriptions don't cover in-depth what happens when a scorp emotionally flatlines and can't feel any of the things they're so notorious for.
I remember being a highly emotional, empathic, vengeful, vindictive little brat and it's not like the flatline I feel now is an unhappy one. I feel more stable as a person than I ever have and believe I finally glimpsed what it's like not to have to control anything, accept rejection as something that just happens and not take it to heart so much, that if life is going to throw you shit just to take it as it rolls and not get up in arms and most importantly, learn to cultivate good friendships with the opposite sex instead of letting the OTHER side take over Winking All in all, I feel like I've hit some sort of pinnacle of emotional control; logic rules these days. But I'm just so damn bored! I have no appetite for anything, not women, not a relationship, not sex, not a job or some other goal, nothing. It seems the price of burying those emotions is peace (which I did because sun, moon and mercury in scorp is like a nuclear reactor) but I'm wondering if anything's ever going to spark those feelings again. I randomly assumed once I was able to control myself that I'd have a balance but it swung in the complete opposite direction and I'm very out-of-tune. Don't miss the mood swings but do miss the good things like empathy and that good sort of magnetism you can only have when you believe in things.
Maybe this is just a part of the mid-20's funk of growing up but it's a lonely time. I miss being in love and being loved but something in me is really adverse and isn't willing to take any steps towards achieving that.
Anyone else ever flatlined like this, lost their mojo?
yup
Mojo comes back in a few months though.
I feel like this right now... I have for a few months... Still waiting to bounce back.
I think it just a temporary funk. My scorp-ex seems to be in that funk and I hope things get better.

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