Feels good

The scorp who I posted about a few months ago and I are talking on regular daily basis. I'm supersticious, afraid I'm going to jinx it by even posting this let alone telling anyone how happy I am. But I just want to yell from the top of the rooftops ....DXP roof for now, that when he's in my life is the happiest I find myself, and have found myself when it comes to relationships. He puts a smile on my face when I think of him, when I hear from him, and admittedly I have cried out of happiness. I've never done that, just cried thinking about how happy someone makes me for who they are as a person. The more I talk with him, the more and more I appreciate who he is and as a person, and how fortunate I feel in what he brings into my life. Even if it doesn't lead to a romantic level again, I am SO happy. He makes me SO happy. I have a spring in my step. I feel complete. He completes me. Nothing I've ever felt before, even when I thought I had. So to Mr. Scorp, thank you. You make me the happiest girl alive, when I hear from you my heart skips a beat, and when I think of you my heart skips a beat. I think I love you.

Fuck now you got me crying -Sniffles, while eating Skittles-

Posted by OceanDeep
The scorp who I posted about a few months ago and I are talking on regular daily basis. I'm supersticious, afraid I'm going to jinx it by even posting this let alone telling anyone how happy I am. But I just want to yell from the top of the rooftops ....DXP roof for now, that when he's in my life is the happiest I find myself, and have found myself when it comes to relationships. He puts a smile on my face when I think of him, when I hear from him, and admittedly I have cried out of happiness. I've never done that, just cried thinking about how happy someone makes me for who they are as a person. The more I talk with him, the more and more I appreciate who he is and as a person, and how fortunate I feel in what he brings into my life. Even if it doesn't lead to a romantic level again, I am SO happy. He makes me SO happy. I have a spring in my step. I feel complete. He completes me. Nothing I've ever felt before, even when I thought I had. So to Mr. Scorp, thank you. You make me the happiest girl alive, when I hear from you my heart skips a beat, and when I think of you my heart skips a beat. I think I love you.

Posted by ArticleL
Fuck now you got me crying -Sniffles, while eating Skittles-

*Sniffling with you. Would you share a grape one?*

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Posted by OceanDeep
The scorp who I posted about a few months ago and I are talking on regular daily basis. I'm supersticious, afraid I'm going to jinx it by even posting this let alone telling anyone how happy I am. But I just want to yell from the top of the rooftops ....DXP roof for now, that when he's in my life is the happiest I find myself, and have found myself when it comes to relationships. He puts a smile on my face when I think of him, when I hear from him, and admittedly I have cried out of happiness. I've never done that, just cried thinking about how happy someone makes me for who they are as a person. The more I talk with him, the more and more I appreciate who he is and as a person, and how fortunate I feel in what he brings into my life. Even if it doesn't lead to a romantic level again, I am SO happy. He makes me SO happy. I have a spring in my step. I feel complete. He completes me. Nothing I've ever felt before, even when I thought I had. So to Mr. Scorp, thank you. You make me the happiest girl alive, when I hear from you my heart skips a beat, and when I think of you my heart skips a beat. I think I love you.

That song sums it up perfectly! AND I love Buddy, very cool...Thank you for posting that 🙂

Posted by Sweettails13
That's how a man should make you feel 🙂. Lucky woman you.

For the first time in my life, I honestly have realized that THIS is how it should feel...you are so right, so right. I only wish that I knew for definite that he still feels the same for me as he did, because it sure feels like it.

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Posted by ArticleL
Fuck now you got me crying -Sniffles, while eating Skittles-

*Sniffling with you. Would you share a grape one?*

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-Hands you a grape one- 😛

Posted by Sweettails13
That's how a man should make you feel 🙂. Lucky woman you.

Indeed it's just sustaining it.....

Posted by OceanDeep

Posted by Sweettails13
That's how a man should make you feel 🙂. Lucky woman you.

For the first time in my life, I honestly have realized that THIS is how it should feel...you are so right, so right. I only wish that I knew for definite that he still feels the same for me as he did, because it sure feels like it.

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Would be nice to know that they would remain consistent. I'm always a little weary, even when I first meet guys. Never what they're thinking or what direction they'll decide to take.

The scorpio I'm seeing now has been surprisingly consistent, but that could be due to a lot of other signs in his chart. I'm still worried that he'll turn into a bad apple like the rest, but I'm optimistic. Like always

Posted by allme
Ocean I am sooo very happy for u! I believe scorps & crabs truly get eachother at a very deep level. I'm positive he "feels" this as much as u do 🙂

Thank you allme 🙂 I dunno, at times I KNOW he does but then he pulls back just in a weird way enough to make me wonder if it's in my imagination that his feelings for me never stopped. Needless to say, I'm scared. And I'm scared what he would do with those feelings if he found out without he himself saying anything first. :/

I did throw it out there today that the "high lite" of my day was his text early this morning because my day went from good to crap within nano secs after work. And thanked him for putting a smile on my face before hell broke loose. Hoping he "got" that. He said nothing about it, and felt bad about my day. Avoiding, but shelving and shelling it to process later I'd imagine...and where a fade out may just begin. Oh well, I needed to put SOMETHING out there so he'd know my feelings are still there, or hint to him he makes my day. Yup, thinking I love him

Posted by allme
aaawww I'm very happy ur heart is happy...luv is beautiful

yes ur being open is what he needs. sometimes unspoken words r the most important therefor harder to lv the lips. as shelled creatures 😛 we r very self protecting (u know this) but imagine also being a man :O

emotive verbal admission doesn't come easily for us it lv's us vulnerable. we need to be completely secure cuz scorps question everything...I'm guessing ur reassurance of support & caring will open him up. I know it's an arduous process but hang in there I think there will be proven progress soon

xo

This is just getting to be too hard not knowing!:S

I see him opening up more and more and something that might be perceived as sweet, caring, romantic, flirting ...he needs to go within a few mins, or takes longer to respond back, or retracts the next day until he hears from me. I've come to accept it, and understand...hafta because it does leave him feeling vulnerable, and I wonder if he wonders what I think of what he says? If he's scared it pushes me away in a way that if I don't feel anything from him then he doesn't leave himself out there. And if he hears from me, then he knows it was okay— At times when he does say those things I get so excited, that I'm afraid I'll ruin it or I'm reading into things that I kind of retract too, I guess letting us both process it haha And I am becoming more vocal in my compliments to him, can't help it! lol

I hate that I'm this excited in case it crashes and burns, but I can't help wanting to jump up and down on my bed with excitement. Feel like I'm gushing, but I swear no one has ever put a smile on my face more than he does. I've been married before, and even my ex husband didn't do this to me, and at the time I thought he did!! Each day the smile becomes wider, and my heart feels more and more complete. Damn. *Sigh*

I'm glad I said nothing. He text me tonight he met someone. (Which means we stop talking now out of respect to both he and she. Double whammy.) All I text back was okay.

Thank you for your kind words allme 🙂

Just many questions, and ones I know will go unanswered. I did text him the next day and told him I was happy for him, and that I'd enjoyed us talking like we had and that I had quite a few smiles on my face over the last few weeks of us talking. He responded, thanking me for understanding and he too enjoyed our conversations, it was a lot of fun and the smiles were shared on his end, and for me to take care.

I dunno. A lot of emotions, but really if I don't think about it I'm okay. I go from us having had a good ending to all of this, to who knows if what he said was the truth and was just being kind. He is one to pretend if it means keeping the peace and him still looking good in others eyes. He's so much admitted it to me before.

You and I share a similar line of thinking allme. I do believe in soul mates too, there's an explainable connection... Whether these people are good or bad, tomantic or non romantic presence in our lives and whether they are here just for now or for the duration. There is a purpose they or the relationship/meaning/purpose they bring into our life.

I may never know with him the meaning or purpose. There's many things I think and feel about this whole matter, but I try to be diplomatic enough for the sake of arguing wishful thinking. I don't think it's over with us, and I think he will realize this so much to a point where he will either accept it or destroy it. I think he has been in denial about it, or rather convinced himself or trying to convince me. Really, it could be all of it which I think it is. There's too much of a pull. Or is it just me? lol

And I believe it was meant to take the course it has been taking since day one. I do believe this needed to come full circle the way it has, in order for this to be anything if it does. The thing I tell myself and truth be told in all of it, he's watched me for years and has wanted to be with me. Whether that was mere desire, probably. Until we actually were introduced formally. And it was instant on both sides, not just attraction but connection. We both agreed.

So how does that disappear? How does that not make him want to step up and say he f*cked up when he said he didn't see it working. Too many things were said over the last month by him to make me know he is lying if he denies it. How does that make him push me aside if all of this meant anything to him? Friendship or not, I need to for respect and will stay away... and am in a way being made by him to 'go away' for the sake of him and her. Understandable? Yes. Hurtful? Yes. I knew better than to come straight out and tell him how I felt, so I dropped hints. I know he knows this. And I know it bothered him in how he was going to tell me he met someone, and what my reaction would be. I do believe it hurt him to have to tell me. I'm glad I took the higher road. I walked away with dignity, and respect of both of them. From there though? The rest is on him. It's up to him now to make a move, it's the only way this will come together the way it should and for it to last. He needs to feel and realize it now what he's feeling, because I do know allme? He is going to start realizing "it" and me in his life even more now.

You know what makes me happy though, the fact that even after hearing that? I guess I said it in the first post, and it feels even moreso now, that if it ended I would still be happy that I had that moment. And I am. I still get a huge smile on my face when I think of him or about our conversations. And sappy yeah, but enough happiness there again that I tear up.

It's funny that you said it's not beneficial to the psyche...I said something very similar to a gal posting here on the Scorp site LOL

I sure wish I knew how long it's going to take for the universe to let me on this plan. Miss the heck out of talking with him. Blah.

OceanDeep there's plenty of insights in your thoughts, thank you for sharing
See one astrologer's dilemma is how does it happen that two charts practically meant for each other end up passing by, ships sailing in the night as you said? You know how theoretically those two people are supposed to collide in huge flames, and still, sometimes nothing happens. They move to form other *apparently* less meaningful relationships. Well, there's no answer to that.. why do we choose who we choose.

Posted by Reconstructing_a_Leo
OceanDeep there's plenty of insights in your thoughts, thank you for sharing
See one astrologer's dilemma is how does it happen that two charts practically meant for each other end up passing by, ships sailing in the night as you said? You know how theoretically those two people are supposed to collide in huge flames, and still, sometimes nothing happens. They move to form other *apparently* less meaningful relationships. Well, there's no answer to that.. why do we choose who we choose.

You're right RAL, and that's not to say that this relationship with her or whomever he begins another with in the future are less meaningful. I look at it that he even if he was interested in me, had he been interested enough he wouldn't have wanted to date anyone right away after it ended with the gal he started dating after me. He would enjoy his singleton, and want to even get to know me or 'us' better, ya know strengthen it. Why take the chance knowing that if and when he meets someone he and I both knew us talking would end...something we both feel important. Even if he did meet her, and had he wanted it enough with me right now (if even at all), he could've passed her up. He didn't.

I did have an astrologer look at our charts. He said the probability of this being a successful relationship is extremely high, and has very great potential one of the best he's seen. I guess I just couldn't shake it, and was so dumbfounded when Scorp stopped it basically before it really ever got started. It crushed me, and so weird because we had only known each other formally (well, he knew who I was) for such a short time. I know myself too well to know I may be a hopeless romantic, but nothing shook me or crushed me of such a newer 'relationship' before, ya know? So much of what the charts said was spot on, it was crazy. And it did refer to a soul mate, fated relationship and the feeling where both would feel we were meant to be together. On a personal note he advised to be Scorps friend, and show and be patient with him above anything and not to become hurt or start things with him if he does something that hurts me. It took me so many times of reading that, and it sunk in. And in which what he said (astrologer) makes sense in so many ways.