I'm a weird scorpio

I think. I've had the trials and been to the greatest depths and heights of human experience and emotion. Very typical scorpio. But. None of that really truly makes me afraid enough to not be willing to step out and trust people. I mean I've gotten more cautious over the years but really, I just have this general expectation that everything will work out and everyone is really good at heart. (with the exception of when my depression is bad, then EVERYTHING sucks and will never get better 😛) Which is really really bizarre given my history. (short sweet version: murder, kidnapping, mentally ill relatives, suicidal depression, domestic violence) Too naive? Too trusting? I am the one person I'm most critical of, by far. I almost wonder if sometimes I'm lying to myself? Maybe part of me is SO afraid that I just don't even let that side of me out- EVER? But if that is the case then that part of me has been forgotten or repressed so much that I don't recognize its existence, merely ponder if it does exist.

Not that I don't ever feel insecure, or afraid. But its like when I do, I simply say "Oh HELL with it" and do it anyway. Maybe I just don't let myself feel it for more than a moment? Feel the fear and do it anyway? I mostly just believe people will be good hearted/natured and that life will find a way to be what its supposed to be.

Posted by Skykomish
Feel the fear and do it anyway? .

This is called being courageous. I admire you.

Hey Exo 🙂 Missed you guys 😛

i swear all these diff scorpio stories tie in together. We are all def alike in some shape or form. I always find something that i relate too, sometimes it is baffling.