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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I've been having a difficult time getting my life together and becoming organized and settled....Still haven't unpacked half my boxes...

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Unconditional support from friends is the best.

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Posted by GetMisted
Mass email sent out to our hospital network to cease all live streaming online at this time (due to the inauguration)...


*Scorpio paranoia sets in*


"They're on to me!"

Posted by PeanutButterandElly

Do you think it's the airy energy?

Posted by PeanutButterandElly

I'm super productive once I get locked in and I think my scorpio parts take over. But I get heavily distracted in the beginning and benefit greatly from someone being around to direct me. That and I've been avoiding what would be obviously bittersweet nostalgia unpacking from a break up, even if it is a year late lol. #Scorpiostubbornstrong

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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I hate that if my head wasn't attached I'd lose it. Seriously. Why do I always forget, leave and loose things? And why did it have to be my most sentimental piece of jewelry?


Elly: *texts looking for jewelry*

Tall, Dark and Cancer: Got your ring Miss Elly

Elly: *Did he really just write miss? Oh my.* Cool so when can I get it, it's very sentimental, I get separation anxiety.

TDC: *discusses work schedule*

Elly: *reads but doesn't reply immediately*

TDC: your ring will remain on my table. It's in good hands.

Elly: *melts and sorta internally freaks out at same time* Haha. This better not be a ransom situation.


My Pisces friend thinks it's funny it's my favorite ring and is heart shaped. I told her to shut up.

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Posted by PhoenixRising
This Sag is getting on my nerves as of late. I'm getting very close to telling her to f*ck off and I haven't told someone to f*ck off in over a decade.

She must have found the worst nerve to strum.

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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I don't think the libra and I are friends anymore.


She's been at a crappy job she hates the last few months and just posted online about getting a new job. Which makes that the first bigger life event I've missed.

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But it still hurts like a bitch.

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I guess I've never really understood leebs. Mommy issues on my part if I had to guess lol.


She's super pissed though. I've watched her do this with other friends. The week she stopped speaking to me she kept tagging me in memes about friends that talk too much or are annoying and draining.


I'll get a passive aggressive message in a few months though with a lot of cricket emojis. Per the routine lol.


The only positive is my dating life is much better. She hated every person I dated, male or female, and would immediately start disparaging anyone new I was seeing, normally within hours of me telling her about them. I've noticed I'm much more relaxed now without that.


And the sting of being called draining and too much doesn't hurt at all like it once did. So yay for finally working on those insecurities lol.

Posted by aNEWday
Things just got real. New moon in Aquarius, I wasn't ready.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I don't think the libra and I are friends anymore.


She's been at a crappy job she hates the last few months and just posted online about getting a new job. Which makes that the first bigger life event I've missed.


I know I probably was emotionally exhausting. I know how I can be. Which is why the whole thing is so fucking stupid. We got into a fight because she started laying into me about being negative when I said something that I actually meant positively and was happy about. When I said that, she just kept trying to give me advice on being happy no matter how hard I kept trying to say I was doing what would make me happy. That was the third fight like that we had.


Then I took the day off work, drove to her side of town an hour away, waited all day to hear from her and once I did she blew me off and cancelled. After she knew I took the day off work and had literally been waiting on her.


At this point, I'm handling it better than when the old Capricorn and I were no longer friends. Priorities change and some people just don't have room in their lives for old friends when that happens. Just because I don't work like that doesn't make it less necessary for others.


But it still hurts like a bitch.

Posted by Cherrylips
I wish that someone would tell me where the "let it go!" button is.

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Posted by PhoenixRising
I was reading something I wrote a long time ago and I just realized I didn't make it easy for any of my boyfriends to approach me...Keep in mind my Mars was always activated when I was younger until I learned to chill a bit.


1st: *approaches me* Would it be okay if I sit here.

Scorp: I guess. Only if you promise to keep your mouth shut. (I was 14 )

He kept his promise and I was hooked lol.


2nd: *hanging out with friends*

Scorp: *approaches group and sits with friends*

2nd: *stares*

Scorp: *loud* Why do you keep staring at me?!

2nd: *smiles...looks away*

Scorp: *eye roll*

*later he's staring again*

Scorp: *walks up to him, ignores friends surrounding him...stares directly in his eyes unblinking*

2nd: *smiles* I like you.

Scorp: *confused* Oh. You're weird.

2nd: I'm weird?

Scorp:


3rd: I saw you dancing and I was trying to make eye contact to see if I could dance with you, but you weren't having it.

Scorp: I came to dance. Not stare at people.

3rd: *laughs*


4th: Would it be alright if I walked you home.

Scorp: Sure.

*walk and talk for about 30 minutes*

4th: So can I get your number?

Scorp: No. You clearly like me and you know where I live. I'm sure you an do better than that.

4th: Can I meet you here tomorrow to take you out for lunch?

Scorp: Yes .


5th: I've noticed you around before. You live close right? You seem to keep to yourself. Really quiet.

Scorp: So you're a stalker....

My moon wants to hug you from how awesome this is but instead it's just going to buy you a virtual tea gift basket.

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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I don't think the libra and I are friends anymore.


She's been at a crappy job she hates the last few months and just posted online about getting a new job. Which makes that the first bigger life event I've missed.


I know I probably was emotionally exhausting. I know how I can be. Which is why the whole thing is so fucking stupid. We got into a fight because she started laying into me about being negative when I said something that I actually meant positively and was happy about. When I said that, she just kept trying to give me advice on being happy no matter how hard I kept trying to say I was doing what would make me happy. That was the third fight like that we had.


Then I took the day off work, drove to her side of town an hour away, waited all day to hear from her and once I did she blew me off and cancelled. After she knew I took the day off work and had literally been waiting on her.


At this point, I'm handling it better than when the old Capricorn and I were no longer friends. Priorities change and some people just don't have room in their lives for old friends when that happens. Just because I don't work like that doesn't make it less necessary for others.


But it still hurts like a bitch.

I just received a response to an email I wrote to a friend this week.

It basically made me realize, for real and for sure, that that friendship is over. I knew it already but having that response from her made me sad. Like I don't even know this person anymore. That is a person I know has true positive intentions, which as a Scorpio, and person getting older is not easy to find. But people grow apart.


It has been an emotional couple days. Funny how nothing can happen in a long span of time and in a couple of days so much can happen.

One part of me wants to be optimistic and say we'll reconnect in the future, most likely once I get a steady significant other, since my dating life conversation seemed to be what irritated her the most.


Then part of me remembers that this friend has always only wanted to be close to me when she was single, and when she's in a relationship she pretty much disappears. We've been friends for well over a decade now and through her two divorces so it's a pretty clear pattern.


My 11th house stellium makes me take friendship losses harder than average I think. I see friends as my family and support system more than significant others and actual family often times.


All the logic reasons of being adults who grow in different directions, having different priorities and goals makes sense. But there's always still an emotional part that grieves the loss of a piece of my life.


I'm sorry you got that email from your friend. Why is it always so hard for us scorps to let go of our connections. ???


Almost makes me wish people would betray me in some fantastic fashion so I could emotionally vomit and then forget them lol. Almost.

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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
... No one fights to be seen as 'more libra' or 'more capricorn' or pretty much more any other sign.

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
So I was never one of those girls who knew much about style , makeup and hair. Never had an older sister to teach me tips and tricks. I think I've tried to apply mascara only once in my life and yeah, that didn't go so well. I've style d my hair pretty much the same way for years and usually just go without makeup. And yeah I still scare myself when I look in the mirror. I'm just intimidated by all the options which I know nothing about. Today I go to the store and buy a whole bunch of hair products. I had absolutely no clue what I was looking for or what I needed for my hair type except that I needed something to control friz. My motto is when in doubt buy one of everything....which is kinda sorta basically what I did. I figured I'd have some experimentation. Or either I'd never use the products at all. I have to say though it was a bit embarrassing standing in the check out line with a cart full of nothing but hair products. I swear the cashier was looking at me kind of funny while he was scanning my 5 different brands of leave in conditioners. ?

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I really still don't understand why everyone argues about their 'scorpioness' even after being on DXP for so long. No one fights to be seen as 'more libra' or 'more capricorn' or pretty much more any other sign.


Or why people still want to believe water placements have some monopoly on feelings. Everyone has feeling bro. Except sociopaths. But if I pull a chart one day and it says moon in sociopath Ima shit myself.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly

When they show off their body and the constant barrage of women lusting after them and expect me to drop whatever and be jealous or run to them.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly

I walk towards loyalty. Devotion. Emotional strength. Money, looks and sex while amazing are ultimately fringe benefits at the table.

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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
When men try to say how much they make or what kind of car they drive as a way to gain my favor.


When they show off their body and the constant barrage of women lusting after them and expect me to drop whatever and be jealous or run to them.


When they think that good sex is enough to keep me around regardless of their other behaviors.


I've walked away from money. I've walked away from trophy bodies. I've walked away from mind blowing sex.


I walk towards loyalty. Devotion. Emotional strength. Money, looks and sex while amazing are ultimately fringe benefits at the table.

This is Gemini energy, in my view. Gemini is the one sign that cannot be bought at any price or vice.

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Posted by PeanutButterandElly
I miss being in a relationship. And I do miss companionship and having someone to share the small day to day occurrences with.


But I'm really damn happy with myself. I really like who I am. And I certainly didn't feel that way one year ago. I never felt incomplete in my relationship. But I was always a little afraid to be totally myself. And my ex wasn't to blame really. It was more my problem than anything else.


And there are still things I want to resolve. I don't want to be so angry. I don't want to carry so much hatred. I don't want run off at the mouth so much.


But people don't take my kindness for granted like they used to. I don't worry as much about what others think. And my mood fluctuations are starting to simmer down. (I mean they're still there cause cancer moon, but they're evening out.) And people are taking notice that I'm different, it makes me happy and it seems to cheer them up as well so I believe things are headed in a good direction. Even if I'm not at all sure what that is lol.


I really like 2017. My life isn't too different. But I am. And it's wonderful.

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Posted by Andalusia
Le ex Scorp, after several years and some recent prompting, finally told me why we didn't work out.


Not "because he saw something serious with me and wasn't ready for it" as previously stated. At least, not completely for that reason.


But also because he thought (thinks) I'm high maintenance and dramatic at times.


Wtf? Why not just tell me that? Or at the very least *not* blow smoke up my ass or in my ego?

How would you have responded to that if he were to tell you that at that time?

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Le ex Scorp, after several years and some recent prompting, finally told me why we didn't work out.


Not "because he saw something serious with me and wasn't ready for it" as previously stated. At least, not completely for that reason.


But also because he thought (thinks) I'm high maintenance and dramatic at times.


Wtf? Why not just tell me that? Or at the very least *not* blow smoke up my ass or in my ego?

How would you have responded to that if he were to tell you that at that time?

Not any negatively than I did.


I might flare up a bit more at first if it's something I don't want to hear, but I calm down a hell of a lot sooner once I realize the other person isn't lying to me.

I guess he just didn't feel like dealing with the theatrics?

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Posted by Andalusia
I send the majority of my time just waiting for this lifetime to end.


I don't know if that's sad or comforting to me.

Same

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Posted by Unwording
It's always amusing when people who gossip avoid name-dropping to keep the source of the information secret while their choice of words gives it away.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
All of Elly's placements sit down for a chat. What results is a TLDR meltdown...

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Scorpio sun: I've called a meeting today because we have a lot on the docket that hasn't been addressed. I need to start seeing some progress reports on our various projects.


Cancer Moon: Well. Daily meditations are going well. I'm missing some here and there. But I'm getting better at noticing and correcting. Haven't hit our target range but the long term growth for emotional management is optimistic.


Scorpio Sun: Good to hear. Keep on top of that. We've had a few calls to corporate about a recent incident.


*Cancer moon looks around nervously*


Scorpio Sun: don't freak out. Chill. Just don't let it happen again. I'm serious.


Scorpio Mercury: Moon, let's just say you won't have as much on your plate anymore.


*Sun glares at mercury*


Scorpio Sun: Ok, venus, how are we doing?


Scorpio Venus: I don't know. Why don't you ask mars what the fuck is going on.


Scorpio Mercury: Your language is a little excessive venus.


Scorpio Venus: Do you even know what it's like to have to work with this one? Impulsive. Flighty. Makes his mind up just to change it a few seconds later. Has a new interest every week. Unless he's pissed then refuses to go out at all. And dear god always wants to make decisions based on fun and sex and make ME take care of the emotions later. Miserable. So miserable.


Scorpio Mercury: yeah almost as bad as dealing with someone who is obsessive, controlling and over the top.


Scorpio Venus: There's nothing wrong with me!


Scorpio Sun: ok people we're spiraling here. Look Venus. I know you've had some issue with mars. But you need to work it out. They're an integral part of the team and need recognition.


Scorpio Venus: you've given him so much leeway have you seen how many contracts have fallen through lately because of him?!


Scorpio Sun: And we've made the proper HR adjustments. Now you need to act accordingly. Now mars, I need a status report. Mars?


*Mars had headphones in while scrolling and typing furiously on phone*


Gemini Mars: God damnit you twatface motherfuckers! I will end you! Damn! Damitdamitdamitdamit! *phone dies* wait. What?


Sagittarius Rising: *waltzes in late af* Hey doofus. *takes Mars' headphones* hey. Gemini. Get your shit together or these assholes are gonna get rid of you. You wanna go back to being an intern?


Gemini Mars: *wide eyed* no. No. I very much appreciate my role.


Sagittarius Rising: Omg guys. So I met this really interesting woman at work. She started telling me about her work-


Scorpio sun: While I appreciate your commitment to the team by showing up late we were discussing a few specific matters-


Sagittarius Rising: Why do you believe you run things? We all have important roles to play here.


Scorpio Sun: So should we start taking direction from someone who can't even show up on time?


Sagittarius Rising: There you go again always thinking it's about control. I wasn't asking to direct anything that's just what you interpreted. You just cannot fathom what it's like to respect someone who thinks differently than you.


Scorpio Sun: Well if you brought tangible results to the table for once instead of philosophical musings and half planned ideas, maybe you'd be able to earn more respect.


Scorpio Mercury: Damn.


Sagittarius Rising: You egotistical b-*jumps up, trips on own foot, lands face first on meeting table*


*Sun and Mercury burst out laughing. Moon and mars try to help Rising. Venus is still pouting and tapping pen furiously*


Scorpio Venus: Ugh. I can't deal with any of y'all.


*All start arguing again except moon who is hiding in the corner taking measured breathes and trying to write out mantras*


Scorpio Pluto: Are we quite finished yet making fools of ourselves? *Standing in doorway*


*everyone freezes except venus who runs to doorway excitedly*


Scorpio Venus: Oh my god finally someone who can get some real work done.


Scorpio Pluto: Stop Venus. You're insecure and playing victim, there is a way to work with mars you just don't want to. Mercury be more productive than sideways comments. You're wasting talent. Moon will help you. Moon, stop being so fragile. You're tough now accept that and step up. Sun, you mean well, but you're overbearing and suffocating the others. Let them breathe. Mars, you're not a child, you wanted this job now act like you deserve it. Rising, let your guard down and let the other help you and vice versa. I don't want to walk by another screaming match like this because no one likes calling Saturn and the rest of corporate in tondeal with petty office grievances that disturb productivity.


*all are quiet*


Scorpio Pluto: Oh and Jupiter Leo is visiting the office today. So no fights and just nod along with all her over the top stories. No more trouble this week. *leaves and all quietly exchange glances*


Scorpio Sun: Jupiter does tell really funny stories though. Sometimes Pluto is just too serious.


Gemini Mars: OMG! remember that time at the office Christmas party when she brought those cookies and told us to only eat a half one each?


Scorpio Venus: Yes!!! Pluto got SO uncomfortable.


Sagittarius Rising: I saw her downstairs on my way in, she brought lunch for everyone. I think it was BBQ. From Nicks.


Cancer Moon: WHAT?! omgshilovethatplacesheremembered.


Scorpio Mercury: Does this conclude the minutes for our meeting today?


*all agree and leave chit chatting*

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And people say they want to know what Scorpios are thinking.


Lol.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly

Sagittarius Rising: Omg guys. So I met this really interesting woman at work. She started telling me about her work---

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
So I've really been doing some deep Astro analyzing lately. And noticed a strange pattern.


Whenever I have a certain transit, I'll normally attract that transit energy into my via people that carry that energy in their natal charts.


When I was experiencing Neptune heavy transits, especially oppositions, I attracted people with strong 12th house energy, Neptune dominant people. Who often had a lot of oppositions in their charts.


Saturn in Scorpio brought a new Capricorn friend into my life, we grew close right as it started to hit my stellium.


When I met the Scorp I had a series of Pluto transits as well.


Pulled the charts of two people I've been bonding with lately. Both have Jupiter square sun transits and Pluto transits. I'm a Plutonian dominant with a tightly aspected sun square Jupiter natally.


It's like a very convoluted yet very entertaining timeline lol.

Posted by PhoenixRising
Big Softy....

*morning meeting in the boardroom. Fish sitting with others including "Militant Nut" (sign unknown----too crazy to inquire or care)*


Scorp: *sits down....why hasn't the meeting started already?!?*

Fish: ....yeah my weekend was nice. ______ and I just went out to do some window shopping.

Militant Nut: Well I was mourning the people that were needlessly shot in Montreal.

Fish: Yeah that was sad to hear. Do you have family in Montreal?

Militant Nut: No. I don't need to be related to people to show empathy.

Scorp: *wtf?*

Fish: No of course not. It was just a question.

Crab: Did you end up going to that rally you were telling me about?

Fish: Yeah. It was on Sunday. I was suprise at how many people showed----

Militant Nut: Do you mean the rally held by the ________ ________ League? So you support that propaganda? I really didn't think you were that narrow minded.

Fish: *confused expression* Uh...I...

Scorp: Hold up. Don't talk to her like that. Who are you to challenge what she supports or doesn't. No one is questioning your political position.

Militant Nut: I didn't really mean it offensively.

Scorp: *gives GTFOH expression* Oh? You're jumping down her throat.

Militant Nut: I just get really passionate about this stuff.

Scorp: Well take it down 20 notches. *internal eye roll*


*after meeting*


Fish: *talking to office mate*

Scorp: *walks by*

Fish: Hey, ______ I just wanted to thank you for earlier. I don't know what that was.

Scorp: Don't worry about it. I don't know what that was either. I just wasn't here for the way she was talking to you. I don't even like you.

Fish: Haha.

Scorp: No I'm serious.

Fish:

Scorp: Lol. You're too easy....softy *walks away*

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Me in the last hour and a half alone while thinking about a new potential interest:

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They're so cute.

But wait what did that text mean?

Why did they say the one thing that one time?

Maybe I should bake them a cheesecake.

Fuck that they don't deserve a cheesecake.

Maybe just buy one.

No fuck it. They don't give a damn about you.

Asshole.

How dare they not do what I want when I want it.

Wait.

That's not how you relationship.

Or human. Very well.

Damn.

I think I'm just horny.

Maybe I should buy new stockings

I don't have any with red trim.

What if I showed up with cheesecake and a trenchcoat and stockings?

Wait do I even wanna have sex with them right now?

Maybe I'll just go to five guys and browse the bookstore instead.

Yeah.

That sounds good.

Books and burgers, way simpler than people.

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I'm crazy.


And I need to replan for my aquas bday present. We can't coordinate offdays. Bummerrrrr.

Posted by PeanutButterandElly
Me in the last hour and a half alone while thinking about a new potential interest:

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They're so cute.

But wait what did that text mean?

Why did they say the one thing that one time?

Maybe I should bake them a cheesecake.

Fuck that they don't deserve a cheesecake....

I think I'm just horny.

Wait do I even wanna have sex with them right now?...

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I'm crazy.

Posted by Andalusia
My little Scorpio nephew has to have "minimally invasive spring cranioplasty" surgery next month

Posted by PhoenixRising

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My little Scorpio nephew has to have "minimally invasive spring cranioplasty" surgery next month

How old is he?

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