remember two scorps on my tail ?part two

well.....i left off at the part where i was confused about who i should choose...should i stay with my scorp(#2)or try and fix what happened between me and scorp(#1)

scorp one and i broke up because he was hiding his feelings and confusing me and such and wanted to get back together with me,but the only reason i was with scorp2 was to move on from scorp one and cuz he liked me for a while and i kinda liked him.

i fell for scorp2 and i love him with all my heart....bvut because or him moving at the end of the year this put a stop to our happy relationship.which made scorp1 try harderto start things with us again.....

but things with scorp1 got a bit ....grrrr and we stoped talking for awhile because of stuff...and then suddenly things got queit with scopr2 and me....he asked me if i wanna break up now and save the pain of breaking up later....i didnt answer him and i didnt break up with him....which means no i dont wanna break up with you.

so after a week of him asking me that,he stop calling.stop talking stoped huging stop kissing me.he was doing everything that scorp1 did before i broke up with him.he made me feel like i wasnt his girl anymore and he was pushing me to the side alot.so one day.i was siting down at lunch time and i was leaning on him and talking to this girl.

she likes him.and i knew it.evertime she huged him to say hello which she doesnt need to do i see too much friendlyness in the hugs.anyways....i was talking to her and i noticed...he was spaced out.thinking with this look on his face like he was gonna shoot somebody...i asked him whats wrong and he wouldnt tell me.i told him in his ear how he has been making me feel.

and he took deep breaths...and listened.he stoped me in the middle of me asking him what was wrong and told me what was wrong.he told me,he couldnt bear looking at me and not think of him leaving me behind.

we had a silent moment and he looked at me and said"im sorry ..."and walked away.....i cried all day.i've never been so heart broken.watching him from far is harder then being with him and leaving him later....he wont talk to me.and wont even look at me.sometimes he bumps me in the halls and doesnt say sorry...gives me evil looks like he hates me.

i dont understand....and now scorp1 is warming up to me then pulling away.warming up to me and pulling away.playing with my emotions then asking ME if its ok for him to date other girls

(oh btw he dump his girl two days after he found out scorp2 dumped me.)

and then getting mad if i get mad.my heart is going back and forth between these two and im going crazy wondering what to do.i dont know who to go after who to try and talk to or who gshopfmbhs ipo T_T please i will be so greatful for any advice.

Woah!..take a deep breath..move away from both of them..you need YOU time..time out please...your not a freakin yo-yo...tell them that!

i dono...i think scorp2 hates me now ,but i didnt do anything...and scorp1 is just messing with me i think....he told me he still loves me but not as much as he use to...which kinda hurts cuz my feelings for them havent changed a bit....but its just geting harder and harder with them.everything else in life is great im doing great in my classes and such,i dont let these life dramas get in the way or my studies but i really dont know what do do with them.i dsont want scorp2 to hate me i didnt do anything and those looks he gives me can kill...O_O

thanks ^_^