Scorpio male and Pisces girl - Gemstone? Advice?

Hello there,

I need help. I am a 17 year old Pisces and my boyfriend is a 20 year old Scorpio. We've been together for 6 months and a lot happened. If you want to know what this is, I'm more than happy to tell you, because you'll understand the situation a lot better, but it's a long detailled story and I thought if I posted it here no one would want to read it. So let’s skip the details and get straight to the point.

Honesty and loyalty are very important to Scorpio's. His ex lied to him and cheated on him, and I was the first one who he trusted again after her, which is like two years later. My boyfriend's been very depressed in those two years and even did a suicide attempt.

I lied to him a few times, about stupid things, and big things, but in the end I confronted it all to him. I’ve always been loyal though. When he gave me the chance to clean the slate, I said I did but I didn’t, I had to tell him more but I was afraid he’d leave me. He managed to pull the truth out of me. But every time I told him something I said that was everything I had to tell him, but there was more which he managed to pull out of me. This repeated for like 5 times in 3 days. All because I was too scared to tell him, but this made it all worse. He wanted to leave, he was about to, but he couldn’t, he loves me too much.

That happened the end of April, our relationship is toxic now. I prove him where I go and who I am with, but nothing I do means anything anymore. I broke his trust and it’s making him so depressed. When I’m out with friends (which I barely do anymore) we argue constantly, I start crying all the time, and he relapsed to self harm. The last thing we both want to do is leave each other, we love each other more than we ever loved someone before. Even if he leaves me, I won’t ever get over him. I gave him my virginity, which I saved for the man I love, the man I’m going to marry, who I’m spending the rest of my life with. This meant a lot to me. He’s also the first one who I introduced my parents to, which was also a big step.

He’s considering breaking up, because he doesn’t know how to rebuild his trust in me, there’s nothing I can do either, we’re both a wreck and this relationship is wrecking us too, especially him. I live in constant guilt and self hate. We wanted a future together, he wanted to move to my country, we wanted children… I know all of this is my fault, and it’s fair and better for him if he leaves and heals and moves on, but every time he is about to leave he can’t and comes back.

All I can think of is a gemstone to take away the negative energy and give him good energy, and me doing everything I can to not make it worse. Does anyone have any suggestion for a gemstone that helps with emotional issues and especially trust? I’m already doing research, but I’m in the middle of my exams so I’m not making a lot of progress with finding out which stone would be the best. Besides a stone, does anyone have any other ideas of what I could possibly do to save us? Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Posted by Reincarnation
Well - how did you break his trust?

You cheated?

Noo, I saw my ex two days before we got together. I never knew I'd regret that, as I never expected the Scorpio to ask me to be his girlfriend. I thought it would have been better if I didn't tell him, because I knew it was going to affect us and it was unnecessary because I left my ex behind.

I met my ex again during our relationship, my boyfriend was coming to my country (he lives in another country, so we're in a LDR), and my ex messaged me because I borrowed a phone from him which I never gave back. So I met him to give it back behind my boyfriends back, I lied I was with someone else. I was afraid to tell him about this as I said we didn't talk anymore, it's so dumb, I know. But I swear I didn't do anything with my ex that day. We just talked for like 30 minutes. I wanted to give it back before my bf would come here, so my ex wouldn't message me when he was here. I finished up with him and he could be left behind for good now.

When my boyfriend was here he asked if I had history with this certain guy friend of me, I said no, because once again, I knew it would affect us. He'd overthink every time I talked to him, but there was history. Well, he found out, and I told him about what happened before we got together to clean the slate, not about what happened the day before he took the plane to my country. Our relationship was already starting to wreck us emotionally as I broke his trust at this point.

Last month I told him about what happened before he came down. The fact I kept this away for so long while all that time I said 'I told you everything' broke him more. The fact he had to drag everything out of me made it even worse. Of course he thinks I'm still hiding stuff, but I'm not, which I'm trying to prove him. Also little things like, he askes if I smoked, I said no and later I'd tell him I actually did. He hates it when I smoke even though he has nothing to worry about. We argue about stuff which made me turn to lying, even though it's so wrong which I know, and I can't forgive myself. I don't know why and how he forgave me.