SCORPIO WOMEN, HELP!!!!

Quite a long post but it's vital to have a full understanding of a situation, to make sure that opinions I'll come across are valid. In short - I'm into one scorpio girl for already 4/5 years, and I simply can't get her out of my mind. I'm sure my interest in her won't end anytime time soon (if it ever will) but at the moment, situation is really complicated and although I'm a scorp myself I don't understand what's her angle and what the probable outcome of this situation could be. (Her name's Martha)

So our 4 year history, briefly (most significant bits):
1. Saw her, fell in love with her. After few days I received message from her —??Hey, Daniel!!! How are you—?? (we didn't know each other at all at that time, and in that case we all know what her message means). Had a long chat, I invited her to party, she came, we met, had an uncomfortable time together, I think my behaviour was strange, my feelings were to obvious, I think I scared her.
2. Big pause, and after this big pause we have met at several parties, didn't really talked to each other, both acted like everything??s cool, and it was actually.
3. I gave up, got into a relationship with another girl, realised I still love Martha, had called her while being drunk, we started to txt each other again. Then I finally persued her to meet me, we met, talked, she said —??there's something I want to tell you but I'm shy—? then she pulled out her mobile, and there was text on the screen —??i wanna kiss u—?, and we did so. She was about to leave, she got into her best friends car, I went in to a supermarket, met her best friend, she said that I look nice and that she's heard a lot of good stuff about me from Martha. Then we both went out, Martha got out from the car for a goodbye kiss, we kissed, then I left. (I was cheating on my girlfriend, yup + my gf had got me bracelet just like her??s which consists of a 5 thin rings, and makes one bracelet as a whole, important thing in this is — Martha took from me three of the rings as a symbol of i dunno... love?)
4. Because I was still in a relationship, i posted some sweet comment in my gf??s FB profile, and next thing I know is — Martha is angry, and doesn't want anything to do with me anymore.

5. Met my gf??s cousin (which is a good friend of Martha), and cousin says that before Martha found out about my comment, she was ready to be together with me. (facepalm). Changed my mind, thought i love my gf, wanted to get back bracelets from Martha, to approve I love my gf. Tried to get them back, was a bit unpolite, didn't succeed.
6. Changed my mind again, i wasn't happy with my gf. Persued Martha to meet me one more time, I said I'm ready to break up with my gf, she said she's already dating another guy.
7. Big pause, stayed with my gf, broke up with my gf, went to UK, had a job, quit job, went back to Latvia, decided to finish highschool, chose same school as Martha, even worse — same class. She's with another guy for a while already(the one which she was dating) , but when we met in school after all of this crap, she was really nice and friendly and everything. She even wanted me to sit next to her. I felt awkward, and didn't respond well, felt confused Didn't talk much. Stayed in school for about a week, left school, still love her. End of the story.

Do I have any chance of getting her some day? Is she as obsessed with me as I'm with her? I??ve heard she's unhappy with her current bf, and maybe she was about to give me one more chance? Otherwise it's hard to explain why she was so friendly. My point is - I really believe it will work out some day, because scorps don't forgive that much, and don't give second chances as much as she did. I don't know what to think. SCORP WOMEN HELP!!!!

I'm trying to analyze the situation from all angles I can imagine, but in the end, do I really need her? Is attraction caused by my ego? Because if it is, I don't think it's good for me, on the other hand, maybe following this possibly ego's dominated will is necessary to learn more about my higher self by experiencing possible upcoming love affair or maybe even conflict which both could occur. —??Follow your heart—? isn't a tip in this case. I??ve no doubt about my feelings but I'm not sure if my true-self is involved in deciding it. I want her, but do I need her? I don't know if I??ll gain love and evolve as a spirit and soul, or the opposite, is it just a childish desire for her,which will stand in my way of evolving my soul. Maybe the lesson in the universes agenda, which I'm supposed to learn is just... learn to forget her to keep me from useless worries. But then again, I feel lonely on my own, and if I need

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oops, here's the ending:

But then again, I feel lonely on my own, and if I need someone by my side — I don't need anyone else, but her. What's the right thing to do? What am I supposed to do and learn from all of this as a soul? My desires are clear here, but what about the bigger picture? + apologies for my english.

you're good I must say, I do have venus in libra. which charechteristics exactly do you find librian?

here's our synastry, which, as far as I'm aware, isn't bad at all.

I second exo's "make up your mind."
If you love her, you have to prove to her that no other woman exists besides her!
Even though you were dating someone at the time ... and it seems unreasonable for Martha to have gotten upset with you for posting on your girlfriend's FB... she was thinking that you KNEW she could read it, so you were just being insensitive toward her feelings, and rubbing her face in the fact that you were together with someone else.
If you want any chance with her at all, you will have to get free and clear of anyone else, and manage to convince Martha that she's the only girl you ever want to be with, ever ever ever ever ever.

you messed up when she found out you had another girl. you may have killed this relationship before it could start. well done libra venus. this is what happens when you cant make a decision. if scorpio doesnt trust you, its not likely she'll have anything else to do with you.

if you do manage to get her attention again, you better have dumped the other girl or else you'd be seen as a cheating, lying, insensitive bastard. maybe you should stay with your girlfriend and leave martha alone...unless you wanna be stung.

Trust me ladies, he wants her. He's doing what I would do and reason his way out of this situation if she doesn't want him. He's trying to protect his feelings so that if she's says no to him he can come back and say, "Well I never really wanted her anyway." That way the sting won't be as bad.

Just a defense mechanism.

i have venus in libra. as shakespeare said, i am a 'feather for every wind that blows'.

which sounds a lot nicer than the stuff some of you said. you make it sound like an affliction 😢

wait....grand gestures...what are they?

Hi,

I do not know about charts but I am a scorpio girl too and if I were in this situation, I guess i wouldn't trust a guy who already has a GF and is still trying to go ahead with another girl.

I am not sure if I can forever not trust the guy, but if he continues to be nice to me, i may fall for him and in her situation where she may not be happy with her bf, the best thing is try and be her friend( i know its difficult and it sucks) but just be with her when she needs and friend and if things do not work out between her and her bf, she would probably come back to u.

Good luck.

There is one question that i always have, guys say they like this girl and want to be with her, does that mean he means it for life... like want to be married, if not then i feel its temporary, why put in so much for something thats not going to be with you for long ?? Try and find someone else.

hmmm.....interesting what you say about the venus/libra thing ellesque. i was also in a long term relationship very young and it's only now the stupid placement seems to be a feature. i can't chooooooose! i see one i like and then another one comes along.