Serpent, Scorpion, Phoenix

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Uelrindru
@Uelrindru
12 Years

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Seriously no eagle? I've actually been thing a lot about this lately. I definitely feel I've progressed beyond the terrible things scorpions are known for, I do not seek revenge for things unless it is very deserved and mostly I practice it with businesses and not people, I actually have forgiven people that have wronged me though they still lost the chance to enjoy my company most of the time. Recently though I've started a serious relationship and my mind wanders and I play through how easy it would be to cheat or do terrible things for my own benefit. It makes me sick and I'm concerned that I'm not strong enough to put these feelings away.
Sometimes it really feels like there's this power reserve that I have, something that would let me have whatever I wanted and get ahead in everything but to use it would be to destroy the good person I've always tried to be completely and utterly. Anyone else ever get this feeling like you have your own pandora's box in you?
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Uelrindru
@Uelrindru
12 Years

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Ickers, I usually don't have these thoughts and I hate the fact that I even have them. They frankly scare me and the fact that I even have them is a terrible thing. I haven't acted on them and I doubt I will but its always there in the shadows. I've been hurt in relationships and I think that's were it stems from. Just have to find the one that makes me respect her enough that the thoughts are laughable or better yet even laughably impossible to enact.