I don't understand my taurus ex—

I'm almost 20 and shes 19. We lived together for over a year cause she had family issues. Was the best relationship i could ask for. SHE broke it off cause she was unsure of her emotions for me anymore. its almost been 2 months... we've hung out a few times since.. im usually the one who initiates contact. sometimes responds, sometimes she doesn't... well most recently... she called me at 3:30 in the morning, crying a little and drunk, asking if i can come get her cause she was locked out her house. i picked her up, after i got out of the car, she hoped her fence and hugged me like there was no tomorrow. stood there for a good 3 min. literally.

i drove us home, i carried her to my door, up the stairs and to my room, layed her down and she started to take off her pants.. i didn't think much of it, just thought she didn't want to sleep with her pants on, idk. i then try to climb on the bed so i can get her to sleep.. she positions herself under me and starts touching me and basically saying she wants sex... honestly, i knew i sjouldnt have but i couldn't resist... i loved this woman and i missed her so much... anyways i asked a few times "are you sure you want to do this" she said "of course" or "couldn't be more sure".

well we had sex and she was saying all these things like... I miss you.. this feels like a dream come true.. i miss this feeling... i don't know what i want but i want you around... mentioned a little more too but after we were done.... i had this urge to look at her phone... after i saw the first message i regretted it... i saw shes messaging this guy and i guess they had this thing going on a few weeks after our breakup... already started to say i love you... really hurt... how can she "love" this guy but kinda keep me around? i mean, i do usually initittae the texting and hanging out but she never denies the hangout, maybe just pushes it to different day or whatever... but i kept thinking to myself.. why did she call me, not him? why did we have to have sex? i know she was drunk but i know when she meant something regardless...

we woke up the next morning... she still cuddled up to me that morning alot... didn't really talka about what happened last night but still layed in bed. i had to leave for work and she was still there... she texted me at work saying someone was going to pick her up. i said "you can't just leave after what we did last night... what happened?" she said "I'm sorry.. i wasn't thinking.. if i knew this woul

would bring up past stuff, i wouldn't have done it. we were going back to being friends and i can't believe i just ruined it"

she left, but said "lets take titan(our dog) to the park tomorrow". so we did that but the entire time we hung out, we didn't mention what happened last night.. just hung out and took the dog to the park... was okay, i can tell there was a bit awkwardness maybe? not too bad. right before i dropped her off.. i had to bring it up... she seemed frustrated with me... I asked what happened.. her excuse "idk, i was drunk" bullshit... i asked her plenty of times if she knew what she was doing and she was okay with it... she couldn't look me in the eye after and didn't say anything after... i even mentioned the things she told me that night... she couldn't look me in the eye.. i didn't bring up the other guy, she doesn't know i know... I'm pretty sure we'll hangout again cause the dog has an appointment... but maybe i screwed up by mentioning that night and now shes frustrated with me— wtf is going through this taurus girls mind?

What sign is her venus, mars, moon and rising? I'm a Taurus rising so may be able to help. But if you could provide more on the rest of her chart might help to answer better

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What sign is her venus, mars, moon and rising? I'm a Taurus rising so may be able to help. But if you could provide more on the rest of her chart might help to answer better

venus: gemini
mars: aries
moon: taurus
Rising: Leo—

honestly, i know the zodiacs but i'm new to the chart stuff... idk if i calculated it right... her bday is may 10, 1994

I suggest reading up on Venus Gemini for your answer, here's a bit copied. Read more into it online & you'll see.

"You're hard to pin down, and will escape anything too limiting or emotionally heavy. You don't like routine, especially when it comes to affection. When playing the field, you could spread yourself thin, and miss out on intimacy... You keep a light hold on people, and don't like anything too formalized or planned out."

i kinda just want to stop texting her cold turkey and see what she thinks if i do that... maybe she'll wonder about me or maybe not... maybe that other guy will occupy her or maybe not... i want to leave her alone and see if she misses me but at the same time... i feel if i do that, it;ll just give her time and she'll cling on to the next guy and not worry about me anymore.. idk what to do

Find your self esteem is what you need to do.

What if she doesn't wonder about you, what if the other guy occupies her, what if she clings to the other guy and doesn't contact you anymore? She's 19. She has a lot of growing up to do. Move on. Show her her decision is permanent - stop being her option.

I'm sorry - it's time to let her go. Stop texting her. Go out with your friends - meet some other girls.