I ve with this Taurus lady, I am Cancerian - we are lady in love with a lady
1) for 5 months (long distance in the same country for 3 months with so beautifully chemistry between us, dated for 4 times and the love is so hot with some intimacy) and long distance with 7 hours different timezone for these 2 months back. We have to do this LDR for more 2.5 years where she will be back only once a year for a month.
2) we re not ready for LDR, so we fought over timezone, which make me feel abandoned and she looks like she prioritizes her friends more than me (who are her reality there) but I am trying to accept that for now but then we still don't have each other on the spot if we needed to. I need to sleep late til 2-4 am in order to contact her. well she f**ked the timezone lol
3) she said her love has been fading away since we fought, she feel we re far away from each other and I'm being clingy, said she won't go away, she will always there for me, and it's up to me if I wanna go but she won't prevent me from going. as I have once not contacting her for 5 days (before her feeling fading) - she wouldn't find me for that damn 5 days! the 6th day, I have to contact her first -_- Taurus's cliche
4) she's abusing drug and alcohol which will make me feel uncomfortable with the fact - she didn't take it while she's been here and do clubbing with touching others and being touched - i hate those hands that touchs her!
5) so I am currently in cold turkey state with her for 4 days counting today. I am planning on moving on since she don't want to give me any promise about wooing her again without her having any sexual contacts with others (which is she did do casual sex with different girls before) so it's like she wanted to own me but don't want to love me more than a friend, if I can't be patient and let things go slow, then she can't do anything - she said - again, Taurus's cliche
I think I can go on this 'move on' phase peacefully but I am wrong since I can't get her outta my mind since then. as a Cancer, i need an assurance that she is mine, I m not going to wait patiently in wooing her again if I can't have any assurance she wouldn't touch anybody else - oh I'm territorial - I can't even imagine she is having sex with others like she doesn't mind if I did that with others since her love is really faded but she knew she's been acting very cruel to me, promising me things like a lover would do and then leave me just like that when things got tough. I don't know what to do, can I really tolerate being in this LDR and mostly because I really need to tolerate so much things especially her wild side for 2.5 years more. LDR with diff timezone is suffocating!
I dont know what should I do, anyone? and thank you for your reply!