Taurean in full.

Just sharing the entire mess to get the residual off my chest. No one knows the entire story. I'm tired of holding it to myself


If you have a comment, or opinion make it..I don't mind. I'm through..just need to get this out of my head.

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My situation with my Taurus has been primarily the same as many women experiences with other Taurus men.

We met sometime in early June on "Badoo." (A dating website.) At the time I had a boyfriend. In that relationship I was both afraid to leave, and unhappy. Taurus knew nothing about the situation totally, but he did know I was taken.

We conversated well, and clicked instantly just within the first night. He even commented,'Damn, the first girl I finally get along with is taken. Just my luck." We kept talking. I really didn't *like* him, but he kept me entertained.

I loved his conversation.

After about two weeks of just conversation he began to say things like; "I might have to stop talking to you. I'm about to catch feelings." I wasn't really afraid that he would leave, but in the back of my head. I didn't want him to go anywhere, and I didn't understand why.

I would always say to him. "I can't beg you to stay.

The first time he decided to "go." I kept saying that same thing over, and over "I can't beg you to stay." but then I finally added, "but I would be lying if I told you I wanted you to go."He stayed, and we kept talking. He was begging to meet me face to face.

I wanted to see him so bad. As terrible as it was I decided to. One night; Night because I didn't want anyone to question me. I drove to see him. It was after 10:30pm. I finally got there, and upon seeing him face to face I asked,"Can I have a hug?" He pulled me close. Hugging me as if he never wanted to let me go. As if he missed me. As If I was the last straw for him. I know how that sounds CRAZY AS HELL.

I truly sound DRAMATIC, but that is how it felt. Every emotion he had flowed through me. I ignored it. Pushing it away. He lead me inside his place.I was nervous. I guess he knew I was nervous because he immediately sprung into action trying to get me to see I could be comfortable with him

I felt like shit for two reasons [1] My boyfriend [2] I was unsure of how I was feeling about Taurus.

I couldn't handle it. I had to go. He begged me to stay. I told him no. He seemed disappointed but said nothing more, just got ready to lead me out. Somewhere in all of this. He got a

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He got aggressive trying to kiss me.

I rejected him all three times. "I will get my kiss from you." He texted me just after I had left.

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After that. Things began to really spiral emotionally.

He even left again for the second time. I was actually confused the second time. I said the same things. "I cant beg you to stay, but I'd be lying if I told you I wanted you to go." He often ask how I felt about him a lot. Even got pissed saying, "It like pulling getting you to tell me how you feel." I was just never sure.

He came back eventually, and now I didn't want to be with anybody at this point.

Not even him..

Despite the strong connection we shared. I couldn't be with him. I didn't want to be with my boyfriend either.I saw him another time after that a week or so later. Almost a month now we had been dealing with the situation between us.

I gave him oral that time. He wanted me to spend the night, and was pissed when I told him no. I saw him several times after that. Still I never told him by word of mouth how I felt for him.Not long after the he told me, "I love you."

FINALLY as of July we went out publicly with my friends. The first half was glorious, the middle was nutty. He was mad because I saw a movie that he had been wanting to take me to see, and I went with somebody else. He eventually softened up later on, and it was back to glorious.

He was holding me. We even kissed, and took a picture together. (We both hated it lol)


After that we kept talking. Things seemed to change a slight bit. He finally one day told me out of the blue "I know you love me." I only questioned "How do you know." He just said,"I know."

Like he had accomplished something. Later on I did admit to him that I had feelings for him.

Mid to early July I was finally single..

Between this time his phone had gotten cut off, and he was only able to talk when WIFI was available. We started to talk ONCE a day. Honestly It was pissing me off to only get to speak with him one time a day for an hour to 15mintues.

I really missed speaking with him daily. (I told him I missed him too.)

The slightly change in our daily communication kind of seemed to slow down his emotional ties towards me,but he was still just as affectionate. One day he stayed within wifi for hours just to glide me.
I saw him that same day, and I received Oral from him.

Late July we went on a movie date. The whole time during the date he was hot

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cold. It confused me. Was he not interested? I honestly was afraid he was playing games. So I told him I didn't see our purpose, and I left. I regret that, and two days later. I was on him trying to get him back.

He agreed to it finally after a week, and we saw each other. Things seemed the same, but had shifted a bit. I was initiating everything, but it was understood.I had messed up. It was sort of like a prove to me that you deserve this second chance type thing.

So I was doing my damndest to prove it.

We did a lot from staying at the park till the moon came out .. to me telling him HOW I actually FELT. All of these things. He becomes a TOTAL stranger when we are apart. When we would talk he would disappear in mid conversation, or not respond at all.

Apart from me he is a distant stranger. but face to face he was a familiar stranger.There was even a time when he was on his phone the whole time I was there. Like I wasn't even there for him to look at.
He instead was looking and talking to his other female friends, and oogling other females.

If he wanted me to not be around, why not just say it? Admit it? Why be a dick? I kept asking how he felt. Are you playing with me? I'd ask

He kept saying no. I care about you. I like you.. to him finally saying he didn't know how he felt, but he liked being around me to him saying ...I'm not sure how I feel again.

In this cloud of emotion. I had fallen for him. I fulfilled him with my feelings. Like full message. he always read. Never responding. He even went without speaking me for two days after my "feelings." In the midst of my "feelings" he needed my help.

Of course I helped like an idiot. I questioned if he got my messages. To my face he lied, "Yeah I got em still. Haven't had a chance to read em." The whole time we were together, he was sweet, asking for kiss after kiss. Finally we parted. He asked me to resend the messages

(Oh so he must have deleted them?)

He didn't seem to take them as seriously anymore.Finally I pulled away after he asked for -friendship- a week later saying he was going through a lot financially. I only agreed because I wanted a piece of him if I couldn't have the whole thing.

I had a stupid expectation..

I pulled away for 4days after that... No talking.. I only returned when he disrespected me. (He put a sexy picture of me up VIA internet that I sent to him a while ago.) I pulled away again for 3 days. I returned to check on him

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twice. I pulled away again for 2days.

He came back intimately. I don't want intimate.I want him.

He came back again the next day, commenting on my change of hair color. (Not negative, but nothing positive.) We talked brief, and pulled away again for three days

He came back saying his Dad passed only for him to disrespect me again by asking for another sexy picture after he broke my trust with doing what he did with the last one.

I've backed all the way up. No communication now. Period.


-Bea.

Posted by scorchedearth
this dynamic is the reason why it's so fucking hard for us to work with cancers. if it works it's the best match in astrology, period. but in a lot of scenarios neither will give an inch until the other one has given up. and then the push/pull dance starts. there is resentment there because he kept trying and you kept pushing him away. so it cooled his feelings. and when you came on really strongly it made him step back and changed how he was approaching things. if you continue on as you are he'll think you're desperate and then he'll only use you for sex. you have to respect yourself above all else. and DO NOT chase him. the worst advice i see given all the time on this forum is to run like a maniac after a taurus man who has gone cold on you. that will NOT get you him. a man doesn't respect or value what comes too easily. venusian man or not. if a man likes you he will initiate things and try to lock you down so no one else can get what wants. if it's at the point where he's playing games and taking for granted you like him and disrespecting you things are already over. you should move on. it'll hurt but things will only continue to get worse. and the longer you let it go on the worse you will feel when he finally ends things for good and ends up with someone else.

Half the time I am never sure what he is doing. His intentions change within a week it seems like.

He either can be a nice asshole, or just a nice enough asshole. Only when I walk away or get quiet does he say anything. DO anything. Which I will not fall for any longer, and also he turned me down for sex. I was trying to "leave" and I was being spiteful and I didn't want it truly. I just wanted a reaction and he told me no to sex a week prior to asking me for head, which I rejected him twice.

He got upset saying, "If you honestly loved me, you would do what makes me feel good."

ALSO; He just sent me a picture message after four days of No Contact. Not sure what is it. Didn't look at it yet. I wasn't expecting him to say anything anyways. I'm not going to respond to it, and I will definitely NOT chase him period.

And it was a picture of his dick... Just adds my fuel to fire. To just leave him

Posted by scorchedearth
this dynamic is the reason why it's so fucking hard for us to work with cancers. if it works it's the best match in astrology, period. but in a lot of scenarios neither will give an inch until the other one has given up. and then the push/pull dance starts. there is resentment there because he kept trying and you kept pushing him away. so it cooled his feelings. and when you came on really strongly it made him step back and changed how he was approaching things. if you continue on as you are he'll think you're desperate and then he'll only use you for sex. you have to respect yourself above all else. and DO NOT chase him. the worst advice i see given all the time on this forum is to run like a maniac after a taurus man who has gone cold on you. that will NOT get you him. a man doesn't respect or value what comes too easily. venusian man or not. if a man likes you he will initiate things and try to lock you down so no one else can get what wants. if it's at the point where he's playing games and taking for granted you like him and disrespecting you things are already over. you should move on. it'll hurt but things will only continue to get worse. and the longer you let it go on the worse you will feel when he finally ends things for good and ends up with someone else.

Yup! Good post.

Posted by Chael

Posted by BeaCancer91
And it was a picture of his dick... Just adds my fuel to fire. To just leave him

ROFL that's hilarious. iv actually done that to slaggy women with boyfriends that want to flirt but want to keep it PG so they don't feel like they're cheating.

does he have an aries mercury?

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Er...His birthday is May, 1st, 1987.

He needs a little "foot in ass" 😄, and I'm not sure🙂 lol. I'm currently trying to erase everything I've held in my head as far as a sweet memory with him.

Also I'm single as a pringle.

Funny thing; After that picture went completely ignored. He posted on his twitter looking for one of his attention giving female friends. I followed him so I USE to see what he posted. I de-activated my twitter as of last night by the way. I've been meaning to.

It really should not be this hard for me to just drop him out of my heart, he is a jack..ass -.-, I've literally been fine after past break ups with exes. I never even dated him, and this is definitely the one that is the hardest, and hurts the most..:/

One day at a time...

-Bea