need the biggest help from all

ok being AND AQUA MOON I AM EASY TO NOT HAVE EMOTIONS AND VENUS SCORP HIDE ALOT OF THINGS ASWELL BUT I THINK ITS TIME TO VENT TO GET HELP FROM YOU GUYS WITH A MAJOR PROB THATS BEEN ATTACKING ME FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS.

ive always been a confident guy, knew what i wanted , very spontaneus, incredibily smart, not easy to walk over, think ahead, innovative orginator , charming and couragous,talented,think fast, and most importantly WITTY

for the past two yeaRS Beginning fall of 2007 i lost my form, i started talking to this aquarius chic whom always felt magnetic with me but the only problem was that she was playing games, it was a cat and mouse game , her with me and me with her, it was something like whom ever gives up first loses type stuff is how i saw it. She was very deceiving but to me in my mind it wasnt that serious i can figure out a random person{s mind in a second. our minds and personality were SO ALIKE , same type of sence of humor and attraction/flirtation we had with the opposite sex was the same. well evertime this one gemini dude came around (shesa couple ofyears younger than me, gem dude my age) she would switch up). at the begining. she was leaning towards me since i was the new guy at this new college and the other dude even told her that he didnt like me because i was bold and confident, witty and couldnt stand that, i had the upper hand, yet at the same time this dude would pull off emotional shows and would get her chasing him. this girl hanged out with ALOT of guys. in fact the guys that hung out with the gemini gut with be her circle of friends. Me being the new ghy in the school would would like a threat to these guys because i was very confin??dent and sure about myself everytime i would pass by her dorm suite and they would be there. all of these guys would chase her. being that i was the only guy that wasnt [originally there" they basically made an image about me to her so that she would sawy towards the gemini guy, well it worked. one day i came on campus and {.i saw her holding hands with the gemini guy and she smiled at me laughin so i smiled back on [some ok its like that smile) 2 minutes laters she texts that she doesnt want to talk to me anymore. i texted ["ok lmao), then she [what wait are you doing[. i proceeded with my life...

next i meet this li bra chic whos been wanting to get with me ever since i transfered but i was too busy fallin for the aqua and chasing, so i give her a chance since out of evry one the aqua was the one that told me she liked me when we went to a party together previously. the libra was beautiful thick, smart sorority girl and most importantly my age. i started talking to her, her and the aqua were good friends but i still didnt give a fuck. one day im in my dorm room and out of every one the aqua calls me asking me if im talking to the libra chic woow. i told her stop gettin in my business , i thoug u didnt want to talk to me, then she started going off on how she cant stand me how im this and that, how im random how everytime i talk its random bla bla, i hung up on her and kept it moving. i proceed to deal with this libra chic and my confidence grows again. shes in love with, during our summer break from college she called me everyday, wanted to see me but i wouldnt see her cause i wanted to have job and have my life balanced so i can feel good about myself, plus she was getting too close and most IMP??RTANTLY I WAS THINKIN ABOUT THE AQUA BIG SMH.

i couldnt believe my mind wouldnt let go of this girl that seemd immature to me, i wanted to forget her badly (and trust me i move on fast) but i t just didnt happen. everytime i would think about her the phone would ring and it would be the aqua, plaeding to talk to her pleading and i would give her the run aroun, yet she wa still madly in love with her libra bpyfriend who was like a younger watered down verson of me smh.


well the next semester is started messing with loibra again but kept giving her the cold shoulder even though the aqua kept playing with my head making me feel like a fool i kept chasing falling for her " lets hang out then not picking up the phone that night, act like nothing happen" type thing, the libra got tired and moved on while i was left aone back ojn the single and mingle thing hoping the aqua would come along.

the aqua kept hopping for attention fromthe gem to the libra to me, man this this was depressing me slowly but surely i started taking my mind off the books and started smoking weed, my lyrical skills in writing musi with deteariarating slowly and my wit started to dwindle because evey time the aqua would invite me those othe rguys would be around and its like they would have these insiders about there sex , a played coy yet i understood

That Aqua girl was never serious, seems she is more interested in the attention, than you.

Poor Libra came along when you were still moping, sucks for her.

Air girls are always playing some weird mind game.

understood what they talked about, everytime i ditched her she would come back begging, i would fall into it again, left her then on my senior year, her junior year we actually got together for like the 1st 4 moths, one nigt we went to a party were the gem guy was there (he is no threat to me seriously yet she keeps chasing this drug dealin loser), im a bad boy yet i dont have to present it the corny way he does, next thing you know she didnt want to mess with me anymore that same night and she ended up getting with him, after that i would call her everyday no answer she would act like im not shit, when im clearl?y the one with education on the brink of grduation, i would start smoking more weed to calm down my thoughs and end up not doing the homework i wanted to do. i finally stopped talking to her near may 2009 when i was graduating but lost a lilttl?e track of what my career motive was, trust me was depreseed, never been through this my entire life, im a ver attractive person thats all it was i lost my sence of humor and y confidence, when some talks to me know i dont even now how to put the words out of my mouth, its like i have no power over people anymore that i used to easily have my way of planning for the future mentally its not there. i graduated college, im a very independednt person and expected to move out of my moms house asap because im used to having my own but shes old school scorpio possesive and it gets on my last nerves because she is sooo emotional and i cant stand that. she keeps holding me back with her negativity, everytime i come up with an idea i can accomplish and end up presenting it to her she always ends up bringing up the negative aspect of things, instead of motivating she keeps me in the same place, most of my friends are flaking it aswell these 2 past years have been soooo frustrating u dont even know probably the 2 worst years of my life. it atleast helped me take in a lot of pain and not completely falling. my leo cousin shows support by getting me a temp jump last feb good pay i was starting to feel good then get released in late march smh. still looking for a job. ive been locked in my house in the internet looking for jobs yet none respond, i get n interview, (ive nailed very interview ive had in my life) didnt get the job. its like no one its noticing me anymore, i havent done anything wrong to any one yet people keep throwing shots indirectly

i want my vibrant soul back
i need you to help me figure out if my super confidence moon in aquarius personality ive always had will come back in real effect again, all of my girlfriends have always been libras aquas and geminis and the one with the libra was like a "martin lawrence, gina" type of relationship soo good and funny

i am a veryyyyy talented artist and my gemini roomate who was with thourght these last 2 rough college years in general always pushes me so does my close gemini best friend from back home. i know i should be doing waaaay better than everyone i surround myself with at this point (graduated college august 2009, very driven,charming,smart). but please somene plaese help me and let me know if will get my personality,humor and leadership back, ive never experienced something like this before. my parents told me to travel with tehm ot there native carribean island im having a blast but trying to get my life plan back in gear so i can finally set free and let my spontenuity release me. before iw ould know evryyyyoneeeee, always come up with something very witty dfunny to say know a days its like i cant evn start a convo feeling like ima say the wrong thing and get looked at strange, complete personality change. someone helpo! lmao

HELLP ! LOL

If you'd like to regain your sense of self then quit selecting soul sucking game players and find a lady. Or, another thought comes into play, find yourself before you seek someone to include into your personal space.

so many answers and not one alluded to saturn in our sign everything really started to crumble around october 2007 its interesting

thnkx back to normal no escially since mercury went direct i feel like myself again!

So...did you cut em off?

its fummy because i cut the aquarius off like around july and a day before my bday she asks my on facebook why did i delete her gave her no answer. accepted her as a friend and noo shes begging for my number which i will not give to her. it feel like im non the major leagues and shes still in the minors. why the fuck would she even wanna contact me after i cut you the fuck off? its annoying to say the least

What about the libra?

well the libra i cut her off aswell along time ago havent heard from her in a looong time so i deleted her off facebook like 7 months ago.

Thats good.

lmaooo i was actually thinking about turning this part of my life into one of my screenplays since it was a significant part of my life. now i want to ask you guys a question, why the hell is this leech still stuck on me for? im curious

this is alot of drama for a vigro i thought virgos didnt like drama lol.


but dude ur young live ur life to young for all this craziness.

That's for the leech.

i mean i thought it qwas reeal because she would really be obssessed with but then all of a sudden as soon as the gemini would come through she would change up

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Posted by nyc125
its fummy because i cut the aquarius off like around july and a day before my bday she asks my on facebook why did i delete her gave her no answer. accepted her as a friend and noo shes begging for my number which i will not give to her. it feel like im non the major leagues and shes still in the minors. why the fuck would she even wanna contact me after i cut you the fuck off? its annoying to say the least

ATTENTION + VALIDATION, GODDAMN.. !!!

A-TTEN-TION and VA-LI-DA-TION..

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Right! Let us ponder what happens when you feed a stray cat.... it never leaves. Feeling the juxtaposition here? Oh yeh, I can feel it.