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Hi Reka, Hurtful allegations was meant in jest. The people don't know me well enough to hurt me, it just irks me. There's a distinction. When these situations arise, it's not so much me getting pissed at someone else, in as much as me being pissed at myself for not being more forward in clearing the air. It looks like I always end up straddling a fine line between avoiding guilt from being harsh in getting my point across and avoiding the nagging, muddy footprint on the back feeling from not adequately getting it across. All of this is emotion based; me perceiving things a certain way doesn't make them real. So, if the impulse isn't strong enough to push me to readdress it, I box the feeling and put it in the farthest closet and ignore it until it fades. By the way Reka. You are so cute trying to spare my feelings . Look, stand your ground (laughing) . Your first post was right, I shouldn't care what they think. Don't worry, I'm not that fragile (laughing). That Aries brutish, at times tactless (laughing and kidding) honesty won't break me. I like radiant perspectives, say what you feel. You don't think I should rehash it do you? Essentially, let sleeping dogs lie. If you believe I shouldn't care what they think, why bring it up again to alter what they think? The very thing I shouldn't care about. I could be way off here, but don't feel like you have to curb what you say to me. Say it like you don't think I'm listening. I prefer it that way. Well, in a good way of course, I tend not to dig personal insults (smile). Oh, I forgot. My friend, Ms. Virgo, we've been trying to reconnect a little more. After several shots of tequila, I called her at like 2:30 in the morning (laughing). She called me back at like 2:40 the same morning. Both of us had been drinking, it was kind of funny. Thanks for the insight on this one. Be warmth, VirgoSquared
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Hey Virgosqaured, Hope you had a good weekend....Im sure the tequila and call must have made ur morning .... Back to our conversation let me tell you one thing, you dont have to tell me ever to stand my ground no matter whatever situation im in,i always stick to my words.... may be that is one of the reason i get in trouble. Aries brutish?? ... boy u contradict yourself at one instance you ask me to be honest without thinking how i should put it... and at other you call me tactless.... Make up your mind dude... it doesnt help to be in a constant state of confusion .Confused Virgo (laughing). I was asking you to do what you feel like... if at that point you felt like clearing the air... all i was saying was go ahead and clear it... and then dont bother as to what they will think or feel about the way you reacted. Im kinda getting curious about ur 2.30 call ... so how did it come along?(i added a question mark here... see im improving). It takes a persistent virgo to improve a careless Aries (lol). By the way... what do you do for a living... i mean do you work (sorry if its getting personal). Was just curious because you write these post so late at night... dont you have to work the next morning. Have a good one Reka
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Hello Reka. You my dear are a piece of work. "Let me tell you one thing . . ." That's kind of brutish don't you think (laughing)? And I did not call you tactless, although your tone . . . joking. I kid. About clearing the air and not caring how the other person takes it. You maybe able to pull off a drama queen (laughing), I'm not that guy. It wasn't that pressing to me. As for my friend, that's all she is. I just want to reconnect. You're making it sound a little, elicit. Or maybe that just the way I'm taking it . Either way, I called her after coming from an outing and left a message thinking she wouldn't get it until the next day. She called right back and left an incoherent message from a club. Now, to another matter. You're beginning to remind me of myself with these probing questions. Whenever I feel evasive, I ask myself, "Self. Why do I feel evasive?" Here's why. I'm sure you've heard the saying, it takes money to make money. Same deal, I value privacy. Therefore, it takes revelation to get revelation. Baby open your top secret folder. Outside of a specific experience, and this is probably the pig calling the hog a cow, but you're practically anonymous Tell me something about yourself. Who is this fiery, deep feeling, at times abrasively curt, yet vulnerable speaking book who keeps her pages stuck together? I'll even start. That night, I did have to work in the morning. I ending up staying up all night and enduring the day. Also, I love grilled swordfish (laughing). I revealed earlier and felt severely compromised. This time it's on you. Shall we persist in this endeavor of exploration?
VirgoSquared PS The question mark was righteous. That sentence loves you for it. You so rock!!!
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Hey VirgoSquared, You can give diplomats a run for their money....I admire the way you say the worst of the thing in the best possible way.... at time i wonder if i should take that a compliment or insult (Kidding). Well about myself and what i do.... i seriously am considering theatre/ stage performances. (Somebody just said i am drama queen). I am what you perceive of me Honestly I don't know what to speak about myself... not a very interesting personnor do i have a very colorful life. The abrasive curtness is inborn.... not even a critical persistent Virgo can change it. Well yes, I can share this ... I hate being called vulnerable. ... live in this dream world where i think nobody can hurt me... least of all don't like showing this side to me (confusing is it?) Life for me is a wonderful journey full of surprises. How about we were exploring the probability of knowing each other as we move along in our mysterious virtual world?? Reka PS Would like to thank the sentence and the sentence reader for acknowledging. Praises like this do good for my ego
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Hi Reka. (Laughing) Diplomat. Thank you . . . I think. And nothing I said was meant as an insult. Also, I did not call you a drama queen (laughing), I said you maybe able to pull a drama queen. There's a difference. You know what though? Sometimes you got to be that way to back people off you (smile). Just spazz the hell out on someone in front a bunch of people, preferably their family . . . grandma with her oxygen tank and uncle Bob with his weak bladder included. Just go bonkers, and then when call you a drama queen; really lose it. "DRAMA QUEEN! WHO YOU CALLING A DRAMA QUEEN???" Aww Dude, that'll be great (laughing). Hell, I'd love to be able to do that. You walk away grinning, whispering to yourself, "That'll learn 'em." Not a very interesting person? What a Virgoish answer Arien modesty? Isn't that like a dieting cow or something (laughing)? You know what, I'm finding that very few people are dull, they're just so used to their lives, it's dull to them. Also, dull and interesting are subjective terms. With me, I find contrast interesting, so don't be presumptuous about my curiosities, baby (smiling). Besides, if you have me playing Sherlock, you can't be too unradiant. I am not critical! I take that as an insult I know what the boards say about Virgos, but I will not try to change anyone, at least not intentionally. Being around people causes an energy exchange, both people tend to rub off on each other, but I would sooner not be around someone than try to change them. I have no double standard about this one. Accept me or leave me alone. I think the same when it comes to others. I'll accept them or leave them alone. The vulnerability part; I find this quite interesting. No, it's not confusing. I dig you completely. I got a moon in Aries, remember; it makes perfect sense. Vulnerability is an a**hole, it's even worse when someone else knows about it. I have this visceral reaction against showing it . . . I've gone to extremes at times to conceal, and yet, I know no one is an island unto themselves. It ends up being feeling versus reality. For me, feeling wins out on this one most of the time. Reka, you have no idea. Let's just say, I understand. I will say this though, a recent mini epiphany as a side note. Read nothing into this, it's just something I've recently learned from a few good people that seem to be rubbing off on me in a good way. As much as I hate showing weakness, with someone you trust, there's an odd feeling of uneasy peace with sharing. It's becoming so "see through" that the person sees you for what you are and accepts it. I'm not necessarily talking about relationships, just friendships. I'm finding that feeling to be amazing. Not just accept you, but won't shatter you in your becoming glass to them. I think I'm talking about genuine connections. For two people to stand before each other bare (figuratively of course, banish that dirty mind of yours lol), exposing weaknesses and all, in comfort, trusting the other to not take advantage. For me, being innately adverse to exposing certain things; parts of myself and life, displaying or conveying heavy emotion, even certain feelings, to trust another enough to express those sentiments seem to have a huge impact on me. I'm finding it creates connections I'm getting enamored with, which is again, a weakness; it becomes a kind of need. It's worth it. I don't fully understand it yet myself so I'm probably not making any sense. I'm just finding there's a comfort inherent in sharing in trust; an appeasement of loneliness. I really have to work on that long windedness. It's just in bringing up the thing about feeling uncomfortable exposing weakness, I understand immensely; recent events just have given me another dimension to my take on it. It's so weird, I can't explain it. Actually, I probably can, but the length would take ridiculous, so . . .
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Hey, I must agree there is something about this conversation, its getting interesting with each passing day and I enjoy reading your analysis depicting ones state of mind and the picturisation that follows ?(? I have a canteen full of water. Saddle up??). You can be a good writer/director have you ever tried your hands on it . (The frontier's all around, the lady chooses direction. An Arien wouldn't have it any other way right (smiling)?) . Well for this one I would say it all depends on how you handle them?. Command me and I would revolt. Ask me and I would meekly follow? without ever asking a question. Well I was just trying to get back to you on that drama queen remark so I talked about stage. With me, I think im a very insecured person when it come to people close to me, I need to know at every point where I stand with them, once you built that trust in me, nothing can shatter it? I can have days, months of fight with someone close to me, and can still have a hope of reconnecting. Nothing ends for me. When I accept someone I accept him, as he or she is then there is no looking back either you have them in your life or they can never enter your life. There is no middle way. I have noticed one thing about me I can strong in front of the world, but can't stand so strong if I care about someone About me calling Virgo's critical?. Honestly I don't think they are, at least the Virgo I knew would really think twice before criticizing, but when they hurt you, its really bad?. They just don't understand how they come across to people?. Years of relation can go kaput in a moment and they just don't care?. That's what pinches the most. It just makes you feel that you were living in a dream world and it was not worth investing so much in something that was so fickle. Displaying emotions yes that's the most uncomfortable thing for me to do?? for me if you display your emotion people know how to play it with you?.i can be very difficult to understand me at times?. Also it kinda gets uncomfortable with me to show that I need that person . Too much of insight ? you have a knack of getting things out (kidding). Hey if you don't mind, I am kinda curious about the ?recent mini epiphany? that you talked about? was this with your Virgo friend ?. Keep Smiling Reka
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Hello Reka. I was reading over my post and it came out a little too dramatic. When you said exploration, for some reason, the first thing I thought of was the wild west, hence the cowboy, cactus, horses, desert references. I'll be sure to tone things down next time. You know, believe it or not, you're not so different from everyone else. For instance, the standing strong in front the world but not in front of people you care about. Yeah, it's more difficult to stand strong before loved ones because, you care about them. You're going to care how they take your actions or words. I would worry if you didn't care. As for my mini-epiphany. I'll try to explain. I innately think like you do in some things. The aversion to showing weakness, showing need, heavy emotion. It feels uncomfortable. I show laughter and joy fine, but hurt, depression, even certain feelings that would express a deep caring for another and insinuate a need, no. This mini-epiphany wasn't about the my Virgo friend, it was brought about by a new friend that seems to have a big impact on me. She's so beautifully expressive that I can't help but be pulled to that same emotive level. Essentially, she draws me out. Although I liked it, it was still unsettling; but her honesty bred trust, and at some point I realized that I didn't feel compromised in expressing what I was thinking or feeling to her, I just felt. I think it had to do with trust. Once it was established, not only was I okay with being "see through," but it felt good to be that way and be accepted in that state. See Reka, certain subtle sentiments she would get across would strike a cord with me, but I couldn't figure out why. I'm a Virgo, it's not enough to feel something, I have to know why. Eventually, it made sense. You said, "Also it kinda gets uncomfortable with me to show that I need that person." And that's the rub. In becoming "uncomfortable," becoming "weak," and showing that someone you trust that you need them; you make them feel appreciated. You affirm their worth in your life, their importance. The reverse is also true. By freezing them out, you can make someone feel worthless. Who would you rather be with, someone that makes you feel high at times, someone that makes you feel appreciated and worthwhile, or someone who's apathetic towards you? The basis is finding someone to trust. Trust mitigates that feeling of weakness inherent in sharing yourself, thereby giving yourself the chance to be accepted by another for who you really are. This can't be done with everyone, but, when it's there, it feels good. And yes, I know how it sounds, but she is just a friend (laughing). I hope my explanation made sense. Talk to you later, VirgoSquared
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Hi, I was just kidding, you were not dramatic at all?. Infact I really liked the way you put things?seemed for a moment that you are a dreamer? so don't tone it down next I like it this way J I'm not getting this? are you trying to say that even if you are comfortable sharing your feeling with this ?special friend? J, you still try to avoid her. If this is what you are saying ? why do you do so. You said ? I'm a Virgo, it's not enough to feel something, I have to know why. Eventually, it made sense??. Why is it not enough just to feel certain thing ?. Why do you think you need an explanation for every thing?.why not take each day as it comes. Also you said eventually it made sense, what were you talking about when you said that? Did that mean you realized that she cares for you?
As you said in becoming "uncomfortable," becoming "weak," and showing that someone you trust that you need them; you make them feel appreciated. Is it wrong if you make them feel appreciated? ?The reverse is also true. By freezing them out, you can make someone feel worthless. Who would you rather be with, someone that makes you feel high at times, someone that makes you feel appreciated and worthwhile, or someone who's apathetic towards you? Didn't quiet understand this did you mean that you freeze someone out of your life because you don't want to show feelings? Does she know how you feel about her? or have you chosen not to let her know J. Try to explain me the freezing part im interestedJ Take care Reka
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Hi Reka. Is Mercury in retrograde or something (smiling)? That's not what I was saying. I was trying to explain how my new friend brings that expressiveness out of me. Because I trust her, I'm comfortable in being that way. Me saying it's not enough to feel, just meant I have a tendency to define my feelings, be them good or bad. I have a need to know why I'm feeling something. In this case, she'd make me feel really good, secure in being myself with her, I needed to know why. I would never want to jeopardize that feeling by absence. When I said eventually it made sense, I understood why I would feel that way, euphoric at times. I went into explaining it by passively diverging to what you said in your post about "you" not feeling comfortable showing someone you needed them. I realized that showing that person they're needed makes them feel appreciated, special. It lets them know they have a place in your life. If you don't show that because of feeling "uncomfortable" I was saying it's like freezing them out. It's making them feel like they don't have a place in your life. It's like, who wants to be where they don't feel they're wanted? Like I said in the post, "She's so beautifully expressive that I can't help but be pulled to that same emotive level. Essentially, she draws me out." Her ease of emotional expression makes me just as expressive. It's a friendship, she knows I appreciate her. I couldn't help but to tell her. I wanted to tell her. To note, I don't have a problem expressing how I feel about someone when I trust them. This experience with her, if nothing else, has showed me that. That's all I was trying to explain. I wouldn't shy away from this type of openness in a friendship, I've come to crave the connection. Hope that partially explains, VirgoSquared
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Cancerbuddy, I'm glad you posted. I can use your advice. Look, the person I'm talking with, my friend that's having such an impact. She's a Cancerian woman. You think she'll ever betray my trust? VirgoSquared
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Hey Virgosquared, Thanks for the explanation... I dont know much about cancerians... but any other woman in her place if she gets the kind of care and attention which you have been giving her would betray you .. So dont even think on those line... Have a good weekend. Reka
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Hey Virgosquared, Thanks for the explanation... I dont know much about cancerians... but any other woman in her place if she gets the kind of care and attention which you have been giving her would betray you .. So dont even think on those line... Have a good weekend. Reka
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Thanks Reka. I think you're saying if she's getting the kind of care and attention I conveyed in my earlier post, I shouldn't have to worry about her betraying me. Thank you, your sentiment feels warm. Safe even. I'm assuming your comment on this means in a relationship, you crave this type of conveying of emotion. For you to say I shouldn't have to worry about her betraying me, I take it you're seeing it from your perspective. If you're given this by another, this type of free acknowledgment of your worth, they never have to worry about your breaking confidence or straying. Am I seeing this right? Reka, do you think this is universal? Or do you think this type of expression would freak some people out? No Virgo jokes here folks! (laughing) VirgoSquared PS Cancerbuddy, I still want your opinion. You're a Cancerian. You opinion is valued.
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Hey Virgosquared, I dont know if im craving for these kind of emotions... with me it takes a long time to get in to any kind of relation... but once there i can never stray or break confidence....i will die of guilt . I will end a relation before getting in to other.... the word stray and two timing is not there in my dictionary. Im not sure of others but it will definitely freak Virgo's out... This was an Aries joke (lol) Reka
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Right said cancerbuddy. If a cancerian truly cares they can be trusted totally for life, if they are allowed that luxury. But then what about that tough cancer shell, where they keep on retreating now and then? i have seen that the male cancerians are more prone to this than the female cancerians. the Duncan board is full of cancer smitten females who are greatly troubled by this cancer shell. whereas the female of this species can be brought right out of this shell by an attentive lover.
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Hello Everyone. Reka, still out there? Reka!!?? Oh, there you are (smiling). Continuing our public, once private conversation (laughing). You don't know if you're craving these kind of emotions; fair enough. But, when present. Don't you think . . . let me put it this way. When there's a fierce bond between two people, I mean when breathing is blissful. When one takes their absence, there's hurt. What do people mean by hurt? What about their leaving hurts the other person? Whether people know it not, I mean, sometimes you don't know it until you're without it, in cases of break ups, but we want acceptance. Relationships that work; to care and be cared for, to appreciate and be appreciated, to have another human being, one in which you care for immensely, acknowledge your worth. That acknowledgment has to feel intoxicating; when one person leaves, it's a drought. It's prickly cactus's and cracked Earth. It's the shakes, and sweats, and unspecified pain, and unquenched desires of addiction to the other person making you feel a particular way. A craving denied. It's like someone that has never smoked saying they don't crave nicotine, cigarettes. But if they gave themselves to it, they'll be hard pressed to give up the feeling it imparts, the high. It's not knowing what you're missing until you experience it, and lose it. Experiencing, and being "added to" by a thing makes you realize you needed it. Losing it, makes that "new realized need" abundantly crystal. Let me stress, I'm being general. I'm not referring to you. I think human beings are similar, but different in one drastic way. We don't nicotine to live, but we are sociable by nature. We do need other people. You wrote," . . . once there i can never stray or break confidence....the word stray and two timing is not there in my dictionary." Okay. With this opinion, I'm assuming you hold the other to the same standards, and should they break them, you'd be stunningly hurt. But why? I think it has to with the euphoria you feel in being with them, being marred by betrayal. That betrayal would steal what that person was making you feel. You make take the Arien impervious to "need" persona, but the very act of being hurt shows that you would indeed crave those particular emotions. Being hurt in that betrayal shows you're not apathetic, you care; which kind of tells that even though at this moment unrecognized, that need in you is still there. Ready to poke his head up and stretch his arms with a yawn and a knuckle crack at a moments notice. Ready to get to work asserting himself. It's just recognizing that we seach for another's understanding, an appeasement of loneliness, that sense of worth, or that safe haven some people impart. That other interlocking puzzle piece to our existence. All right, long winded, but I think the sentiment is clear. Yeah baby, screw Mercury's Retrograde (laughing).
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Hey there, I thought i lost you (didn't receive your reply on my last post)... Im already missing ya rather your post (lol) This is what i call addiction... I think you are addicted to people. let me quote this example... you talk to someone every day, you expect somebody to call you or you meet someone on regular basis now if suddenly that person is out of your life you miss these things happening to you, which at one point made you happy .... I think with time everything heals... Distance can either make the heart grow fonder or it could be Out of sight out of mind. The way you feel would depend on the intensity of the relation ... if it was a casual fling the second would apply. If it was a meaningful realtion i think you cant just forget about it.... it stays ... the form would be different, with some it could be hurt or hate or love etc...... but it all means the same.... When i said im not sure if i need that care and attention .... what i meant was i need care and attention but in limit, an over dose can scare the wit out of me.... I would get scared of the fact that i might hurt the person. (crazy huh) Your sentiments are always loud and clear ... thankyou Have a good one Reka
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Hi Reka, I so agree with you. We're social animals, given half a chance, connections happen. Addiction? Is that an Aries showing a subtle inkling of a need? (falling out laughing). No, I'm kidding. Thank you. It's cool to be missed. Missing winks at caring on some level. I actually understand you here. Someone having an emotional response out of proportion to how you feel about them. . .I mean Rambo aggressive caring; that would weird me the hell out. The fear being, they'll get hurt. Have you ever been in a relationship like that, where the other person cared too much? If so, how did you handle it? If not, how would you handle it? Also, my Cancerian Lass (smiling). Our Moons trine proudly. That's astro talk for, we click. Nuff said. VirgoSquared
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Hey Virgosquared, Good morning! Well,addiction can never be need the aries ego doesnot permit that... Kidding Yea during your lifetime (sound like im a grandma), you come across people who care about you a lot and then you cannot recipriocate the feelings the way they want it to be... i think it happens with every one.... but in all my friendship i have never deliberately hurted anyone... i always try to keep myself in their shoes when i respond... i would never do something which would hurt me, if someone did it to me. But yes, there are times when the other person does not understand where to stop, and you have to make them see the thin line that they are crossing. I really believe if there ar two mature people involved you can really have a clean relationship which can go for ever. It does not necessarily mean you need to be involved with that person ( what i mean is you dont have to have an affair ). Relations come in different packages and with each you have a different bonding... Every relation teaches you something different ... you learn something from that person which may not necessarily be part of your personality. I think thats enough for the day...So whats the Cancerian update for the day Keep Talking Reka
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Hi Reka, "I think that's enough for the day." No, teach on! Teach on! I'll play audience. Cancerian update (laughing)? What am I the weather channel (smiling)? Like I said, we click, nuff said. And, I could be wrong, but is there some hidden insinuation with the Cancer questioning? You seem mighty curious about this Cancerian Lass. Spill. How about a Reka update? What have you been up to? How have you been doing? Anything interesting coming up for you? Keep sharing, VirgoSquared
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Hey Virgosquared, Welcome to the class today ..(me the teacher you the student). The lesson for today dear is never read in between lines.... hahaha... I was just curious about your Cancerian... taking with you have seen a transformation in me .... i have started getting curious... see its all your influence.. i balme it on you Well a Reka update would not be so interesting... Say Thankyou for sharing my thoughts Take care, Reka
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Hi Reka. "Thank you for sharing my thoughts" (laughing). My dear you seem sunny today . I'm glad, thanks for sharing light. I noticed something in your post. "The lesson for today dear is never read in between lines.... hahaha..." I'm sitting her falling out laughing. I get told that so often, but that's not my fault (laughing). If people just say what they have to say, I don't have to read between the lines. For instance, you should just say, "I love you VirgoSquared. I love you! Marry me!! Please! Take me away, Man!!!" I'm kidding (laughing). I'm kidding. I'm joking. A little humor (laughing). What I'm saying is, I got that way because people aren't always upfront. Myself included. But, that's not important. Notice my response to what you said. You could've put that another way were I could've taken that kind of hard. Instead, I started beaming when I read it. See, from Virgo to Aries. It's how you put things that matter. You always say a Reka update wouldn't be interesting. My dear that's just evasion (laughing), but that's fine. I'm the same way. I will inquire into some of everything about people, but literally get jittery when the same is done to me. Privacy respected, I won't inquire again. Keeping this 3rd house (house of communication) train moving. If you don't mind me asking, and if you know. What's your moon sign and rising sign? If that's too probing (smiling), who's in you CD player right now? Who's got your ear? Be safe, VirgoSquared
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Hey Virgosquared, A thankyou from the bottom of my heart, for bringing a smile on my face....when everything around sucks... having a hard day at work today Huh! why did you clarify that by saying you were just joking i was going to say I love you VirgoSquared. I love you! Marry me!! Please! Take me away, Man!!!" (LOL) kidding Its fun to watch your imaginations running wild (kidding honestly)... Well my moon sign is libra .... i dont understand what is a rising sign ... not so good with astrology... will take some dopes from you . About the music playing in my ears is the howling of my boss ... you can imagine how pleased i must be Be good, Reka
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Hi Reka and Pixie, two vivacious women to talk to, wow. This maybe too much for this modest Virgo (smiling). Pixie, you're welcomed here any time That suede couch is plenty big, grasp your spot. Here's a mug of hot caramel and chocolate, and Reka has an extra blanket. She doesn't mind sharing; I don't think (laughing). And Reka, you're not kidding, my imagination does run wild (laughing). Yeah, bosses can be a**holes. His bloated head turning red, smoke bursting from his ears, his flapping cheeks inflated with wind . . .I definitely know. By the way, what do . . . okay (laughing), damn curiosity. Besides your boss, who do you rock out to driving home? Head banging in the car on the high way, singing loud and off key, and not caring a bit. People looking at you like you've lost your mind. Who's that guy or Chick coming through your speakers? On a side note, I'm glad I could bring sunshine to your face, it makes me smile to know I've made someone else smile. Hey, there's a subtle lesson for happiness. Make someone else happy. Today was my day off, and it was good and lazy. I usually disdain Lazy, but today, that Cat was all right. Any way. Don't let your boss rupture that smile Keep safe, VirgoSquared
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Dudette!!! Hang around as long as you want, Sweet-P. Time is fickle here and space is solid. Oh, and I haven't forgot the marshmallows. I'll get them, make yourself at home. Why the knit cap? I just like to wear it around the house. Leave me alone, I'm an odd ball. Stolen by a dramatic moment, stopping on the way to the kitchen. I love the way Moonlight pounces through that farthest window and loiters in our peripheral glances. For some reason, it adds to everything that is. The exhaling rose incense through shadows and black light, my hazel nut soy milk latte, your mugs of hot chocolate, Sinatra's "Someone to Watch Over Me" drifting unobtrusive through the air, the softness in both of your eyes, the ease of our company, our conversation; it accentuates us somehow. What, and where we are. The expansiveness of a moment; the way the moon captures how we feel on this third rock; hanging, protruding bright and forlorn against encroaching blackness. The way it -- yes Sweet-P, I know, the marshmallows. And yes Reka I'll get you a refill. I was just . . . never mind! You two just pick a topic and start exploring. Escaping their mocking giggles, gritting teeth on the way to the kitchen, muttering, "how rude."
I don't know what this was. A post gone awry (laughing). A cry for help. Acceptance. Over dramatic? yeah! It's late, I'm sleepy, don't joke me (laughing).
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Hey Guys, Pixie Peach.....Yea, ur right we dont mind listening to his stories being a part of it ...carrying it forward.... as long as he makes us smile .... So Virgo squared keep up the good work. Oh yes... i wouldn't mind sharing that extra blanket with Pixie peach ... and thank you VS for the refill Sweet-p, you can hang around as long as you want.... but do keep your promise ( to make us smile) (lol) Reka
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Sweet P, Your just as sweet as your name ... Thank you... Hang on .... tell us something about yourself.... My day was hectic as usual lot of work these days... so what do you do ...... share with us your thoughts .... and we will make sure this warmth reaches you.... Take care sweetie love Reka
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It was snowing here yesterday!!! That's so great. I was standing in Tower Records, buying Kings Of Convience's first CD and a group that name eludes me, and I look up through the picture windows, and it looked like the sky was falling. Three dimensional art. It was amazing. Hi Reka and Sweet-P. Why so solemn? There has to be something to discuss. To share, to talk about. Someone, speak up. VirgoSquared
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Hi I hope i am not intruding into the triumvirate of Sweet-P, Reka & VirgoSquared. The talk of snow and seeing it through the picture window in comfort of a centrally heated home is oh so appealing! And then going running out into the snow with your hands spread wide to embrace the whole ambience which breathes of such purity. and then when u turn to look back at the picture window! there is your sweetheart watching you with a hot cup of espresso in one hand and a blanket wrapped around in another arm and his eyes inviting you to come and share the cuppa and the blanket with him. And with snow covering your eyelashes, eyes getitng moist, you realise that longing and rush back to the space behind that picture window. keep warm looney
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Looneybird honey you are never an intrusion sweetie! Snow is a great subject, it's supposed to snow here for Xmas how magical would that be! I always remember sledging in the snow with my real dad when I was little, just he and I and my older brother we used to have such fun. And despite being 27 I still go out sledging......I have a 15 year old sister so that's my excuse lol. And Looney that sounds lovely, I'm loving the snow covered eyelashes Hope you are all fantastic, the sun is shining here, it's almost Xmas, I'm happy and I wish I could wrap you all up in a big hug lol.
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Looney, Welcome!!! My dearest I am so digging that scene. One thing though. I'm going to assume "him" is "her" LOL. Now, I can't be blamed, I'm just following suit.
Rushing back to the house, I stop; blanketed in white, I look up at the moon. Throned on dark clouds, it sits there a king, presiding prominent over my queen. Shaking the white flakes of sky from my knit cap, blinking to clean my gaze, I see her inviting form inside the door; I relive her skin's texture, her trickling hair tickling face, the taste of her spine. Her smile breaks me. I beam, my subtle head nod pleads with her to join this euphoric being in nature's most stunning might. She obliges, and floats, and throws the blanket across my shoulders, and I share her almond eyes, and she shares my hands. Its through the closeness of silence; active stillness; an alchemy of life blurring two into one. VirgoSquared
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Sweet P!!! Who are these vagrants you've brought to our castle!? They're ruining the winter wonderland drama. LOL!!! I'm kidding folks. I'm kidding. CJ, indulge in your urge. Not the vomiting, that's disguisting; the other. Come on my man, you have to love the poetics, "taste of her spine" the "snow on the eyelashes," "the ambience that breathes of such purity," "the closeness of silence." Spill your vision in our snowy world. Hey. What ever happened to Reka? She went to the bathroom and never returned. Someone should check on her. VirgoSquared
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Hi uh oh .... it looks like as if people are going to have supper without saying grace Hey CJ fresh lime soda(salted) is the best remedy for the puking sensation. Freebird you make sure CJ gets those bags. i dont want my blankets geting yukky incase CJ decides to puke. ..... What's the latest on the chained "little Johnny"? I am enjoying the posts. keeping posting you guys looney
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Hey CJ our messages were posted with difeernce of few seconds. Otherwise I would have not rushed ot provide you with fresh lime soda .. since you have decided ot join .. so i guess you have overcome that feeling of disgust .... but if you want we will still store it .. just in case? looney
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oh sweet-P I have Bar fully stacked up! The fresh lime soda is the first aid kit ..(LOL) so I hear there is a back massage station. I am sure we get to select our own masseus ( i hope the SP is right). But the stroll under the moon is not over yet. And yes after that I want that fire place and what about a hot water tub ... or perhaps jaccuzi ... ? So virgosquared taking from where you left. The two stand there experiencing each other's pounding heart... she- through her bossom and he through his manly form. The time stands still. The only sound in that stillness of the night is the rythm of their breath. As they look into each others eyes, the moonbeam helps them to see what they have for each other. Back there in the house the human sound has increased, friends are here! They give a fleeting glance towards the house, then they look to the other direction towards the woods, where the snow-covered pines invite them to take shelter away from any sound and where the only sound that they can hear is their heart pounding and their rythmic breathing. looney
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Hi everyone. And the drama continues . . . The snow covered pines calls, becokens, the tempting insinuation of a stunning temporary death of mutual identity. The loss of individuality under and amongst all that is. I hear a yell from the castle, something about music, but it's only a shadow. My focus undertakes no divergence. My gaze acknowledges nothing but the divinity before me. My anxious mind paces back and forth, pleading to sully those wings in the muck of radiant human expression . . .and again, those pines call. She feels me, feels the stoic snowy pines invitation. I can hear it from her eyes, see it her heightened place. We go were all awaits. We go for a freedom, a binding, a rupturing of all of skin's distance.
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Oh VirgoSquared ! I cannot match your way of expressing every human thought in words. I feel so Plebian. And it is not easy to make me feel that way. Still I will try. With the blanket covering them, her hair spread on his shoulders, they look up at the clear winter sky. Countless stars seem to shine as they send their blessings from heavens. The Moon seems like giving a big smile of approval. they again gaze into each others eyes and say, "this is perfect, this is right". looney
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