A POEM FROM ME TO MY SON

*this poem is from 2008 when my sons mom kept me from him for about a year and 2 months,this was about 6 months in,i kept a journal and wrote to him everyday,documented the dates and times in fear that i might not see him again i wanted him to know i never forgot him and wanted to show him proof that things were not as they appeared from the other party.i basically felt it was important to share this because when i write(even just for fun)i want to share my vulnerabilities,fears,embarrassments,mistakes,faults,etc.to let a reader or whoever it stumbles across that they are not alone,even if they find their voice to weak to speak or shy whatever the case maybe.it is so easy for us to write or talk about ourselves in our triumph and glory

when you were first expected,i wonder if you were as scared as i, i never knew the power your little hands would hold over my soul,and how both our hearts would be perfectly aligned. as strange as it sounds i look forward to your cries and distress,because than i could hold you tight against my chest,and watch us both smile,because daddy and dane together resolved that little tiny mess i really miss hearing your tiny voice at night for me,because your dependency on me is what makes daddy's heart thrive,and you don't even know the hero that you are,because the words "daddy,i love you" is what made your father a success,more importantly it kept your father alive. when you read this letter later on in your wonderful and prosperous life,i want to sincerely apologize for not bringing you up in a two parent household,i place a lot of that failure on myself,because to me that was more important than anything else,and it would have been the greatest gift of wealth but just know that daddy is that big shadow next to you trying to keep you on life's choo-choo track,all you do know my son is grab a dream from the tips of the stars and put one foot forward and never look back,daddy will be the hand guiding you in the front,the other hand on your shoulder is just god guarding your back, when life gives you just a little to much rope,daddy will always pick up the slack. i love you boogs and everyday we shed tears not being able to see each other will be multiplied by the smiles reciprocated when we get to be in each others arms again.remember what daddy told you"stay focused and go mayweather" i miss you dearly,i adore you love DADD

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thank you so much,yours as well,im sorry you had to go through even a week,sincerely,no man or woman should have to,most importantly no child should have to,i still continue to go through it though not nearly as bad,my son is starting to develop a mind of his own,so he sees things on his own and i am thankful for it,its amazing how adults underestimate their intelligence,being a parent is fantastic,not just saying it for the status quo,i have learned more from him than i have ever learned from anybody,with his little rock head self🙂

I am sorry that chick did that to you Brandon.

Hope your son has inherited your spirit

i almost cried...had to catch myself there. good stuff man..if anything, he will grow up stronger because you are not there

thank you really nice aires person,his spirit is of kind heart and i am thankful @ westside thank you also,but i would prefer that his character be strong because i am there,and i aint going nowhere.i get to see him,but if i dont follow her rules its every other weekend,and well i dont do rules and orders.or if she wants to go out,you know dumb stupid shit like that,i had to beg her for the mayweather fight this weekend,the boy has been raised off boxing since he was a baby,he is 6 now,these are just examples,it hurts him just as much as me.ok im done venting lmao,thanks for reading to both of you

i love having him,he is my best friend,i would rather hang out with him on the weekends then the fellas,when he is around he brings so much life to the room whoever occupies it,even strangers.i agree the other parent should get their rest time,that's cool,mine kinda does the if i find plans on Friday to go to the bar you better watch him or you will only see him twice a month type a deal,i envy it not it is the reason were so close now,i just hate him seeing me every weekend and then if i don't follow Hitlers dictatorship its twice a month,he gets hurt ya know,or if i say i don't need to speak to you ever and i can still be a good father,then she demands we talk or text,and if i don't comply,you guessed it,twice a month.i have a super hard time not rebelling against authority as it is(not proud of it),and i feel like if i give in to this bully behavior and everybody else does i give birth to a dictator.everybody tells me how lucky she is to have me as a father and i am so humbled,but,i politely disagree,i feel like im doing my job,i helped create him,i guess i just really enjoy my gig.oh well,i am going to his football game tomorrow,then getting ready for the mayweather fight,he was raised on boxing.nothing like well orchestrated violence with my son(TEAR)

No impress me i will have you know daddy happens to be blockhead,Dane
(my son)is rockhead,the dynamic duo LMAO🙂 enjoy yourself

impress me-you just made my day with the universe comment,i always wonder about that.it has been grueling stress wise and it never stops,i hope Dane sees for himself what she is about it,i dont slander her in front of him though,in a way i think he already does,and we also welcome cheerleaders,especially the good looking ones.

soccer is awesome,my son has played tee ball,basketball,and football this year(yeah,he thinks he is a G)at least you know your babbys daddy still digs you,i know you probably care,but i guess it only warrants the attention wanting behavior.it is still classy you let him see you though,you are just a genuinely good human being from talking to you🙂

One of the many things that make me sad about this existence is that so many people don't/can't see that some of us males really do love, adore, miss, and cherish our children.


Kudos Mr. brandon!!!

Brandon you write from the heart it is touching...I'd sat your son is a lucky little guy 🙂

^^^^^say

thank you Seadream,i think really just lucky to have each other.@ IMPRESS ME=I WII CONTINUE TO DO THE BEST I CAN,i do think she loves him
,but not in mothering caring nurturing type way,i really beleive that in my heart😢

@ dofacc-when i relay my story to other people i they tend to laugh in my fsce because i am a male all the time

Hey hun think having each other is good actually more than good, but why do you feel she not love him in caring, nurturing way? she his mum where do you see she is going wrong? not meant as an inquisition just trying to understand

@ Sea Dream- I say this because of her behavior when she is with him alone,how she does not try to partake in any of his intrests because she finds mundane and boring,his lack of enthusiam when he knows he has to spend alone time with him.comments like i hate kids but i love my own,her lack of patience if the time period spent together exceeds over an hour,thats why honestly,not because i want it to be that way at all,i am still proud he loves her unconditionally,and i will not say or do anything to change that,i just beleive what i have seen over the course of his 6 year life,i beleive some people just dont enjoy kids as much as others,and their is nothing wrong with that,it is just a tragic state of mind when you have a child😢

You keep on being the Dad you are and he'll be good. Respect that you don't down his love for her, I have seen many women do that to their children out of bitterness after a breakup and it's not pretty on the child