Waiting

I read about her
One of the blokes waiting in line got pulled out by his mother 🤣😂🥴

I can let go. Only when I get dajavu does it resurface, then I do a check in with myself. Compare then and now. See if things are different. Be it people or situation.
I have Very few things left that trigger me like a trauma.

Compared to most pretty ease going and forgiving.
But when I do have a issue and its bothering me, its something serious or important to me.
When that happens I get vocal about the issue and try to hash things out whenever possible.
Its when I say nothing you got to worry. Waiting until I get over it is not a good idea. Don't let important shit and emotional issues fester with relationships you want to keep.

I'm waiting for my $ 100 🤲🏽

I don't know, that's the catch...I think one should know answer to this after 15 years being with a person. To me it's only normal that struggles come with life and that we should be willing to support each other in difficult times. But with him that support is very limited...like "ok, lets wait a little, but if it's longer than a month then nope, find something else to work". If we would be struggling with money I would agree with that completely and wouldn't wait at all. But we're not, he never needed to support me until now. Problem is, if I want this job I can't start working elsewhere, I need to be unemployed during the process that might take awhile. If it wasn't like that, I'd just work somewhere while waiting, but I can't apply to this if I'm employed anywhere, that's the rule...

I hope for that too. Working on it and building myself up. Thing is, I have to remain patient otherwise I'll completely ruin my only chance at my dream career. So I think waiting and sticking through anything is worth it cause that's what I want above everything else