Thanks for all the advice everyone. I do love her a lot but I've decided to just move on and to just be a friend only to her. The whole situation hurts and I love her very much but I can't be in this situation anymore.
I'm a Capricorn woman and she's a Cancer woman. We were together almost a year and ended up breaking up because we both had some things we needed to handle going on in our lives and we were unable to devote a lot of time to the relationship. We still talk and see each other every day. We have lunch together every day. She told me that after we get our lives together then we would get back together and continue our relationship. Then she said that I should move on and she will find me another girl friend but she still wanted to be the number 1 girl in my life and even come before my new girlfriend when I get one. There's another girl that we both know and the girl likes me. The Cancer woman made it very clear that she doesn't even want me to talk to the girl to even say hello. She wants me to stay clear away from her. So recently the Cancer woman told me to be patient and once every thing is in order then we'll be back together. Which is what I want and I told her that I would wait because I'm not interested in anyone else and I'm also getting things in my life in order. So I still call her 'babe' or 'baby' which she'll call me that too when we're talking. She asked me why do I do that and I told her because I still see her as my wife (we were engaged and planned on getting married) and it doesn't actually feel like we are not together since nothing actually changed. We just don't have the title. So then she said that she doesn't want me to feel mislead and that there is nothing that she's done to make me feel like we're getting back together. I referenced the many times she said that we would get back together, the fact that we still act like we're together, and the whole thing about her staying my number 1 girl. So then she said that she was playing when she said all of that and now know that she can't play with me in that manner. I was totally in shock and confused because she said all of that about getting back together and being my number 1 I asked if she was serious and she said that she was. Now all of a sudden she's was playing. Why would she play with my feelings like that? It's like everyday she's a different person and what she said is no longer how she feels. After she said that then I said well I guess we'll just be friends only. I'm just so confused. I love her and want to be with her but I don't want my feelings to be played with if she really doesn't mean what she says. Does anyone think that she really does want to get back together one day or should I just move on? She is just really confusing me and my emotions.