amazonbeauty joined April 13, 2013
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Posted by Undine
Amazonbeauty! Get down of your high horse and follow your heart for once.
I really enjoyed reading your story, bzw.
My heart scares me??_.honestly??_..sometimes it defies logic??_. thanks
Posted by CluelessCancer
You got to give people chances and seriously are luxury goods going to feed your soul? This guy to me sounds like a guy who went through alot, but is attempting to improve his life, positive influence does work on people you guys.
anyways i hope you get your MENTAL state together cause that's what's keeping this relationship from blossoming, you have many hangups and all of it material. Shame on you.
Awww this was written beautifully. You are right about being materialistic blame my parents (just kidding) I know my faults and that is something I'm currently working on. I'm not perfect but I recognize my imperfections and stand truthfully within them while I'm working to change them.
lnana04,
Lol??_thank you??_??_
I honestly do not know I guess time will tell. I really hope those feelings or resentment don't re-emerged. I really don't think they will because although I did decided to move on he was still very immature mentally and needed to change his life style and to be honest I didn't "fit" into his life style when he was being a "bad boy". I'm too scared and green but now that he's older and mature I see a different side of him and I can connect to that.
I think the "downgrade" issue has a lot to do with me being so ambitious. I have to come to terms that my life style will be different if we were to marry. However, what really matters is me being happy with him. I could've stayed with my cheating husband and lived very well but was miserable on the inside. I want true happiness and genuine love at the end of the day that's all that matters.
Lol??_thank you??_??_
I honestly do not know I guess time will tell. I really hope those feelings or resentment don't re-emerged. I really don't think they will because although I did decided to move on he was still very immature mentally and needed to change his life style and to be honest I didn't "fit" into his life style when he was being a "bad boy". I'm too scared and green but now that he's older and mature I see a different side of him and I can connect to that.
I think the "downgrade" issue has a lot to do with me being so ambitious. I have to come to terms that my life style will be different if we were to marry. However, what really matters is me being happy with him. I could've stayed with my cheating husband and lived very well but was miserable on the inside. I want true happiness and genuine love at the end of the day that's all that matters.
Seriously, who gives a rat's ass what some felon thinks about you?
You do apparently. Have a great day.
BTW it isn't my position to defend him, but we all make mistakes in life. He made mistakes when he was 18 years old that landed him in jail for a few months. He paid the price for his wrong-doing and has changed. Have you never done anything wrong in life? I cannot stand judgmental people who act as if they live in a perfect glass house. Your judgmental attitude and it's negativity is infectious and disgusting.
My ex-husband cheated with an employee. The woman he was cheating with called and threaten to beat my ass in front of my husband and child. He was demoted from his leadership position and almost fired because of it. So if I'm stupid for leaving a cheating, lying, sneaky,manipulative, passive-aggressive, ass-hole. Then by all means I'll be her.
I did not leave him while he was in prison we were merely friends. It wasn't until after he was release that I made the decision to move on.
I did not leave him while he was in prison we were merely friends. It wasn't until after he was release that I made the decision to move on.
I have to tell him to stop because it's as if he can't get enough.
Although I do love, everything about him, he is (almost) everything that I would want and need from a man. He asks about my child and genuinely cares about her. He's so attentive to my needs and wants, he's very smart, and can hold a intellectual conversation. However he is still rough around the edges. I know that even still today my parents wouldn't really like him. My ex hubby was clean cut "good guy" but was very sneaky and used that as a disguised. And he's the complete opposite. I'm introducing him to a new world "my world" of fine dining, traveling and luxury. But I don't know if he can adjust. I'm also concern because he has a felony.
What concerns me the most is that we had a argument the other day about this. He feels insecure about providing a life style I'm accustomed to and it worries him yet he says it also motivates him to do better. But I'm concerned about downgrading or people comparing him to my ex-husband, although they are both capricorns they are day and night.
He also keeps up with my monthly cycle (should I be worried) and can give me Christian Grey vibes.
Although I do love, everything about him, he is (almost) everything that I would want and need from a man. He asks about my child and genuinely cares about her. He's so attentive to my needs and wants, he's very smart, and can hold a intellectual conversation. However he is still rough around the edges. I know that even still today my parents wouldn't really like him. My ex hubby was clean cut "good guy" but was very sneaky and used that as a disguised. And he's the complete opposite. I'm introducing him to a new world "my world" of fine dining, traveling and luxury. But I don't know if he can adjust. I'm also concern because he has a felony.
What concerns me the most is that we had a argument the other day about this. He feels insecure about providing a life style I'm accustomed to and it worries him yet he says it also motivates him to do better. But I'm concerned about downgrading or people comparing him to my ex-husband, although they are both capricorns they are day and night.
He also keeps up with my monthly cycle (should I be worried) and can give me Christian Grey vibes.
vent his frustrations about his relationship. I would give him my honest feedback which was often to try and work it out and to communicate with her. One day he called me drunk and crying about his situation and I had never ever heard this man cry. I was really taken back and concerned for his mental health and that was the day I told him he need to leave her. Weeks went by and I didn't hear from him, I moved on and started dating someone new (a leo??_never again) he called me and I told him I was heading to my boyfriends apt he sounded surprise by my response. He begin to tell me about the same issues he was having with his girlfriend again. By this time I was tired of hearing it and told him "he must like it because he was still there" he was offended by what I said and ended the conversation abruptly.
Months passed and I really didn't hear from him, my relationship with my Leo failed miserably and I began to invest my time into work. He reached out to me and told me the relationship was over between them. I was surprised but happy because the relationship was very unhealthily. I began to confide in him about my failed marriage, and my depression.
One day while I was at work he sent me this extensive text message explaining how he would treat me if I was his woman. He confessed that he loved me and had never stopped loving me. I was shocked, scared and had mixed emotions. I didn't know what to think, or do. We started to talk daily.
But I notice a huge difference in my cappy friend. He had matured greatly. It was almost as if I never really knew him. He told me about his dark past and life in the streets things he had done and told me he always looked at me as a "good girl" and didn't want to taint my life. He agreed that he wasn't ready for me when we first met and know longer resented me for moving on.
So presented day today. I think about how cold he was a few years ago and how much he has opened up to me now. I'm learning him all over again.
He tells me he wants to marry me, and he loves my scent, he says he's never been so intoxicated by a woman's natural scent and that every time he see's me I give him butterflies even after ten years.
Our sex life needs another thread within it's self. Sex with him is literally the best sex I've ever had in my entire life. It's mind blowing. It's so animalistic. He told me know one has ever made him lose self control the way I do when we are having sex. I have to tell him to stop because it's
Months passed and I really didn't hear from him, my relationship with my Leo failed miserably and I began to invest my time into work. He reached out to me and told me the relationship was over between them. I was surprised but happy because the relationship was very unhealthily. I began to confide in him about my failed marriage, and my depression.
One day while I was at work he sent me this extensive text message explaining how he would treat me if I was his woman. He confessed that he loved me and had never stopped loving me. I was shocked, scared and had mixed emotions. I didn't know what to think, or do. We started to talk daily.
But I notice a huge difference in my cappy friend. He had matured greatly. It was almost as if I never really knew him. He told me about his dark past and life in the streets things he had done and told me he always looked at me as a "good girl" and didn't want to taint my life. He agreed that he wasn't ready for me when we first met and know longer resented me for moving on.
So presented day today. I think about how cold he was a few years ago and how much he has opened up to me now. I'm learning him all over again.
He tells me he wants to marry me, and he loves my scent, he says he's never been so intoxicated by a woman's natural scent and that every time he see's me I give him butterflies even after ten years.
Our sex life needs another thread within it's self. Sex with him is literally the best sex I've ever had in my entire life. It's mind blowing. It's so animalistic. He told me know one has ever made him lose self control the way I do when we are having sex. I have to tell him to stop because it's
I met my him when I was 18 years old, I'm now 28. We worked together and he was very quiet and exuded mystery. I was immediately intrigued by him but he never really talked. Long story short I made this one lifetime exception and approach a man. We talked and he told me he was interested but didn't know how to approach me for I was in management and he was my employee. He was a bit of a "bad boy" and got into some trouble which landed him several months in jail. During this time I wrote him and we formed a "relationship" while he was incarnated. My parents didn't like this of course and made it known that they disapproved of our "relationship". Once he was released I went to see him for the first time since I had met him (we only saw each other that one day at work before he went to jail). His family was having a "Welcome Home" party (lol) and he introduced me to his entire family who liked me a lot. I remember we went swimming and made love for the first time and I've been hooked every since and now it's been over a decade.
We started "dating" afterwards and he was still his very quiet and distant self. The sex was so amazing but I couldn't get him to open up. I begin to doubt a future with him due to his background and him still being a "bad boy" and decided to move on to someone else. We lost touch, I got married had a child and moved on with my life.
He reached out to me on Facebook and we became reacquainted. However, he had changed, he held resentment towards me for choosing my husband (security ) over him. Not only that but he was upset because when we were dating I got pregnant but choose a abortion and I didn't consult with him before hand.
I tried to explain that I was young, and didn't want any children. I was unsure about a future with him due to him being so involved in the streets and doing stupid stuff but he didn't understand. We would get into heated arguments and stop talking for months. I would delete his number and assure myself that I was DONE with him but no matter what he would end up right back in my life.
My marriage fell apart, I went through a really difficult time. Although him and I were FB friends and I had his number we weren't regularly maybe once a month if that. During my split from my ex husband I suffered deep depression, I suffered alone and know one really knew.
He was also involved with someone and started experiencing issues with his relationship during this time he would often call and vent his fr
We started "dating" afterwards and he was still his very quiet and distant self. The sex was so amazing but I couldn't get him to open up. I begin to doubt a future with him due to his background and him still being a "bad boy" and decided to move on to someone else. We lost touch, I got married had a child and moved on with my life.
He reached out to me on Facebook and we became reacquainted. However, he had changed, he held resentment towards me for choosing my husband (security ) over him. Not only that but he was upset because when we were dating I got pregnant but choose a abortion and I didn't consult with him before hand.
I tried to explain that I was young, and didn't want any children. I was unsure about a future with him due to him being so involved in the streets and doing stupid stuff but he didn't understand. We would get into heated arguments and stop talking for months. I would delete his number and assure myself that I was DONE with him but no matter what he would end up right back in my life.
My marriage fell apart, I went through a really difficult time. Although him and I were FB friends and I had his number we weren't regularly maybe once a month if that. During my split from my ex husband I suffered deep depression, I suffered alone and know one really knew.
He was also involved with someone and started experiencing issues with his relationship during this time he would often call and vent his fr
Posted by Metoo
I usually mean what I say in anger but the anger is usually hurt(USUALLY) and I have held my tounge for far to long to keep from losing control.
Caps hate to show emotion or lose it so when it comes out its usually been brewing, then we get our control back and can back up what we said but feel bad about the delivery...
I believe the cap withdrawal is to prevent showing these strong feelings whether they be anger, love...especially sadness....we want to hide...especially the men...so then we come back when were feeling more stable and ready to connect again.
I totally agree when the release their emotion they let it all out if they release it and believe me it takes quite a bit for them to reach the boiling point at least with my cap....I can say this once he does open up and you get through the coldness it does take time....quite of bit of time...but once you get through trust that he will love you immensely but that does take time and a lot of work.....
Posted by xxoommmxxoo
i don't know if they were incompatible but she wasn't giving him head and someone else would. Don't create a weak link in your marriage ladies. Men are sexually beings i mean lets be real.
Allow me to clear this up...our marriage wasn't sexless however, when we first got together I was 19 a very horny teenage without children a lot of energy and time on my hand therefore we had sex a lot. We had oral sex a lot and because we didn't live together it was like we couldn't get enough of each other I remember our wedding night was crazy....so as time goes by we still would have sex but during intercourse I would probably give him oral maybe once a month however we would have sexual intercourse maybe 3 times a month......but since he infidelity occurred it was like I couldn't get enough of him I don't know if I was trying to out do what she did or if something just came over me since we were arguing more that made me want him even more...so as of lately the sex has been plentiful....
Posted by EusiveSoulll
@ amazonbeauty... what is done is done..clearly!! What matters at this stage is what steps YOU are prepared to take to remedy the situation. As it has already been suggested, there are really only two options left;
a) you either truly forgive and stay
OR
b) walk away
Well said...thank you
....and maybe realign your expenses....the mortgage issue kind of made my ears tingle. did you not know that you were close to a modification loan, was he hiding it? are you living beyond your means and the he just can't provide the things you want....like the purse you mentioned?
I wouldn't think we were living beyond our means because as I stated it was suppose to be a christmas gift that I never received nevertheless, I only asked for it because he was putting in more hours at work. As I stated, I found out that the house was under modification in August so he wasn't hiding it but he also didn't willing tell me until I asked. I've never had to micromanage his financial responsibilities in the entire 9 years we have been together. So I was a bit taken back that he was behind on the mortgage.
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I met my him when I was 18 years old, I'm now 28. We worked together and he was very quiet and exuded mystery. I was imm
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Soooooo I met this Leo and initially I liked him but I wasn't overly interested well he really pursued me and eventually
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So I met my cappy man when I was 19 years old he is 4 years older than me. We have been together for 9 years he was comp
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