It was my own fault for going in the cage unprepared.
Hello forum,
First sharing my problems/feelings, even over the internet, is something new for me. I've recently joined several forums looking for answers, opinions, or maybe just an eager ear. I figure the law of numbers is on my side and eventually someone will be able to help/guide me. Secondly, well there isn't a second, but I'm of the opinion that if you start with "First" you have to follow up with "second or secondly".
Now on to good bits(the back story and issue).
A little over a year ago I was dumped by my girlfriend, she was a Leo...hence the topic title. Even after a years time I'm still missing a chunk of myself. The first few months of the break up I tried to reconnect with her, but she wasn't having anything to do with me. Now I consider myself pretty stable, but even a stubborn, prideful, asshole such as myself can only take so much rejection. I won't go into details but it was a wild ride and I'm glade I came out alive. Here I stand(sitting really)a changed man, nothing dramatic, but positive changes none the less.
I once asked her "if she loved me, why'd she break up with me?". Her response was "she loved the person she thought I was". So now with a well paying job, positive feelings about myself, and a new found respect for love how do I get my Leo back? My life has changed so much in a year, and my future has potential. I just want to be able to show her what I'm capable of and what I've accomplished in a short amount of time.
I honestly just miss her, and for some reason that feeling has been intensifying over the past week. I feel this sense of urgency, a feeling of now or never.
Sigh, I just want my soul, self, or whatever is missing to back.
Thanks for letting me vent, and if you have anything helpful please share.