Oops typo:
She was not "hot" at all but it still pissed me off.. etc
It's been two weeks post breakup and I'm still having a hard time with all of this. I just need some help from you Aquas to move on.
This is the second Aqua I've dated and the 4th Aqua I've encountered.
First Aqua boyfriend I dated for years. My first love. He was a cheater and broke my heart.
Then I met two Aquas in between that I wasn't that into. One chased me HARD and I felt smothered and lost interest. The other was very nonchalant and boring and I lost interest again.
Needless to say there's no consistency with you guys.
Now this Aqua I've dated for just a few months.. but since he moved things SO FAST between us with crazy make out sessions starting from date one and talking about future and family and telling his friends about me.. I fell hard. It was the perfect mix of sexual passion, friendship, romance with an adequate amount of space.. I fell in love. Probably too fast.
Anyways the relationship ended because he wanted space and freedom and said he no longer saw me as a potential lifelong partner (ouch).
Not sure what I did to deserve this and I'm having a hard time moving on.
I have good days when I remind myself of his bad qualities like:
-he was a jerk with no filter and had an arrogance to him that landed him in many arguments with friends and family
- he had too many female friends including one that was blowing up his phone and who he didn't want to introduce to me (even though his guy friends knew who I was). She was not got AT ALL but it still pissed me off and I acted really jealous about it which he didn't like
- he was selfish and stubborn
-he lied when we met and said he was a total homebody but then started partying like crazy half way through our relationship (another reason he dumped me is because he wanted to party and be free he says)
.. then I have bad days when I remember how he kissed me and touched me and looked into my eyes like he was smitten. We had amazing chemistry and he even told me he loved me. He said the world stopped moving when he kissed me. He said I was the smartest, hottest girl he ever met. He would say things like "you're good at everything, you would make a great Mom".
So why did he choose the party life over me? Why did he suddenly stop seeing a future with me?
I gotta say this has hurt me really bad and I don't have any desire to date someone new even though I have guys trying to date me constantly. I'm just sad and exhausted. Usually I rebound and forget the ex fast but this time I feel stuck in this feeling and I don't know what to do.
Ever since we broke up, he stopped posting things on social media but I figured that might be just cuz he's busy partying?
He reached out to me once since the breakup and the convo didn't go well. Then I reached out once and he didn't respond.
I reached out again last week and I got a response but not a good one.. since then I stopped reaching out.
What now?