Message Posts by Orpheus
I feel it is important to mention that I am not much of a talker in most situations (basically anyone aside person I know in real life). I am not impolite, I think, but I tend to be quiet and talk only as far as necessary to get something done. What I actually talk about?
Hello. Fine, thank you. Yeah. Oh. No, thank you. Alright. Would you mind [insert request]? Thank you. Goodbye. You too.
It is unlikely that I would even talk THAT much in one conversation.
I am an incredibly boring mercury in Virgo in the 8th house.
I like to ponder myself, personality, enneagram, sychology, philosophy, religion, past lives, spirituality, the end of the world, parallel universes, gender, sexuality, human relations, society, art, music, literature, beauty, language, the roman empire...
Normal things.
Hello. Fine, thank you. Yeah. Oh. No, thank you. Alright. Would you mind [insert request]? Thank you. Goodbye. You too.
It is unlikely that I would even talk THAT much in one conversation.
I am an incredibly boring mercury in Virgo in the 8th house.
I like to ponder myself, personality, enneagram, sychology, philosophy, religion, past lives, spirituality, the end of the world, parallel universes, gender, sexuality, human relations, society, art, music, literature, beauty, language, the roman empire...
Normal things.
I've adopted this as my personal theme song (and it's sung by my total girl-crush!):
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Barbara Palvin:
How often does a normal person contemplate suicide or feel suicidal?
They are indeed very different things.
I don't want to die right now or even soon, but when I die I want it to be by my own hand. Probably by drowning myself in a natural body of water as I feel the water is my "home" and it would make sense for it to be my place of death.
God I am such a control freak; I don't even want to lose control in death.
People always say "think of the people who love you" or even "suicide is selfish", but wanting someone to live even if they must suffer just so you don't go through losing them is equally as selfish.
Not that I don't get it, I would not want someone I love committing suicide. That is selfish though, that I would want someone like my depressed Mom to continue on in a life that has not treated her well just for my comfort. I am an exceedingly selfish person though. lol
The strange thing is I rarely feel bad, even when I'm thinking of killing myself. It might be the medications repressing the emotions, but not the thought patterns.
I actually feel really, really great at the moment.
Hello, my name is Orpheus and I am an over-sharer!
They are indeed very different things.
I don't want to die right now or even soon, but when I die I want it to be by my own hand. Probably by drowning myself in a natural body of water as I feel the water is my "home" and it would make sense for it to be my place of death.
God I am such a control freak; I don't even want to lose control in death.
People always say "think of the people who love you" or even "suicide is selfish", but wanting someone to live even if they must suffer just so you don't go through losing them is equally as selfish.
Not that I don't get it, I would not want someone I love committing suicide. That is selfish though, that I would want someone like my depressed Mom to continue on in a life that has not treated her well just for my comfort. I am an exceedingly selfish person though. lol
The strange thing is I rarely feel bad, even when I'm thinking of killing myself. It might be the medications repressing the emotions, but not the thought patterns.
I actually feel really, really great at the moment.
Hello, my name is Orpheus and I am an over-sharer!
I did some thinking on this.
To me, I am a pretty whole/self-sufficient person, always was a girl who could entertain herself. I want love and, more importantly, romance yet I do not put effort into pursuing it. I do not go out or try to meet/flirt with guys. I just look at it as too much trouble, drama, and most importantly effort.
I worry, I guess, that something is wrong with me. Because it is rare for me to feel connection/emotion to a guy or even just a person in general. I talk to my Mom about some things in real life and my friends online, but I do not go out much and when I do go out, I tend to only say what is required to perform the function then I keep to myself. The strange thing is that I rarely realize how alone I am or feel lonely. How much of an introvert I am. I am not super shy, I just hold myself apart from others reflexively. I do not know how to be close to people.
I sometimes think I am cold or not properly human, because I am not as social as I "should" be. I wonder what I am missing out on by not connecting with others romantically or otherwise. I do not tend to do anything about it, though.
To me, I am a pretty whole/self-sufficient person, always was a girl who could entertain herself. I want love and, more importantly, romance yet I do not put effort into pursuing it. I do not go out or try to meet/flirt with guys. I just look at it as too much trouble, drama, and most importantly effort.
I worry, I guess, that something is wrong with me. Because it is rare for me to feel connection/emotion to a guy or even just a person in general. I talk to my Mom about some things in real life and my friends online, but I do not go out much and when I do go out, I tend to only say what is required to perform the function then I keep to myself. The strange thing is that I rarely realize how alone I am or feel lonely. How much of an introvert I am. I am not super shy, I just hold myself apart from others reflexively. I do not know how to be close to people.
I sometimes think I am cold or not properly human, because I am not as social as I "should" be. I wonder what I am missing out on by not connecting with others romantically or otherwise. I do not tend to do anything about it, though.
Hello! I have an okay grounding astrology, but I would like to hear your opinions on my chart.
Asc: Aquarius
Sun: Virgo
Moon: Taurus
How close to your moon are you?
Very close, I identify with it more than my sun honestly. I do not fit the idea of the Virgo, I am very sensual and pretty lazy/easygoing.
How much of it's traits do you feel define who you are and how you respond to situations?
Somewhat, it's a piece of the whole.
How easily can you differentiate between your lunar responses and solar responses?
Not super easy, they tend to work pretty well together.
Sun: Virgo
Moon: Taurus
How close to your moon are you?
Very close, I identify with it more than my sun honestly. I do not fit the idea of the Virgo, I am very sensual and pretty lazy/easygoing.
How much of it's traits do you feel define who you are and how you respond to situations?
Somewhat, it's a piece of the whole.
How easily can you differentiate between your lunar responses and solar responses?
Not super easy, they tend to work pretty well together.
Can I ask what is funny? Anyway, glad you could laugh.
I am a Virgo with a Taurus Moon and Aquarius Rising.
I become a snappy, snarky bitch in effort to hold in the explosion. I don't get truly angry often though. I can also do the intimidating glower-like-a-serial-killer thing, it's fun.
Top 5:
Rednecks/country boys who can only talk about mudding and fishing.
Guys who are old enough to be my Dad talking about how mature I am and how impressed they are while hitting on me -- like they don't just want a young girl period.
Guys who have no interests or passions (actually make that people).
Guys who go on about their ex and how they've been hurt. I am not here to kiss boo-boos. I hate those whiny/bitter fuckers.
Guys who think that they are owed sex for the wonder of two weeks of their enthralling company.
I am really not as bitchy as this makes me sound...
Rednecks/country boys who can only talk about mudding and fishing.
Guys who are old enough to be my Dad talking about how mature I am and how impressed they are while hitting on me -- like they don't just want a young girl period.
Guys who have no interests or passions (actually make that people).
Guys who go on about their ex and how they've been hurt. I am not here to kiss boo-boos. I hate those whiny/bitter fuckers.
Guys who think that they are owed sex for the wonder of two weeks of their enthralling company.
I am really not as bitchy as this makes me sound...
I am pretty comfortable being single. I like the freedom and the time to explore my interests and focus on myself. The only thing that really makes me consider trying to find a boyfriend is sexual desire. I was raised conservatively and still have residual guilt, so I am sure I would beat myself up for being a filthy whore if I had casual sex. But I do not really connect with anyone enough to consider a relationship. I am a romantic and I do not want to date someone just because.
I am just wondering if there are any drawbacks to not pursuing romance heavily in my youth? Particularly with developing relationship skills or something like that?
Maybe my standards are too high? Does it say something about me if all of my strong attractions are to people who are unavailable (geographically remote)? Basically, is there something wrong with me that I have not been bitten by the love bug? I am young yet.
I just seem to feel more like myself when I keep to myself.
I am just wondering if there are any drawbacks to not pursuing romance heavily in my youth? Particularly with developing relationship skills or something like that?
Maybe my standards are too high? Does it say something about me if all of my strong attractions are to people who are unavailable (geographically remote)? Basically, is there something wrong with me that I have not been bitten by the love bug? I am young yet.
I just seem to feel more like myself when I keep to myself.
Probably 18-25 would be good, ideally more like 20-23. Younger guys tend to be at their peak psychically and do not not have/want kids or be looking to settle down. Plus, and this is the big thing, I would feel out of control and like the power dynamic had been shifted if I dated say a 30 year old. Too much maturity and life/relationship experience to be equals.
I am not particularly rigid, but eh this guys seems kind of lazy. I can understand the money thing, but the way you describe it? It's not very compelling. He does not sound like he is working very hard to impress you...
I am actually pretty flexible, though I can seem kind of formal in public.
I am actually pretty flexible, though I can seem kind of formal in public.
I guess you could say I'm a introvert. A loner taken to the extreme. Isolation breeds strangeness (so they say). I'm hungry, maybe some Toaster Strudel? Birds are a chirping and the sunlight is filtering in through the window. How charming! I might need to see a chiropractor, but as always the home-remedies are tried first. Act on is wonderful. I should die my hair red, but then would I still be able to wear red lipstick? Polyvore is fun to waste time on; I'm great at that.